thanks everyone, maybe my story can show people that no matter how bad things get there is always another side. im not 100% happy i dont work because i get depressed among other things but im alive and that can only be a good thing.
thanks for all your kind words.
Your story is sensitive, honest and moving and will not only help you to share, but will help other mothers and mothers-to-be to realise how truly miraculous the gift of life is.
I have always thought that although I have not been blessed with children and indeed may not be, at least I have been spared the pain that an experience such as yours brings. You always come across as a wonderful, intelligent woman with a willingness to help others at the drop of a hat, sacrificing your own needs for those of others. It seems to be that the most sensitive and loving people in life are made suffer unnecessarily and I am sad that you have had to go through these experiences. It just doesn't seem fair.
One fabulous thing about sharing your story is that every single person who reads this will remember your little cherub in a slightly more special way. May she rest in peace and look after her mother from her special place, making you stronger and bestowing blessings on you from afar.
It sounds like it is time to move forward and no doubt the arrival of your new baby will help you do that.
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