Im 19 soon to be 20 i was dealing with what i thought to be a happy time in my life me and my childhood love got back with one another and we decided we wanted to have a baby it would have been my first and his 2nd. He wanted a little girls as did i cause my boyfriend already has a son. I have been up for hours not knowing how to feel.. My boyfriend lives in another state so once i started having pregnancy symptoms we started to talk every morning and text threw the day. Well I knew from the start my pregnancy may not be normal due to the fact that i endometriosis. I told him this as well but i dont think i was ready for what happend today. This morning i woke up in some of the worst pain ever and i thought maby it was from me stressing out so much about school and things. SO i went and stood in the shower thinking the heat would eas my pain like a heating pad. As i stood there i talked to my boyfriend on the phone. I then got off the phone and my pain became 10x worse i hunched over and began to cry because the pain i was feeling was out of control and called my boyfriend to tell him what was going on then i noticed i had started to spot a light pink like mucus. So i tried to take a pain pill the only reason i did this was because i had been taking pregnancy test and they have been comeing back negative. So today i thought well maby im not pregnant and thought well maby my period is coming on late which has never happend to me. untill about 9 hours ago i had been in bed all day it is now 5:18 am and i began to miscarage around 12pm to 1pm... The pain i felt was the worst and pain pills did nothing to help.. After a few hours of sleep i woke up in more pain and desided i needed to use the bathroom as i sat there i felt something feel like a pop so i looked down to see this sticky deep red/white clot. it was stringy and about the size of a nickle. I know i have had a miscarage and it has broke my heart i feel so empty and alone now. My boyfriend blames the lose on me and i have had no one to comfort me or tell me its ok other than a doctor. I know that i did not cause this due to the fact of my endometriosis. I wish he could understand this i wish there was someone to relate to.. I was 4 weeks and 5 days along..

I am so sorry for your loss - there is a miscarriage and loss section here where you'll find lots of support xxx

I am so sorry hun

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Welcome to the forum! I am sorry to hear about your loss.

Welcome to BnB, I am so sorry to hear of your loss, hope you are ok? x x

HI sorry for your loss hunny,
Im 19 nearly 20 too. I've had 6 miscarriages so I feel your pain
It's never your fault hunny and it's wrong for him to accuse you too! You can private message me if you wish hun xx

V xxx

Welcome to BnB I am so sorry for your loss!!