Aaaaaah, I don't want to be insane! What did I doooooo?

Aaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwww, that would be the COOLEST BIRTHDAY!!! SUPER cool! I hope we both get BFP's this time around!

And oooooh, I know how you feel! For the laaaaaaast...six plus months, I pretty frequently fiddle around with EDD calculators. Ahaha! I just like to know. Plus I'm a tiny bit baby crazy. DF has a BIG, young family, and EVERYBODY out here is having babies left and right! It's in the water, I swear... And I believe it! I went to a baby shower this past Saturday and on Monday... I was late!

Today's the day for you to test! FX'd!!!!!

I'm going crazy here on my end. I'm still late, still not testing yet. I'm getting mild...pelvic pains? But only when I sit down for a few minutes. >< BAH.

WHAT THE HECK.

I logged on this morning after my brief weekend hiatus and wrote you a huge-long reply..and i just got on here and there is nothing?! WTF. Ergh..so here's a general idea of what i put this morning i guess...

BFN this morning. i pretty much figured that but I couldn't help but start testing. I think that satisfied my urge though and I'm gonna try to wait until Wed when AF is due to test again (unless af comes first.)

I've had very odd symptoms the last few days though, which is why i stopped getting on here lol. I kept logging on and symptom spotting to myself and it was making the wait MUUUUCH worse. On thursday, (which was like..6dpo) I had super intense af like cramps. and then (tmi) i had period-like discharge but it was white-ish. since i'm ntnp, if you want to call it that even, i've never paid attention to the whole cm thing..so i have no idea what's what, i just know that was a totally diff experience for me lol. friday the cramping had totally stopped but by night, my boobs got a lot bigger than normal. they feel tight and full, and i have pretty large boobs so even though i'm only 22, a tight chest is not something i have felt since i was in like..4th grade...haha. anyway....they've stayed the same way since friday. my nips are pretty sensitive to touch. So idk what to think.

How are you feeling today? Anything different since the pelvic pain? I bet you are suuuper anxious for Tuesday! You are a super strong woman. But it's soooo close now

Oh, & I meant to ask before..what kind of art do you do? I wish I had that kind of talent

Ooh, hahaha! Crazy!

Awwww! PUPO! Pregnant until proven otherwise! xD
I hate getting BFN's, even if I can just retest a few days later.

I'm fine here, just been suuuuuuuper tired. x___x And suuuuuuper hungry. I wake up starving pretty much. It sucks.
Yeah, I got something weird. Don't worry about TMI with me. I plan to go to school in a few years to be a nurse.
BUT just in case you're weirded out, I'll warn you. This is a little TMI.

I went to the bathroom because I had awful gas and my bladder was about to pop. I went, and when I wiped, I had this, like, inch and a half string of what LOOKS like EWCM, but was streaked with dark brown. Old blood. Other than that, nothing. :\ My boobs seem to be getting fuller? I asked DF to feel them (he joked about how any guy would LOVE to have a girl ask them to do that, haha) and said they do feel more...liquidy? Just bigger and fuller, I guess. I have larger ones, too, about a 46D. I got sized and the lady was like, "You might could wear DD." Which does NOTHING to help me. Either I do, or I don't, y'know?
But yeah, the underwire in my bra broke today. I need a new bra. So sad. That one was my favorite.

Other than that, I'm fine. Just peeing a lot, tired, hungry, snappy on occasion and had that streaky cm. :\

I do a mix of digital/traditional art. My style is really influenced by anime... Which is Japanese cartoons? I don't really care to watch the shows, but I love SOME of the art styles. Colorful, kinda stylized. But I also just looooove anything with details.

Did you test?!?!?!?!?!?

The suspense is killing me !

Ah, Yes anime haha. My brothers a huge anime buff so I understand I'm sure that is a huge hit with people! That's awesome!

And no, I'm not weirded out by anything so don't worry about that. And besides, if people in here get weirded out by things..Why the Hell are they trying for a baby? Things will only get worse in the tmi department haha.

My bfs friends have 2 kids, they were both happy accidents and she has told me some raunchy stories! lol.

I feel pretty much the same today ( yeah I had askedbf to feel mine too which he was thrilled about, and he asked me if I had taught them to lift weights lol


I really feel like af is coming..

It's pretty popular with my friends. Most of my circle of people are anime geeks, too, which is fine. I just don't get as excited over it as they do. o.O

No, I haven't tested. I JUST bought a test though. I'm nervous about testing now though. I'm like, "Should I wait for FMU or not?!" Aaaaaahhh!!! It's RIGHT HERE...

I feel EH... I am making more trips to the bathroom. My bladder just won't hold anything! Grrrrrr. And I'm always exhausted. If I'm not pg, I'm gonna be really surprised. >>

Well, still. PUPO. ;D It's not uncommon for women to feel like AF is coming through their pregnancies.

I DON'T feel like AF is coming. I just have to pee all the time. And sleep. And eat.

So I went and bought a little dollar store test (Baby Test) earlier to test TOMORROW morning... And I broke down and took it. I got so excited, I put like 6+ drops in the little well.

I saw the dye flare up where the +/T line should be if I AM pg, but it was all broken and looked more like = than |. Either way, I didn't stop myself and the line seemed to wash away. The control line showed up, and I watched the extra dye float away.

I opened the casette to see inside it, and here's a picture...



Sorry it's a little dark, I took it on my phone.

Do you see the little padding thing at the left? Where the dye is smeared?

Could I have accidentally washed out the dye from the T line?

Oh, and those little scratches around the C line are my fault. I was using scissors like a fool to open the casette, 'cause I saw the pink dye sitting just at the edge of the casette 'hole' that shows just where the two lines should be before I opened it.

Yes I see the little padding thing AND I see all the pink ink on it! I would think it would be totally possible bc all the boxes say that too much or too little urine could mess with the accuracy of the test. GO GET ANOTHER ONE!

I'm just really discouraged today. ._.

I bought a 2 pack of Answer tests last night. Now, I have never used them and I don't know how reliable they are BUT I took one.

Granted, I hadn't slept, and it was 3:30ish in the morning.

But it came back negative.

And I'm STILL late for AF. Nine days today. NINE.
I tried to call my doctor's nurse to see if she would know what to do, but the stupid office has the crappiest hours. I mean, seriously, I have to pay $30 EVERY time I go, you'd think they would be open. Wednesdays and Fridays, they're only open for 3.5 hours.

Either way. SOMETHING is acting up in my body to make me this late.
But the 2 HPTs I've taken are negative. Well, if you wanna count the runny pink dye one negative.

Blah...

Oh yeah, by the way, how are YOU coming along?

Well..any news??


I'm officially 4 days late, still bfn. But on a test today I had a faint bfp that faded as the control line darkened so Idk..


Hoping for us both