The Am I aren't I Story... Latest Update: Lost my bean :(

Katiie · Jan 3rd, 2013, 12:47 PM

Ive been bleeding since December 19th.
Sometimes passing thick clots the size of my hand (and I have big hands!)

When I went to a&e they tested my bloods which are all fine. Infact apparently they are above average! So my body is coping just fine with the blood loss.

I've already had 2 scans:
3rd Jan ~ Showed Empty 4 Week Sac.
11th Jan ~ Showed Grown Sac with Yolk.

Now I've been told many times by nurses and doctors I've misscarried, I am miss carrying and chances of it becoming a full pregnancy are "very unlikely"
But they can't do anything as it is growing.

Next scan ~ 25th Jan. I should be 7 weeks so I should be able to see a fetal pole & heart beat.
I'm hoping then, ill get my answers.
I've already mourned the fact I've lost the baby. I have no emotional connection to it and I don't feel pregnant. So please don't be afraid to tell me the worst

I just don't want to bleed anymore.

Anyway, this is my story so far, convinced many a time that I had passed it, turns out I haven't yet

_kate_ · Jan 3rd, 2013, 12:53 PM

Hi, I'm sooo sorry you are going through this. Having been through it twice I know how you feel.
To me it unfortunately sounds like it could be the sac. I would ring your local maternity ward and they should get you in for a scan ASAP.
I really hope it's not, but I'm sure you would rather know soon than in two weeks.

Kate x

ttcmoon · Jan 3rd, 2013, 22:04 PM

I am so sorry for you!I have been there twice as well and still trying for our rainbow baby #1.
Please get yourself scanned immediately as advised by Kate.Our prayers are with you.Lots of Hugs!

Katiie · Jan 4th, 2013, 13:52 PM

I rang the hospital. They just said I have to wait 2 weeks.

I'm sure what ever was there has gone.
I just want it all to be over now, not to have to wait another 2 weeks.

Passed another huge clot this morning which went straight into the toilet so I didn't get to inspect.
No other clots since.

ColorMeFamous · Jan 7th, 2013, 02:03 AM

It doesn't sound like what I passed. Well the sac anyway. When I had my early miscarriage I did pass huge clots which I thought were the baby but then I came across the small sac... I was about 5-6 weeks along. Here is a link to my pic. So sorry you have to go through this.

http://m1111.photobucket.com/albumvi...l?o=2&newest=1

Katiie · Jan 7th, 2013, 05:05 AM

I'm still bleeding but not passing any clots, well only the tiny odd one. Xx

Oh wow. Your picture! I'm so sorry for your loss xxx
I've not passed anything like that x

ColorMeFamous · Jan 7th, 2013, 11:51 AM

Awe it's okay. I have mostly dealt with it. I have the occassional bad day but I know everything happens for a reason

I found seeing her little amniotic sac gave me a lot of closure. I hope you can get that closure too

loeylo · Jan 7th, 2013, 13:28 PM

I don't think that sounded like the sac either. In saying that, with my first loss I don't remember passing a sac at all, but with my second I passed something roughly the size of a chicken egg, which was pretty hard and I couldn't have broke it up without bursting it if that makes sense, it was really firm. With both my losses I passed huge clots which sound like what you have described.

Katiie · Jan 8th, 2013, 06:07 AM

I did a test, and te lines came out super dark. Darkest I've seen them tbh.
The lines came up straight away too.

BUT If you have an empty sac do your hcg levels still rise?

Parma violet · Jan 8th, 2013, 06:23 AM

Hi, so sorry to hear what you are going through.

Just to add what you said you passed doesn't sound like what I have passed as the sac. Mine looked very similar to ColorMeFamous but covered in dark, slimey blood. I have been passing clots like the one you described for about two weeks.

I hope you get some answers soon and are able to get some sense of peace.

