My first pregnancy was a happy surprise back in October but it was a complicated pregnancy. I had brown bleeding at first and my doctor ordered blood work and an early ultrasound at 6 weeks but it wasn't done at their office. I heard nothing back about either which is supposed to be good news. When I started having some red spotting at 7 1/2 weeks and lack of pregnancy symptoms so I called the office and my paperwork never made it back to my doctor. The blood work was normal and the ultrasound measured normal and there was a heartbeat but it was irregular (which isn't too unsual for 6 weeks). They had me come in anyways for another ultrasound and my doctor couldn't find a heartbeat and was certain I would miscarry. Cramps started that night and I miscarried naturally the next day at home. The pain was horrible, I was doubled over for an entire day. It was a devistating loss but I could understand that it happens and there must have been a reason for it. My husband and I got the green light to try again in December and we started right away. It felt like an eternity but in February we became pregnant again. Everything was going very well! My hcg levels rose perfectly and at the 6 week ultrasound there was a good heartbeat of 118 bpm. We were sure this was going to work out after that. I even got horrible morning sickness and all the other pregnancy symptoms. My doctor ordered a 9 week scan just to keep an eye on everything and we were so excited to see our little one. I knew as soon as she started she didn't see what she wanted too, my husband joking said that doesn't look like a baby, but sadly he was right. I had a missed miscarriage. Everything was still growing except the baby. My uterus, the gestational sac, and the amniotic fluid was measuring 9 weeks but there was only a speck where there should have been a baby. It feels so unfair. Everything was going right! I am young and heathly and it just feels so wrong that this happened to me again. I know it isn't just me and it is hard for everyone but I just don't understand what went wrong. I have to go for a D&C in a couple of days and it is killing me. I just want this baby so badly.

Oh hunny i'm so sorry you are going through this again. I know nothing anyone can say can make it any easier so i just wanted to send you lots of love and hugs

I really don't know what to say but wish I could give you a hug.

Thank you, just knowing others are out there helps. Sometimes it feels like the bad luck is just out to get me but then I read others stories and I know it isn't just me.