Mother Nature can sometimes be a bitch

mummy darling · Aug 14th, 2009, 15:31 PM

I am feeling really down today. It is 12 months to the day that I had to have an ERPC following miscarriage at 10 weeks, and after TTC ever since the last thing I needed was one particulary visitor (AF) today.

I pretty much have held it together all day, apart from a couple of wobbly moments, but just broke down when I was getting my darling daughter ready for bed, and it made it worse when she asked me why I was crying.

I thought I was over it, I had got throught my due date, which was the same date as my dad's birthday, but today has just really hit me. Will I ever get over it?

I just want to curl up in a corner and die today, the world has really got too much for me, and I think that if it wasn't for my beautiful girl I would just want to go to sleep and never wake up,

Sorry for long post, but need to get it off my chest.

Tempera · Aug 14th, 2009, 15:38 PM

*Hugs*

fluffyblue · Aug 14th, 2009, 16:07 PM

No I dont think we ever get over it - it just heals over the crack and then something sets us off. For some reason I got upset over our 1st MC which was 7 years ago becuase today was the day I found our I was expecting. Strange what brings the stresses on. Lots of hugs to you xxxxxxxxx

mummy darling · Aug 14th, 2009, 17:16 PM

The problem is the whole but short pregnancy was punctuated by birthdays... BFP on my birthday, due date my dad's 65th birthday, scan day before my mum's birthday and erpc day after my mum's birthday. Need to get over it but don't know how. Now just had text to tell
me best mate is expecting......

MrsJD · Aug 14th, 2009, 17:35 PM

Oh Mrs

XXXX

sleepinbeauty · Aug 14th, 2009, 22:45 PM

I think this might be one of those things that will scab over and heal for te most part but will leave a scar that might fade over time...but it's still a scar that you will have forever.

I cannot imagine how it must feel to go through this. Closest I can was a false positive a few years ago. I really hope you get better soon. Hang in there. *hugs*

toby2 · Aug 15th, 2009, 01:33 AM

Visqueen · Aug 15th, 2009, 01:59 AM

Im so sorry hunn.

I too had a d&c after a loss at 11 weeks so I know just how hard it is. when I got pregnant then I got caught 1st month of trying but after that loss it took me 9 months to get caught again. I thought it was odd after getting caught so fast that it didn't happen like that again but as time has gone on Ive seen the same happen to a few of my friends to.

Try not to let it get you down and try to think positive then things will pick up before you know it

dan-o · Aug 15th, 2009, 03:35 AM

Ugh, thats awful, why is life full of unpleasant coincidences like this?
Sorry hun, sending

Kirsty14 · Aug 21st, 2009, 02:53 AM

(((((hugs)))))

Aug 14th, 2009, 15:31 PM	#1
mummy darling Trying to conceive (TTC) Join Date: Aug 2009 Posts: 2	Mother Nature can sometimes be a bitch I am feeling really down today. It is 12 months to the day that I had to have an ERPC following miscarriage at 10 weeks, and after TTC ever since the last thing I needed was one particulary visitor (AF) today. I pretty much have held it together all day, apart from a couple of wobbly moments, but just broke down when I was getting my darling daughter ready for bed, and it made it worse when she asked me why I was crying. I thought I was over it, I had got throught my due date, which was the same date as my dad's birthday, but today has just really hit me. Will I ever get over it? I just want to curl up in a corner and die today, the world has really got too much for me, and I think that if it wasn't for my beautiful girl I would just want to go to sleep and never wake up, Sorry for long post, but need to get it off my chest.

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fluffyblue On a break (TTC) BnB Addict Join Date: May 2009 Location: Birmingham UK Posts: 2,726	No I dont think we ever get over it - it just heals over the crack and then something sets us off. For some reason I got upset over our 1st MC which was 7 years ago becuase today was the day I found our I was expecting. Strange what brings the stresses on. Lots of hugs to you xxxxxxxxx

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mummy darling Trying to conceive (TTC) Join Date: Aug 2009 Posts: 2	The problem is the whole but short pregnancy was punctuated by birthdays... BFP on my birthday, due date my dad's 65th birthday, scan day before my mum's birthday and erpc day after my mum's birthday. Need to get over it but don't know how. Now just had text to tell me best mate is expecting......

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sleepinbeauty Waiting To Try (WTT) BnB Addict Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: NY, USA Posts: 3,361	I think this might be one of those things that will scab over and heal for te most part but will leave a scar that might fade over time...but it's still a scar that you will have forever. I cannot imagine how it must feel to go through this. Closest I can was a false positive a few years ago. I really hope you get better soon. Hang in there. hugs

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Visqueen Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Nottingham Posts: 721	Im so sorry hunn. I too had a d&c after a loss at 11 weeks so I know just how hard it is. when I got pregnant then I got caught 1st month of trying but after that loss it took me 9 months to get caught again. I thought it was odd after getting caught so fast that it didn't happen like that again but as time has gone on Ive seen the same happen to a few of my friends to. Try not to let it get you down and try to think positive then things will pick up before you know it

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Aug 15th, 2009, 03:35 AM	#9
dan-o Other BnB Addict Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Devon Posts: 9,373	Ugh, thats awful, why is life full of unpleasant coincidences like this? Sorry hun, sending

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