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Old Jun 24th, 2010, 15:32 PM   1
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I am actually really badly afraid of going to hospital to deliver this baby so much so i am seriously considering not notifying medical staff when i go into labour ( i do not need a talk on why medical staff are important and what might go wrong you wont get anywhere i have firm reasons for my choices and you will only get offended by my reaction) is anyone else feeling this way?! i am really really utterly terrified i cant full explain in words how scared i am of going to hospital the thought of it makes me want to cry!



 
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Old Jun 24th, 2010, 15:49 PM   2
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could you maybe get a private midwife....I know it's expensive,but may be worth it as you will build up a relationship beforehand and you get to explain your fear?



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Old Jun 24th, 2010, 15:59 PM   3
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I've only recently heard about 'free birthing' or unassisted childbirth - birthing without medical staff and it wouldn't do for me personally even though I am a home birth, no intervention based birthing advocate! Maybe there is some middle ground though?

Cant say I'm a fan of hospitals either. Did you have a bad experience birthing your DD? Would you hire a Doula to support you during the birth (big evidence base on easier, quicker labours and births in the presence of Doula's or equivilents - if money is an issue to hire one, you can still apply).

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Old Jun 25th, 2010, 01:40 AM   4
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I had a still birth, botched d+c then was treated poorly during labour with my daughter. Its not a case of im not a fan the thought if it literally makes me sob with fear. An independent midwife is WAY out of what i can afford there are two locally to me each charges 3.5-4.5k. I did look at doulas i also interviewed a few but they are just birth partners that you pay, locally to me they are just around for a few antenatal lessons (which i dont need) and the birth then you pay extra for breastfeeding support. i might aswell throw my money away and as a recently singled mummy i just dont have money to do that with. i have very close people too me that can support me during labour who actually know when to leave me alone etc etc based on our 7/8 year friendships.
Also Friends who have medical training.
I may change my mind when the time comes but i know because of my history that any midwife that comes out will look for the smallest reason to get me into hospital. My local hospital is dirty, and the mat unit is under special measures for killing babies!
When i was in labour with my daughter i was bullied into an induction being told things like 'well if your baby dies youll have two dead babies that youll have to live with' then ignored and not believed when i was in labour. I saw a poor women who had been inducted and left give birth on the floor of the ward because noone was listening to her or her husband. i am not leaving myself in the position to be needlessly treated like that again.



 
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Old Jun 25th, 2010, 02:39 AM   5
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I had a still birth, botched d+c then was treated poorly during labour with my daughter. Its not a case of im not a fan the thought if it literally makes me sob with fear. An independent midwife is WAY out of what i can afford there are two locally to me each charges 3.5-4.5k. I did look at doulas i also interviewed a few but they are just birth partners that you pay, locally to me they are just around for a few antenatal lessons (which i dont need) and the birth then you pay extra for breastfeeding support. i might aswell throw my money away and as a recently singled mummy i just dont have money to do that with. i have very close people too me that can support me during labour who actually know when to leave me alone etc etc based on our 7/8 year friendships.
Also Friends who have medical training.
I may change my mind when the time comes but i know because of my history that any midwife that comes out will look for the smallest reason to get me into hospital. My local hospital is dirty, and the mat unit is under special measures for killing babies!
When i was in labour with my daughter i was bullied into an induction being told things like 'well if your baby dies youll have two dead babies that youll have to live with' then ignored and not believed when i was in labour. I saw a poor women who had been inducted and left give birth on the floor of the ward because noone was listening to her or her husband. i am not leaving myself in the position to be needlessly treated like that again.
sorry hun! that's so awful! I totally understand were you are coming from!....I am worried about something similar happening to me, as I also lost my son last year at 24 weeks and I am sure they will try anything to medically manage my birth, which also terrifies me....I am not a great believer in conventional medicine (put mildly)....
I know you will prepare yourself as good as you can and have as much knowledge as possible....and if you are "out of your depth" you can always transfer to hospital last minute.....
hope all goes well for you!



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Old Jun 25th, 2010, 03:23 AM   6
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what i would do in your position hun is inform them when you go into labour but also inform them due to treatment you have received from them in the past you will be doing the majority if not all your labour and birth at home with the least medical intervention as possible but will request it if required and that if you are not treated at a satisfactory level you will be making an official complaint to the medical board and to the local trust services as you do not and will not be treated like you were last time, but this will only be if you need the medical assistance.
that way they ar einformed incase you do need medical intervention if complications arise, and if you do go into hospital if you feel like anything is being forced onto you or you are being treated poorly then say to them, or shout if needs be, i am the mother of this child and i know my rights and if you dont listen to me or carry on with your behaviour i will come down on you like a ton of bricks after i leave as i know that the way you are treating me is unfair and uncalled for, do a bit of research if you have to and throw the legal book at them, they cannot treat you that way and if you dont put your foot down firmly they will, and everytime they come near you to try and do something you dont want them to scream at them in the face! worked wonders for a friend of mine! they wanted to break her waters but she didnt want them to as baby was fine and even though she was in major pain obviously she was fine so everytime they tried to she clamped her legs shut got on all fours and growled at them, they soon got the picture to leave her alone! xx



