The Bad Mothers (Guilt Free) Confessional Thread

Originally Posted by AngelUK

I love my boys so much but I am fed up with not sleeping properly, with wanting to cry all the time cause I have the blues and most of all with my huge down-hanging apron of a belly. I want my flat de-cluttered and not have baby things EVERYwhere. I am horrible and ungrateful and I am now off to cry again.

Originally Posted by AngelUK

I love my boys so much but I am fed up with not sleeping properly, with wanting to cry all the time cause I have the blues and most of all with my huge down-hanging apron of a belly. I want my flat de-cluttered and not have baby things EVERYwhere. I am horrible and ungrateful and I am now off to cry again.

Hugs to you! you're not being horrible! You're a new mummy, and its overwhelming enough with 1 Lo, nevermind twins! Sleep will get better, the first couple of weeks are the hardest but remember there's always someone to talk to and I'm sure family and friends would love cuddles with your boys whilst you have some 'me' time, even if its just in another room. I know I didnt have 2 babies but when I look at my stretchmarks on my 'pouch' I remember what a blessing it was to carry my baby and you had twins, which is special! Be proud Mama :-)
And just while you want your flat baby clutter free, I used to love my clutterfree house. Now I have baby toys, cloth nappies in every room at hand, washing on every radiator and 2 husky type dogs that moult and leave their toys EVERYWHERE! They are worse than my lo!

Ahh crazy life, wouldn't want it any other way!

One time I fell asleep with my baby in my arms when they were about 5 weeks old, thankfully my laptop was beside the sofa, so when baby slipped a bit from my arms their head tapped the laptop edge instead of them posssibly falling onto the floor. On that day I never again dared to breastfeed on the sofa, now I know why they say "Never breastfeed while tired on the sofa" I felt so awlful that day like the worse mother on earth for being so careless

Today
1) I gave willow a tiny piece of chocolate, don't know what came over me, she's only 13 weeks old....she loved it though, whoops, no more solids for you for at least another month or two!
2) I bashed her head on the baby bath as I was getting her out.
3) I growled at her when she spat some milk out, and she looked petrified...

It's not been a good day....

Knocked Kara's head off the bathroom door and I couldnt help but laugh at her expression.

What a terrible person I am.

my first bad mommy confession...
LO was crying and crying cause she was hungry and OH was holding her. So I said I want to breastfeed her. I grab the boppy pillow and while I am adjusting it around me dont know what happened but I guess OH thought I was ready to take her and we moved in the same direction at once and My hand kind of punched LO in the head..I felt so bad it wasnt that hard and she didnt even cry in fact she had stopped crying I think I scared her.

Originally Posted by AngelUK

I love my boys so much but I am fed up with not sleeping properly, with wanting to cry all the time cause I have the blues and most of all with my huge down-hanging apron of a belly. I want my flat de-cluttered and not have baby things EVERYwhere. I am horrible and ungrateful and I am now off to cry again.

Heya,

I just wanted to say you aren't alone in what you're feeling. I have twins too and I could have written EXACTLY what you have. It does get better, then worse again, then better again........its very up and down!!

One thing you will do is get used to everything twins bring, that alone makes you feel a tad better on a day to day basis.

I notice you are in London, if you are nearby maybe we could meet up and compare stories?! Even if you are not close by, please feel free to PM me if you need any support, I know exactly what you're going through

i was really hungry so i put LO in his bouncy chair. he started crying but i didnt want my food to get cold so i played with his foot with one hand and kept eating with the other. he cried during the whole meal i felt so bad

Originally Posted by veganmama

i was really hungry so i put LO in his bouncy chair. he started crying but i didnt want my food to get cold so i played with his foot with one hand and kept eating with the other. he cried during the whole meal i felt so bad

Sounds like most meals I've had since Alex was born

He really hates me eating for some reason and will be sat there mega happy and smiling, but as soon as I set my plate of food down to eat - he goes berserk
He also has a knack of waking and screaming the SECOND I lay back to relax in the bath

Originally Posted by Gemmamuk

Sounds like most meals I've had since Alex was born

He really hates me eating for some reason and will be sat there mega happy and smiling, but as soon as I set my plate of food down to eat - he goes berserk
He also has a knack of waking and screaming the SECOND I lay back to relax in the bath

That's funny-I swore to DH that every time I get off the couch & go to bed the minute I fall asleep lo wakes up-he didn't believe me until I made it a point to stop each time on my way to make a bottle lol