I found out a week ago that I miscarried. Before all that my period was about 10 days late but I didn't think much of it. I had been exercising a lot and figured that the exercising was the cause to my missed period. I went on vacation and decided that I would take a test after my trip. During my trip I had a lot of alochol. After returning home I took a test the next day and it came up negative. The following day I was having sex with the guy I have been seeing and I started to bleed and I was very freaked out about it. I have never bled during sex. So after the incident I went to my doctor and she informed me that I miscarried. I never told "the guy" that I missed my period or that I had a miscarriage. Our relationship wasn't anything serious and he didn't care very much. I've been wanting to tell him but I know that he won't care. I've had all these mixed feelings about the miscarriage. I'm heart broken that I lost my first baby. But at the same time I'm a little relieved that me and "him" wont be connected forever. I'm just so angry and upset. I'm everywhere on the scale of emotions. I feel that even if I told him about everything he wouldn't care. But I want him to know so that he could feel my pain and at least try to show some feeling. I just keep thinking that if I had tested sooner or if I knew I was pregnant I would not have been drinking on my trip.
The bleeding has finally stopped but the pain I feel hasn't. I don't know what to do. I'm heart broken.
Some days are good then others horrible or I'll be happy one moment then sobbing the next. I've been thinking of telling the guy I was seeing but I've been advised not to because of how he is. I haven't told my family either. So I've been alone in this miscarriage.
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