Jan 3rd, 2013, 12:47 PM	#1
Katiie Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Ipswich Posts: 3,210	The Am I aren't I Story... Latest Update: Lost my bean :( Ive been bleeding since December 19th. Sometimes passing thick clots the size of my hand (and I have big hands!) When I went to a&e they tested my bloods which are all fine. Infact apparently they are above average! So my body is coping just fine with the blood loss. I've already had 2 scans: 3rd Jan ~ Showed Empty 4 Week Sac. 11th Jan ~ Showed Grown Sac with Yolk. Now I've been told many times by nurses and doctors I've misscarried, I am miss carrying and chances of it becoming a full pregnancy are "very unlikely" But they can't do anything as it is growing. Next scan ~ 25th Jan. I should be 7 weeks so I should be able to see a fetal pole & heart beat. I'm hoping then, ill get my answers. I've already mourned the fact I've lost the baby. I have no emotional connection to it and I don't feel pregnant. So please don't be afraid to tell me the worst I just don't want to bleed anymore. Anyway, this is my story so far, convinced many a time that I had passed it, turns out I haven't yet

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Jan 3rd, 2013, 12:53 PM	#2
_kate_ Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Uk Posts: 25	Hi, I'm sooo sorry you are going through this. Having been through it twice I know how you feel. To me it unfortunately sounds like it could be the sac. I would ring your local maternity ward and they should get you in for a scan ASAP. I really hope it's not, but I'm sure you would rather know soon than in two weeks. Kate x

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Jan 3rd, 2013, 22:04 PM	#3
ttcmoon Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: India Posts: 309	I am so sorry for you!I have been there twice as well and still trying for our rainbow baby #1. Please get yourself scanned immediately as advised by Kate.Our prayers are with you.Lots of Hugs!

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Jan 4th, 2013, 13:52 PM	#4
Katiie Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Ipswich Posts: 3,210	I rang the hospital. They just said I have to wait 2 weeks. I'm sure what ever was there has gone. I just want it all to be over now, not to have to wait another 2 weeks. Passed another huge clot this morning which went straight into the toilet so I didn't get to inspect. No other clots since.

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Jan 7th, 2013, 02:03 AM	#5
ColorMeFamous Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Feb 2012 Location: Calgary, AB Posts: 759	It doesn't sound like what I passed. Well the sac anyway. When I had my early miscarriage I did pass huge clots which I thought were the baby but then I came across the small sac... I was about 5-6 weeks along. Here is a link to my pic. So sorry you have to go through this. http://m1111.photobucket.com/albumvi...l?o=2&newest=1

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Jan 7th, 2013, 05:05 AM	#6
Katiie Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Ipswich Posts: 3,210	I'm still bleeding but not passing any clots, well only the tiny odd one. Xx Oh wow. Your picture! I'm so sorry for your loss xxx I've not passed anything like that x

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Jan 7th, 2013, 11:51 AM	#7
ColorMeFamous Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Feb 2012 Location: Calgary, AB Posts: 759	Awe it's okay. I have mostly dealt with it. I have the occassional bad day but I know everything happens for a reason I found seeing her little amniotic sac gave me a lot of closure. I hope you can get that closure too

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Jan 7th, 2013, 13:28 PM	#8
loeylo Waiting To Try (WTT) Active BnB Member Join Date: Nov 2012 Posts: 467	I don't think that sounded like the sac either. In saying that, with my first loss I don't remember passing a sac at all, but with my second I passed something roughly the size of a chicken egg, which was pretty hard and I couldn't have broke it up without bursting it if that makes sense, it was really firm. With both my losses I passed huge clots which sound like what you have described.

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Jan 8th, 2013, 06:07 AM	#9
Katiie Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Ipswich Posts: 3,210	I did a test, and te lines came out super dark. Darkest I've seen them tbh. The lines came up straight away too. BUT If you have an empty sac do your hcg levels still rise?

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Jan 8th, 2013, 06:23 AM	#10
Parma violet Waiting To Try (WTT) New BnB Member Join Date: Jan 2013 Posts: 6	Hi, so sorry to hear what you are going through. Just to add what you said you passed doesn't sound like what I have passed as the sac. Mine looked very similar to ColorMeFamous but covered in dark, slimey blood. I have been passing clots like the one you described for about two weeks. I hope you get some answers soon and are able to get some sense of peace.

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