Your update is so heartbreaking, i am so so sorry. i hope you get answers soon x

Feeling nothing that many, many others have before me. We'll be okay.

Thanks for your support.

I wish you could have had better answers, my hcg will be monitored weekly and I will be updated every week till it gets back to zero. I also did not see a sack or anything on my ultra sound but I don't know where it is or if it has already passed but I called the dr to see what the next step is because what I was told would happen hasn't and I just want this to end. I know we will both be mom's one day. There was a poem that someone posted in here that made me sad but it was nice to read.

Hi there, I have just read your update and i am so sorry you are going through this. I had my missed miscarriage two weeks ago and I had only spotting, no pain though and still had all my pregnancy symptons but my baby was gone. It is hard, but it sounds as though you have a great support from your oh. My oh has been a rock and I dont know if I could have got through this with out him. It has made us much stronger. The whole sex thing will pass as your body heals and you can only decide when your ready to do it again. I hope your ok and we are here if you want to talk, sending you loads of hugs xx

Hi, all.

Gosh, it was sure tough to get to sleep last night. Settled in gingerly because my belly is still so sore, and the tears just came streaming out Somehow, shutting the lights out & tucking in after a long five days marked the end.

Eventually, I calmed down and fell asleep. Slept well, thankfully. Hubs was up early...he's got a conference to go to for three days. We decided there was little sense in staying back (though if I learn tomorrow hcg levels are on the up he'll come racing back because that would indicate ectopic and some sort of procedure...chances are low though as I had no pain yesterday as doc pressed around in tubal regions).

It's a still, sunshiney morning here. Am going to slowly make my way to the coffee shop at the end of my street. Later, if I'm up to it, I may walk to the fabric shop. Am still hunched over and in mild constant pain but now I know being up and about isn't threatening anything, I'll push through. I just can't lay down anymore! Not when blue skies and daffodils and a nice new summer wrap around skirt beckon.

I laid in bed all day Saturday sunday we did easter at my grandparents Monday I laid in bed till my appt and I have been in bed since after my appt. It was nice Monday and yesterday the baby passed which was very upsetting but I think today I'm going to try and do things. My husband has laid here with me and done everything he can but I know he is tired of laying around doing nothing when it's not raining out. I just feel so empty though.

Hi everyone.

Bit of an update to share. Went for my 2nd hcg blood test this morning. Was due to hear back by the end of the day but haven't. Do hope it's going in the down direction since Tuesday's. That reading was 183 (done at 9+6). Nurse said a pregnancy can be detected at 20 and that we'd expect the level to double every 48 hours. So, very much lower than it should be that far along.

Learned the bit of tissue that came out with speculum on Tues will be tested for what type of tissue it is (and nothing more): endometrial tissue, pregnancy tissue or something called 'mole' (which happens in ~1 in 1200 pregnancies...but I'm not sure what it is).

Was still feeling so perplexed about where the sac is/was, as apart from the tissue removed Tuesday, I've had only blood (no clots) pass. The nurse offered that if a failure happens very early the body can simply reabsorb it and we can't necessarily expect the body to expel anything. And I would have continued to experience pregnancy symptoms?, I asked. Yes, she said. It's possible. "We must rule out ectopic because we have no proof of an inter-uterine pregnancy. Your uterus was empty." She got up and I heard her speaking to a doctor and (presumably) a sonographer. The nurse expressed concern that we'd seen no sac. The sonographer said it didn't make sense to scan again. There'd been nothing on Tuesday. Nurse returned to me. "I'll ring later today with the hcg results. It may be ectopic. We just don't know."

I left the hospital feeling sad, still a bit bewildered by it all but trying to accept the new knowledge that perhaps there was nothing to come out at any point. Because my body had absorbed it. Walked out slowly (abdomen still very tender, from what I don't know). Paid for parking. As I made my way to the car, I felt something passing down and out of my vagina. It was unlike anything I've felt before. I paused and for a moment wondered, "Shall I go back in?" Opted not to...the image of that all-black screen and the words, "Your uterus is empty, there's nothing here" so fresh in my mind.

Got in my car and drove home. Parked up. Got inside. Walked up the stairs to the toilet. Before sitting down, I wiped...and lo, and behold: something. The size of a ping pong ball. A very 'contained' something. It smelled 'not right'. Suddenly I felt very calm. That's it, I thought. It must be.

I rang the hospital. The nurse I've been working with answered. Explained what had happened. Asked if I could bring it in for testing. Of course, she said. So, back I went to the hospital. Spoke to a different nurse upon arrival. She put on gloves, we emptied it out into a little lab dish. She commented that she'd be surprised if the lab said this was endometrium.

Where this was hiding is a mystery but I'm pleased it's out and that I'll be told what sort of tissue it is. It might be pre-mature relief but I have a feeling I passed the sac today. All to say, I'll be even more surprised if I learn tomorrow my hcg levels are increasing. I don't think I'm facing an ectopic situation. Phew.

Hope this can be of some help to someone.

PS. Hubs gets back tomorrow night from his conference. We're thinking of going on a short holiday. A three- or four-nighter to some European capital. Leaving Saturday or Sunday. We haven't gone on a holiday in four years. Been working so hard. Think it's a good time... Rome? Prague? Bruges? Where should we go?

You two should spend time together, I hope you start feeling better and your abdomen starts to relax if you have passed the sack. I wanted to know where my baby was hiding too because on my ultra sound it wasnt there, it is really confusing and I wish the dr would have explained where it could have. Hopefully everything happens the way you want it to and get the answers you are looking for from the dr

So, Thursday's hcg level was 69. Down from Tuesday's 183. Maybe hcg levels decrease at the same rate (by half every two days)? Had another blood test this morning. Hope they call me with that result later today (and also if I need to go in on Monday again).

Hubs & I decided not to fly anywhere. Tentative plan is to go away somewhere in England Monday for a few days. I'm bleeding very little now and suspect soreness will continue to diminish but as it's all so fresh and unknown and still a bit scary I just don't have the courage to get on a plane and be away from the medical care I've benefitted from the past week or so. Prague another day. Not today.

Feeling less bloated but trousers still feel a bit tight. Still uncomfortable to lay flat on my back. Like things in my abdomen are stretching as I do. Guess it takes a while for things to get back to 'normal' physically (and no doubt longer emotionally). Yesterday, out of the blue, this thought popped into my head: Will our baby have been born with hair? Just so many things to wonder about now. Sigh.

Hey girls!
I have been reading this page now..
And I have tears down my face.. I just wanted to say. that i actually had a miscarrage (chemical i think) at 4weeks+3days and I'm here for you if you need to talk

sorry to here


xxx