2nd M/C in 5 months - I'm terrified i'm never gona have kids :-(

cazi77 · May 11th, 2011, 11:26 AM

Gutted is the only way I can describe how I feel. I had my HCG drawn on monday and it was 166 had it done again today and its 155

Its just a waiting game now.

I had a blighted ovum back in Dec and hoped it was a 1 off and I was just very unlucky but no. I want a baby so badly but feel its never going to happen?

Going to start ttc again straight away. I feel so angry and sad why me?

Andypanda6570 · May 11th, 2011, 12:52 PM

I am so sorry you are going through this

I lost my Ava at 18 weeks 9 weeks ago and it is the hardest thing i have ever been through in my life, I miss her every day. I go to see her grave every other day and just talk to her, I hope she hears me

I wish you all the best for the future and I am so happy to read your going to try again.xoxoxxo

cazi77 · May 11th, 2011, 13:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Andypanda6570

I am so sorry you are going through this

I lost my Ava at 18 weeks 9 weeks ago and it is the hardest thing i have ever been through in my life, I miss her every day. I go to see her grave every other day and just talk to her, I hope she hears me

I wish you all the best for the future and I am so happy to read your going to try again.xoxoxxo

So sorry to hear of your loss. Thank you for taking the time to reply xxx

amitootold · May 11th, 2011, 13:40 PM

Hi. I've had 2 m/c - just going through the second now. There is no rhyme or reason to it unfortunately. One lady who posts on here has had 11 m/c and I really don't know how she has done it. I am sure that you will have the baby you long for very soon. Hold on to the fact that you know you can get pregnant. I'm sure it will just be a matter of time. I also think if you m/c, there was a problem with the baby and it wasn't viable so your body is doing what comes naturally and rejecting it. Hugs xx

DaisyBee · May 11th, 2011, 13:44 PM

I am sorry for your loss

I have had 2 miscarriages in the same time frame - 1st in December & 2nd in April. I have a daughter who is 17 months but after 2 miscarriages we wonder if she will be our only child. Its heartbreaking. We decided to take a few months off ttc now.

mpepe32 · May 11th, 2011, 17:00 PM

im sorry for your losses. I had 2 mc's last year and am giving up. i was at the gyno last week and any drugs to help me conceive would make my endo worse. I have many other health problems as well. My eggs are already older than I am (35) and just tired of fighting what I guess is my fate. Sorry to be a downer I just wanted you to know you're not alone and I can share in your heartache. *hugs*

helenb · May 11th, 2011, 17:54 PM

hi cazi77. firstly i want to say i am so so sorry for your loss. nothing hurts more than losing a baby, but waiting to miscarry is agony!

i am currently going through my 11 miscarriage i know so well how you feel. i was told last week that my hcg levels were dropping (from 9985 - i thought it looked really good this time!) and it has taken until now for nature to take its course. it leaves you confused, anxious and like you are unable to grieve properly!

its normal to be angry and wonder why me. i have asked myself that so many times and even thought that i have done something really really wrong in my past to be punished so badly but i promise you, you will learn to deal with your anger and your grief and find that hope again.

like yourself i sometimes think it will never happen but if you keep holding onto hope and have just a little bit of faith, anything is possible! i wish you every bit of luck in trying to concieve again and really hope it happens for you soon. sending you so many hugs xxx

Embo78 · May 12th, 2011, 02:47 AM

Oh no cazzi I'm so sorry to hear this

Its just awful to go through losses. We took the 2nd mc particularly bad. We honestly thought the first one was "one of those things", bad luck so to speak, so when we lost the second in very similar circumstances, we were devastated.
We're currently pregnant again and hoping it's third time lucky but I'll not rest until I see that healthy baby. Only time will tell.
If you need to vent you can pm me any time

Jacobnmatty · May 12th, 2011, 08:57 AM

Sorry for your loss, I know a lady who has lost 5 babies to stillbirth. I don't know how she does it, life just doesn't seem at all fair.
I had my first miscarriage last week, lost baby at 10 weeks

coccyx · May 12th, 2011, 11:32 AM

Its horrid i know.
We had 6 miscarriages before our first daughter.
We now have 4 children and i conceived the last 2 after i turned 40!!
Give yourself time and all best for the future

May 11th, 2011, 11:26 AM	#1
cazi77 Pregnant (Expecting) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: Lancashire Posts: 1,909	2nd M/C in 5 months - I'm terrified i'm never gona have kids :-( Gutted is the only way I can describe how I feel. I had my HCG drawn on monday and it was 166 had it done again today and its 155 Its just a waiting game now. I had a blighted ovum back in Dec and hoped it was a 1 off and I was just very unlucky but no. I want a baby so badly but feel its never going to happen? Going to start ttc again straight away. I feel so angry and sad why me?

