Sorry for this downer me-centric post... I truly don't know how much more of this I can take.

This morning my Opk was blaring positive, so I knew I would be O'ing sometime tonight. I went home lunchtime ( I live close to work) to try to entice DH to BD (he works from home). He turned me down and said he had masturbated earlier this morning!!! WTH!!!! This is the second time he's done this on my O day!!! He doesn't know when I'm Oing (it changes every cycle), but I just can't believe this is happening again!! Of all days?????

I'm just so depressed and numb and broken. This is just too hard. I"m having O pains right now and nothing.... I feel like I'm never going to get pregnant at this rate!! So sad.

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this my lovely.
what timing!
you'll get there, promise xxx

[QUOTE=Zeri;16890909]SaraJewel - all the best for this new month! I hope your DH"s performance continues to improve. I've been ttc since last October. I got pg in Dec, but it was a chemical pregnancy. Hoping for a sticky bean soon.

I'm with all of you with wanting a baby really soon. I think sometimes men don't understand the desire to have children. And they don't have a biological clock to think about either.

Katysmama - can I ask what fertility issue you have? Your daughter is adorable!

AFM - CD 16 and my OPk seems to be getting darker. But I don't see any ewcm at all! It's concerning. I'm on Clomid again this cycle and I think it might be messing up my cm. Sigh!! I really hope this month isn't going to be a bust. Will see if I can DH to BD tonight... I hope it works![

When I was 21 I was diagnosed as entering menopause prematurely. I was not ovulating and the first pregnancy I had barely registered at 9 weeks because of my hormonal levels being too low. I miscarried. Two months later I was pregnant again but at high risk for losing my daughter because of low hormones. It was a rough pregnancy but well worth the worry. I had been given a 50% chance of losing her if I took the medication given to me but had a 75% chance of losing her without the medication. Also I have been diagnosed with ovarian cysts and when I get them they get so large that my fallopian tubes are blocked and my ovulation os delayed sometimes by weeks and sometimes by months. I am being monitored for endometrosis at this time because of the severity of my cysts and because it is hereditary. Also I have a negative blood type so I am worried that the next pregnancy will end like the first one did or be much like my 2nd pregnancy. Pregnancy was very difficult on me because my hormones were low and from what my doctor said my body wouldn't register it was supposed to go into labor, my hips didn't spread, I couldn't dismayed and was overdue by a week and had to have an emergency csection. So even though I know all pregnancies are different I still have fears and am very worried. And thank you I think she is the most gorgeous gift I have ever been blessed with!

GRRRR!!!! I feel your frusterations!!! My Oh does that too me all the time!! When he was unemployed for a bit it was even more of an issue!!! I would get so mad at him...but I couldnt tell him i was oving or he would get stage fright!!! I feel your lose lose situation!! Try bding tomorrow!! Its good to get one in atleast one day after

This is our 2nd cycle of NTNP! he is all non chelant about it...and I am secretly OBSESSING!!!! I just realized that I want a baby so bad. Last cycle was our honeymoon and I'm pretty sure we BD'd on the right days, and even other days and got my AF on the 26th last month!!

This month we have been BD'ing occasionlly..in my opinion it should be more! especially because i was O'ing this past weekend..we only did it on the 2, 3rd, 5th, and 8th! hopefully we do it tonight. Every other time I tried he wasnt in the mood! I should be due for AF on the 24..so we'll see!!!!

Katysmama - wow, I'm sorry to hear about the issues you've been struggling with. I can understand why you would be worried. It's great that you were able to have your daughter, despite having such a rough time, though. How many children would you like to have?

Hopeful Mrs - Sorry about AF coming last month. I really hate her sometimes! I hope she doesn't show for you this month... it sounds like you covered your bases pretty well this weekend to me.

skeet - thanks for understanding! yup - it's definitely a lose-lose situation. You can't show how emotional/angry/frustrated you really feel for fear of scaring them off...but then if they don't know how you feel...how can you stop it?? GRRRR!!! It really is frustrating!

Anyway, I took your advice about trying to get in some BD today.. lunchtime. I practically had to jump through hoops as he wasn't in the mood, really, and I was TRYING to be calm and nonchalant about it, but still trying to get him 'in the mood'. I wasn't really in the mood myself..but...sigh...the things we do for ttc!! Anyway, we did it. I'm not sure how much it'll help as I'm pretty sure I ovulated yesterday afternoon, and after OH masturbated yesterday he mightn't have that much sperm left. But at least I feel good that I gave it another shot. So we'll see what happens.

they say egg stays for around 24-36 hours ...so there may still be a chance!!! Good luck!!!

Thanks Zeri! Personally before all of these problems I wanted 4 children but the DH only wanted 2 so we compromised on three. Because of the hospital located in our area and my insurance I am not advised to have more than three because of my emergency c-section. I also will never be able to experience a vaginal delivery because it is considered too high risk. I think three children is still a great number though

It is!

skeet - thank you! Hey, I see on your ticker that you're 9 dpo today? Are you planning to test anytime soon?

I don't know.. I've had so much heart break over the past few months with bfns.. I might wait until the weekend.. I've never had an early bfp do I don't know why I would expect one now lol .. I think maybe sat or Sunday I will test.. Af due monday