Hi everyone,

I hate that we all have to go through this, but I feel exactly the same. My oh came home today with the exciting news that his brother and sister in law have just found out they are 7 weeks pregnant. I should have been 15 weeks today. He was really happy for them, but all I could do was burst into tears. To make it worse my MIL is really happy for them whereas she has been encouraging me to go back on the pill . Makes me feel like our angel wasn't wanted by his family as much. But his brother has wanted to be a dad so badly so I am happy for them yet all I can do is cry!!

Can't stand being around pregnant women or babies and don't know how that feeling will ever go away!! It really does suck doesn't it?!

Big hugs to you all and wishing you all baby dust and rainbow babies in the future xxxxxx

Wow, so nice to see some deeply honest emotions. I knew I would feel sad and jealous, didn't think I would feel this bitter though. Not bitter about all my pregnant friends, just people on facebook/news/celebs who seem to breeze through everything. Also have been calculating all the people I know who have kids and those who have miscarried and the miscarriage figure is about 5%, when stats should be about 30%. Feel like it was almost a statistical inevitability I would miscarry! Nuts I know!! Think I will be fine in a few weeks, just a bit raw still! xxx

Hi I saw your post and signed up bc I understand how you feel! My husband and I have been ttc since July I was put on clomid for anovulation finally became prego but list our first baby in November 2011 then realized I also have a progesteron defficancy after having lots of test so I became pregnant again! We were so excited and scared but I was put on progesterone supplements and everything was going great until one Sunday morning I woke up to spotting I called the on call doctor and they finally got me in tue! I was do upset and destraught bc they said going to the ER isn't going to help if you miscarry u misscarry pretty much well my doctor upped my progesterone bc the blood test showed it had dropped so I can back 48hr later for more blood work well unfortunately it was to late and I miss carried again in feb 2012!;( after that we switched doctors and he started me on the progesterone the second have of my cylcke along with the clomid! I wish I could tell you how to handle being around your friends I'm in the same boat I work at a salon with 4 other pregnant girls and one of which is due in July and we would have had the same due date also!;( it's so mentally and physically draining to put on a happy face I go home and cry and try to explain to my husband and men don't understand he thinks I'm jealous of my friends who are pregnant! Of course he felt do bad for saying that and it's not that we are jealous its that are body is going up and down with the hormones and it seems as if every where you go there are pregnant women or little babies! I hope my quick run down of my story helps you just a bit!

I bought my husband a book yesterday because he says he knows he doesn't know what I am going through and since we had started trying I was always worrying about something being wrong and in the book it talks about miscarriage and what we might be feeling and with our hormone levels being "unstable" that our thoughts may be a little irrational at times and how we grieve over the loss.

I know my hubby wants to read the book now so he can kind of understand our thought process through pregnancy and not say "stupid" things that just make us feel more disappointed

My best friend just had her baby shower today I want to be really happy for her but just can't! I wish I could finally just have my healthy little one!

Seoul it's horrible isn't it, spent all all weekend with my newly pg SIL and at the min it's easy for me to forget she's pg but I'm dreading seeing her scan photo in a few weeks. Feel so bad because of course I want everything to go brilliantly for her and no problems but I think about how nice it would have been for us to have been going through healthy happy pg's together!! Take care hun and hope you are ok xxxxx

I know how u feel. When i M/C all i saw at my childrens school was blossoming bumps and there were at least 6 friends/family members pregnant due around the same time as me. my nephew was born shortly after i mc'd too. it is a very hard situation to be in but people were sensitive and very supportive, it won't ruin thier happiness if u show your sadness and hopefully if they are worth thier salt they will offer a friendly ear or a hug. so sorry for your loss