New to this site,and recently lost our baby girl Chloe
Hello, to all, I am new to this site and not sure what to say. I recently lost my baby girl Chloe. I was 18 weeks pregnant with her, I had what they call a missed miscarraige. We went Aug. 31, 2009 to our regular scheduled appt. to find out if we were having a son or daughter (we have two beautiful boys 12 yrs. and 5 yrs. young) after the baby being healthy we were praying for a little girl to join our family. Our doctor (who delivered our other two children) had a difficult time finding a heartbeat, and when he did the ultra sound found our baby was not moving, no heartbeat, with an unusually large head, and her spinal cord by her head did not fuse together. I am not sure what caused that, but pray it never happens again. Chloe died within a day or two of our appt. I went in the next day to be induced so we can hold our angel. She was 3.8 ounces and 7.5 inches long. She was born in the arms of an angel on September 2, 2009 at 8:43 A.M. My oldest son doesn't talk about it, and my 5 year old is sad. My husband and I are crying all the time (more me than him) and it doesn't seem that the pain is every going to get any easier. I feel so empty all the time, and try to go on as normal as possible for my other children. I have learned a great deal from Chloe and I am stressed about becoming pregnant again, but we do want to. Sorry I have babbled on, but thanks for reading.
OMG, I am so sorry, that is just so sad. I have 3 sons and I miscarried after my second also. Hubby and I wanted 3mths before trying again, I was scared and upset and the miscarriage was hard on all of us.
Your not alone, and will get through it and I wish you and your family all the best in the future
Im so sorry for your loss Life can be so so cruel. You will find lot's on support on here, the ladies a lovely
May Chloe be playing with all our angel's in heaven until one day (in a long time) meet them again
Sweet dreams poppett
I just wanted to send you my heartfelt support.
I lost my little boy just a few days before you at 22 weeks.
The 20 week scan showed serious abnormalities and he would never have been able to survive. We made the devastating decision to end the pregnancy. I don't want to say too much more now but please pm me if you would like to talk more.
I love you phrase, "born into the arms of an angel". I'm crying now reading your post. I know how sad and empty you feel.
I'm so sorry for your loss, i too had a missed miscarriage at 14+6, but i was allowed a d and c because my baby died at 12+4. Huge hugs and it does get better but the stressing over being Pg again will continue as i'm in that place now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thank you to everyone who has posted to my message, and too everyones message I have read that has helped me.
I came across a poem right after we lost Chloe, and I keep it with me always, and one day I will get a plaque with this poem on it for her. I could bare to get it now the memories are still fresh and I look at her urn everyday and cry (we had her cremated so we could still bring her home).
It is called My Little Angel, and I am not sure who wrote it, but it makes me cry every time.
I felt your presence there inside of me,
nestled soft and warm;
Sweet scent of baby's breath,
precious words left unadorned.
I saw your tiny heartbeat,
then I knew that you were fine;
A perfect baby we created,
one that would be mine.
Then that tragic day it came
there was nothing I could do,
Only wait and hope
for the precious life of you.
Yes in the beginning
your daddy was afraid;
Only he would love you unconditional
and never run away.
He loved you more this I do know,
as he cried for you that day,
When the doctor said that you were gone,
daddy wanted you to stay.
He would have held you close to him,
and see your perfect form,
A gift of daddy's love,
would have kept you safe and warm.
Only now you are an angel over me
beautiful and bare,
My heart would hurt if you cried for me
and mommy was not there.
Still we are together in my heart and memories,
You are stll a part of memory.
Rest gentle now 'sweet baby' there is no pain
you are never alone,
I know you are with the guiding angels
in your peaceful home.
I will come with you someday
only now is not the time,
Then we will be together again
again you will be mine
oh hunni am so sorry for the loss of your dear angel chloe i lost jessica in april at 19 weeks like you i had a missed miscarriage and delivered her 3 days after i had the scan to tell me.
i know right now the pain you are feeling but i promise it does get easier the pain never goes and you never forget but it does get easier. i miss jessica so much but i have started to see the light at the end of the tunnel and we are now on month 3 of ttc and its really helped me.
if ever need a listening ear keep posting here sweetie no matter what you want to write we will always be here. x
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