Hi all,

I am so sorry that you are all here and having experienced this. I don't really know what to say here but i just feel the need to write down what I am expereinceing.

I am sure I am currently going through a miscarriage. I should be 9 weeks 4 days based on lmp and what I know through taking temperatures was my ovulation date.

Two weeks ago based on my dates I should have been just over 7 weeks and I started spotting brown blood. This is my first pregnancy and I had no idea what to expect but I was devestated. I also lost my cat to a road traffic accident on the same day. I took some time off work and then had a scan a few days later. There was a baby there with a heart beat but over a week behind on dates. I was so releived to see baby with heart beat and tried to relax about the dates as the ladies there seamed ok with it. But I knew there was no chance my dates were wrong. But still tried to relax and continue planning and enjoying my pregnancy.

Then on Wed and hubbies birthday I started spotting brown blood again. Tried to relax but made a GP appointment the next day. The GP basically told me I was a silly woman and wouldn't be happy unless I was hooked up to a scanner for 9 months! nice. He sent me on my way. I then found out that I didn't get the job I had interviewed for earlier in the week so good day so far.

That evening I started having cramps and then red blood with clots on toilet paper. Very distressed I rang NHS direct who got me an out of hours GP phone call who booked me a scan on 'monday at early pregnancy unit. So that was Thursday night. Since then the bleeding has contiuned more or less al the time moving from brown to red with clots and now is quite heavy. I have no pregnancy symptoms at all now. Today the pain has increased and moved to my back as well as my stomach and I can't stop crying every time I use the toilet. Despite having a tiny bit of hope its ok, I know that this is the end.

My OH has been lovely and supportive and coping so well with my random outbursts ( I got very cross about his salad choice for absoultetly no reason! )but I can see the pain accross his face and I know he wants to "fix" this or make it better and I feel so guilty about the pain its causing him. We had told our families and I hate the fact that I am losing their first grandchild and my sisters first neice/nephew. I just keep thinking I am not going to be the little family we dreamed of at Christmas, I am not going to be heavily pregnancy on my 30th birthday, I am not going to have an October baby.

I am dreading the scan tomorrow and being told what I know. I am dreading this pain getting worse and what I may pass in next day or two. Because of the bleeding we had earlier my work know so I am dreading taking more time off and people who don't know wondering why and my boss looking sympathetically at me on my return.

I just hope that after tomorrow when its all confirmed I can grieve and find a way of managing this hurt.

Thank you for letting me get this all out I am so sorry it is such a self indulgent lengthy post. I am sorry about the poor spelling and typing.

K xxx

Sometimes it may just be late implantation bleeding. When I miscarried there was a large clump of white cells (which I presume was my undeveloped baby). Fingers crossed for you tomorrow try not to worry! x

I hope i didn't offend by posting here before it was confirmed I guess I just knew that my little one had become an angel. I had a scan yesterday and heard the horrid words "I am sorry there is no heart beat". Baby had stopped growing a few days after last scan. Apparently they have to have two utlrasound people to confirm so I had to go back today and repeat the whole experience again which was horrid. I have opted for no interventions at this stage as already have some cramping and bleeding and hoping it will be over soon and then can grieve and say goodbye.

I am so so sorry for your loss hun

I think it's very insensitive of them to make you go back again today! I had a MMC at 8+3 weeks and I went for my dating scan at 12+1 to be told that baby had died at 8 weeks. The sonographer didn't go and get another sonographer or midwife etc she just left us alone in the room for a few minutes whilst they set up the side room for us with he bereavement midwife.

If you want to talk feel free to PM me x

I am so sorry for your loss!

Yes I have never heard of any one else having to do this. It just felt so cruel to have to do it again. Thank you for your kind words I guess I have no idea how I feel right now.

I am sorry for your losses too.

I'm so sorry for your loss, I've just had my 3rd mc in a row and I had to go back to hospital the following day to have a repeat scan for a second opinion. It was heartwrenching, but something I needed before going for my erpc that afternoon. Big hugs xx

I'm so sorry for your loss.