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Old Jul 4th, 2013, 15:49 PM   1
icantdecide
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I should have had.....


I haven't been on BnB for a while and I haven't been in here for even longer.

I'm just having a sad day.

I should have a two year old right now. But I'm sitting alone in my living room just waiting for OH to come home.

I want my two year old. Why do other people get to keep their babies and we don't

I'm sorry this forum even has such a large group. It's far too sad for words. None of you deserves to be here x



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Old Jul 5th, 2013, 04:59 AM   2
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I was hoping as time goes by it would get easier. I suppose we will all have reminders, and so we should...we should be sad on them days. We should also have our babies in our lives. I hope our sadness is ahort lived with happiness on its wsy for us all x



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Old Jul 5th, 2013, 09:18 AM   3
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I have my two miracle rainbow babies to cuddle with and hold but they don't take away the sense of loss I feel. Yes, I've carried to term but I've got SEVEN baby angels too. It's hard knowing that and having to go through each day is a struggle right now with my most recent loss not even over yet. It's even harder because I see my sister due at the end of the month with her 6th and I'm just barely getting started on this loss. It's like, she can have a baby a year like clockwork and I can't hardly get out of the first trimester! It's not fair!

But I know someday soon, I'll be able to laugh and smile and mean it again. And I'll have another rainbow baby. We aren't sure if we'll continue ttc at this point (DH says it's up to me but we need to talk to the dr first and set up some further testing) but since my first miscarriages five years ago, we've never stopped talking about adoption. I feel very strongly we'll have more children and I'll love them equally no matter how they came into our lives.



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Old Jul 5th, 2013, 10:31 AM   4
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Quote:
Originally Posted by icantdecide View Post
I haven't been on BnB for a while and I haven't been in here for even longer.

I'm just having a sad day.

I should have a two year old right now. But I'm sitting alone in my living room just waiting for OH to come home.

I want my two year old. Why do other people get to keep their babies and we don't

I'm sorry this forum even has such a large group. It's far too sad for words. None of you deserves to be here x
Off and on I find myself wondering the same thing. What's wrong with me, that I didn't get to keep mine.



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Old Jul 5th, 2013, 15:09 PM   5
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I often find myself in this place of "I should have". It's hard not to even though I think it depresses me more than helps. I should have a 3 1/2 year old. But if I had her I wouldn't have my rainbow. My rainbow should have a twin but my pregnancy became a singleton at 9 weeks. I should have a 3 month old sibling for my rainbow but she grew her wings last fall. And now I should be preparing for my 20 week ultrasound but that little one grew wings just days before the other angel's due date.



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Old Jul 5th, 2013, 15:09 PM   6
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to everyone here.



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