Hi girls, have been stalking this thread for quite some time (who am I kidding - for the past two months actually

) and just have to thank each and every one of you for the info and experiences posted on here.
In a nutshell, this pregnancy has been crazy. It's my first pregnancy after trying for 6 months, there was spotting at the beginning, then severe MS that I ended up on home IV therapy and a Reglan pump for, and then at my 20 week ultrasound the dr discovered that in addition to the baby having what looked like bilateral clubfoot, my cervix was down to 1.3cms. They immeadiately sent me over to labor and delivery and I was hooked up to the toco and started on Indocin - no contractions were seen. The drs kept asking OVER and OVER if I was SURE that I never had any ob surgeries or procedures, any previous pregnancies or miscarriages, and any contractions with this current pregnancy to which my answer was 'no' to everything... the only thing I told them was that I always had pressure... like the baby was right there down below. They were totally baffled about why my cervix had shortened to that point without me having any previous history or any recent contractions... in the end I think they deemed it that I was having 'silent contractions' that I couldn't feel and also weren't showing up on the monitor, I on the other hand honestly feel like it just happened for no reason... that my cervix was just weak or short to begin with and that's why I felt the pressure.
Anyhow... after two days of no contractions and Indocin, they scanned me again and found that the cervix was about the same length but that the Indocin could not be continued because it was causing a pressure to rise in the baby's heart. They took me off that med and I was put on Procardia for the rest of the hospital stay. I got scanned every few days, cervix always stayed about the same but then after a week in the hospital I had a scan where baby had turned around (ALL scans since 20 weeks he has been head down except this one) and his foot was literally pressed down the entire length of the funnel... SO the drs decided to put in a mcdonald stitch before the cervix had a chance to shorten any further. So, I got the stitch and was on IV antibiotics and mag sulfate (worst drug ever!) and procardia until I left the hospital after being there for a little over another week... talk about lowww blood pressures! That was the only time that I had any contractions at all... pretty severe ones actually, but they said it was normal as they had to manipulate things, etc. Also had gotten an amnio done at the same time as the cerclage to check for any infection (the one remaining reason the drs thought that the shortening could have been from) which came back all clear. Had the genetic portion done as well since the baby showed clubfeet, and thankfully that was all clear too. At the cervical scans that I had after the cerclage was placed, I was pretty consistently measured from 2.1 - 2.3. I was sent home (on no meds as the entire time I was hospitalized I hadn't shown a single contraction) on strict bedrest, only allowed up to use the bathroom or to shower with a shower seat, and my MIL or grandma come over everyday while DH is at work to fix me lunch even... I literally have been up to go to the bathroom or go to a drs appt ONLY. I'm going into my 8th week of bedrest now. I was also diagnosed with GD at 24 weeks... I tell you it's been a ride!
Even with being on bedrest I had to go to MFM once a week to have a cervical scan/prenatal. The past 5 or 6 scans there has been no change at all... then this morning I went in and I had gone from 2.2 last week to 1.7, and above the stitch when pressed on went from .7 last week to .3 cms this week. I was so dissapointed. I really thought that everything was going so well and that I would make it to 36 weeks (when they are planning to remove the cerclage) without a problem, and now I feel so naive to have felt that confidence. I am still not having any contractions, they hooked me back up to the monitor at the office and it showed nothing (surprise!) and now are having me come back Friday to see if there is any more change... if there is I will most likely be readmitted for the duration until they remove the stitch, which I cannot even fathom at this point. 15 days seemed forever but two months?
Right now I am feeling more anger and frustration than fear about this whole thing. The drs at first were skeptical that I would get to 24 weeks, and now that I was working on 28 with no cervix changes I really felt good about it all. I was determined to keep him in there until they planned on taking the stitch out at 36 weeks and even after today's news I still feel that way... but the thoughts of having to go back into the hospital are looming over me and making everything seem worse.
Sorry so long! After todays slipup I couldn't help but post on this thread, any questions please ask! Hope you are all well