I'm new to this site, on Dec 20th we were scheduled for a routine NT scan which was our 1st US, we were actually hoping to get a picture and use it to tell our families for xmas. The most wonderful day our lives became a nightmare that I'm still having difficulty waking up from... 2 dys later we were scheduled for a CVS test, at this point we had to tell our mothers the situation, during the test everything looked good the nuchal mm had decreased considerably and everything looked good - a week later (12/28) we received the report that she had Trisomy 18 and termination was recommended. Jan 1st we terminated the pregnancy at 13wks 6 days - I know it's only been a wk and that I need time to heal physically and emotionally, but this is absolute torture... I know it was the right decision for us and we were lucky in many ways for finding out early and that it's not heriditary so in 3 mths time we can start again and the likelihood is that this won't happen again. But I can't stop thinking about her, all the dreams we had, the image of her jumping around on the US before we were told the bad news. I miss her so much, this is unbearable, somedays are good but others I'm just a wreck. I need to know that this can happen and still have a successful healthy, normal baby afterwards... I'm 35 yrs old and can't aford to wait too long, so we will try in 3 mths time as the dr recommends. But I'm terrified of this happening again or something else. I just feel lost and empty.

Hi peanut sorry fir your loss. I lost my daughter similar circu
Stances to you at 17 weeks in July.. I found the ethical losses section very helpfully.
I've just found out I am pregnant again but am bleeding( previous 3 miscarriages all at 5 weeks..) so trying to maintain a Pma. Pm me any time you want.xxxxxx

I will pray for you and your baby.

I am so so sorry for your loss. It is so natural to have dreams and start planning as soon as you find out your pregnant. I know I certainly did. It is very normal to feel sad and empty - I am feeling the exact same way. And being scared is normal. I am praying for you and your baby.

Sending you love and wishes for a quick physical recovery. I am really sorry for your loss. Such a rough loss for you and your family to go through...

Sorry to hear about your loss love. I never went exactly through that but I have had two natural miscarriages one at 6 week and the other at 12w4d. Its to worst feeling in the world losing your child even worse when you are surrounded my people who doesnt pay any attention on how you may feel and has never been through it all before. . I an sorry for your loss it is a horrid thing to ever go through. Good luck for the future xxx