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May 11th, 2011, 12:52 PM	#2
Andypanda6570 Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NEW YORK Posts: 5,227	I am so sorry you are going through this I lost my Ava at 18 weeks 9 weeks ago and it is the hardest thing i have ever been through in my life, I miss her every day. I go to see her grave every other day and just talk to her, I hope she hears me I wish you all the best for the future and I am so happy to read your going to try again.xoxoxxo

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May 11th, 2011, 13:40 PM	#4
amitootold Other Active BnB Member Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Wakefield, England Posts: 266	Hi. I've had 2 m/c - just going through the second now. There is no rhyme or reason to it unfortunately. One lady who posts on here has had 11 m/c and I really don't know how she has done it. I am sure that you will have the baby you long for very soon. Hold on to the fact that you know you can get pregnant. I'm sure it will just be a matter of time. I also think if you m/c, there was a problem with the baby and it wasn't viable so your body is doing what comes naturally and rejecting it. Hugs xx

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May 11th, 2011, 13:44 PM	#5
DaisyBee Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: MN, U.S. Posts: 8,426	I am sorry for your loss I have had 2 miscarriages in the same time frame - 1st in December & 2nd in April. I have a daughter who is 17 months but after 2 miscarriages we wonder if she will be our only child. Its heartbreaking. We decided to take a few months off ttc now.

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May 11th, 2011, 17:00 PM	#6
mpepe32 Other Active BnB Member Join Date: Apr 2010 Posts: 493	im sorry for your losses. I had 2 mc's last year and am giving up. i was at the gyno last week and any drugs to help me conceive would make my endo worse. I have many other health problems as well. My eggs are already older than I am (35) and just tired of fighting what I guess is my fate. Sorry to be a downer I just wanted you to know you're not alone and I can share in your heartache. hugs

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May 11th, 2011, 17:54 PM	#7
helenb On a break (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: May 2011 Posts: 159	hi cazi77. firstly i want to say i am so so sorry for your loss. nothing hurts more than losing a baby, but waiting to miscarry is agony! i am currently going through my 11 miscarriage i know so well how you feel. i was told last week that my hcg levels were dropping (from 9985 - i thought it looked really good this time!) and it has taken until now for nature to take its course. it leaves you confused, anxious and like you are unable to grieve properly! its normal to be angry and wonder why me. i have asked myself that so many times and even thought that i have done something really really wrong in my past to be punished so badly but i promise you, you will learn to deal with your anger and your grief and find that hope again. like yourself i sometimes think it will never happen but if you keep holding onto hope and have just a little bit of faith, anything is possible! i wish you every bit of luck in trying to concieve again and really hope it happens for you soon. sending you so many hugs xxx

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May 12th, 2011, 02:47 AM	#8
Embo78 Mum (Mom) BnB Elite Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Manchester Posts: 13,925	Oh no cazzi I'm so sorry to hear this Its just awful to go through losses. We took the 2nd mc particularly bad. We honestly thought the first one was "one of those things", bad luck so to speak, so when we lost the second in very similar circumstances, we were devastated. We're currently pregnant again and hoping it's third time lucky but I'll not rest until I see that healthy baby. Only time will tell. If you need to vent you can pm me any time

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May 12th, 2011, 08:57 AM	#9
Jacobnmatty Waiting To Try (WTT) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Sydney, Australia Posts: 362	Sorry for your loss, I know a lady who has lost 5 babies to stillbirth. I don't know how she does it, life just doesn't seem at all fair. I had my first miscarriage last week, lost baby at 10 weeks

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May 12th, 2011, 11:32 AM	#10
coccyx Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: with the camels Posts: 2,578	Its horrid i know. We had 6 miscarriages before our first daughter. We now have 4 children and i conceived the last 2 after i turned 40!! Give yourself time and all best for the future

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