 
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if you aply for a Doula under hardship fund, you will not have to pay. Have you got a birth centre near you, you could birth at. I have heard far too many experiences like your, and have strong feelings about inductions being used on many women unecessarily!! Some women are pregnant for 10 months - up to 44 weeks but the hospital insisits on bringing babies into the world before they are ready ( i understand about safety of baby being paramount, which is why daily monitoring is acceptable). A Doula is much more that someone who prepares you ante natally, they can give you all the information on YOUR rights so you can demand the birth that you wish, and will speak on your behalf if needed. WOmen looking after women in labour is a powerful energy. They can give you info like knowing you can refuse an induction, all being well with baby of course. In fact, they cant make you do anything you dont want, but the way some clinicians phrase things makes us think we have no choice!

I refused induction drip and had the consultant and midwife lecture me during full contractions about it - not helpful. My 1st midwife walked out on me and refused to assist! I accepted fetal monitoring to make sure baby was ok - which was my compromise. All was fine.

Have a read of this book if you've got a library close by, "Ina May's guide to childbirth" - by Ina May Gaskin. Fantastic for restoring your confidence in you and your body to birth naturally.

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Old Jun 25th, 2010, 03:26 AM   8
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My daughter was recently blue lighted to hospital due to convulsions and it literally took 5 mins, i am fully informed aware and sensible although i am very acutely aware that people hear the word freebirthing and panic thinking its a reckless decision etc etc. i am not planning a freebirth as such. my childrens dad would prob call someone when the water hits the floor even if i didnt want him too... it just fills me with dread and fear. Hopfully i can just call someone when its going to be to late to move me anywhere (unless its a real emergency obviously) x



 
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Old Jun 25th, 2010, 03:32 AM   9
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if you aply for a Doula under hardship fund, you will not have to pay. Have you got a birth centre near you, you could birth at. I have heard far too many experiences like your, and have strong feelings about inductions being used on many women unecessarily!! Some women are pregnant for 10 months - up to 44 weeks but the hospital insisits on bringing babies into the world before they are ready ( i understand about safety of baby being paramount, which is why daily monitoring is acceptable). A Doula is much more that someone who prepares you ante natally, they can give you all the information on YOUR rights so you can demand the birth that you wish, and will speak on your behalf if needed. WOmen looking after women in labour is a powerful energy. They can give you info like knowing you can refuse an induction, all being well with baby of course. In fact, they cant make you do anything you dont want, but the way some clinicians phrase things makes us think we have no choice!

I refused induction drip and had the consultant and midwife lecture me during full contractions about it - not helpful. My 1st midwife walked out on me and refused to assist! I accepted fetal monitoring to make sure baby was ok - which was my compromise. All was fine.

Have a read of this book if you've got a library close by, "Ina May's guide to childbirth" - by Ina May Gaskin. Fantastic for restoring your confidence in you and your body to birth naturally.

xxxx
I am very aware of my rights :-) this is the third birth that i have wanted to have at home. only this time i am fully educated i had the fear of god put into me by consultants last time and i was also pretty poorly during my last pregnancy so had no fight in me really.
There is nothing in the way of birth centre anywhere near me which is stupid because we have a very high birthrate.
I dont need confidence in my body and ability to birth naturally, its not the birth i have a problem with its the idea of being in hospital.



 
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My daughter was recently blue lighted to hospital due to convulsions and it literally took 5 mins, i am fully informed aware and sensible although i am very acutely aware that people hear the word freebirthing and panic thinking its a reckless decision etc etc. i am not planning a freebirth as such. my childrens dad would prob call someone when the water hits the floor even if i didnt want him too... it just fills me with dread and fear. Hopfully i can just call someone when its going to be to late to move me anywhere (unless its a real emergency obviously) x
if it fills you with that much fear and dread you thought about hypnotherapy to help control you fear a bit more? even if you cant afford it you can do it yourself in a way, all you need to do is meditate twice a day every day best once in the morning and once in the evening if possible, concentrate on your breathing, in for 10 counts out for 10 counts, eyes closed, picturing your baby, and just say the mantra 'i am a blessed childbearing woman, i am strong willed and know my own body, i will not panic if medical intervention is required for the safety of my precious child' say it to yourself 15 times. it will really help you to relax and clear your mind more and calm your nerves and feelings for if the time arises where you do need their help. xx



 
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