Fngrs... lol yes you should have a talk with the current (hopefully) beanie about scaring you, and any future ones. That would be so nice if our bodies and beanies did what we wanted them to! It's funny that you should mention the whole teen pregnancy thing. I typed out a rant about it yesterday but refrained from posting. Just found out that someone I know has baby #2 on the way... The first one is 1 1/2 I think and the mom and dad are all of 19 and 20 at most and are split up. I am already a great-aunt at the ripe old age of 29 (was 28 when she was born) from my then barely-19 yr old nephew and his ex-16-yr-old girlfriend. My cousin wasn't young, but her first was an oops baby with another guy 3 months before her divorce was final and her 2nd one was on the first try with the same guy. She wasn't sure she wanted another but did it for him and they were split up a couple months after he was born. They hadn't dtd in 8 months before their one try for the second!
I'm only on my 3rd (long) cycle since my Provera period started Oct. 31, but my heart has been really hoping for another for 3 years, and I've been using opks for 17.5 months now.

And this month is driving me crazy!! I honestly was a little surprised at the negative hpts so far. I had several days of crampiness, some heart burn, and today my bbs have been a bit sore... like my bra really bothered me and it was wonderful taking it off lol. I don't know if it's just because I wore it a lot today, or what. I'm a SAHM so the majority of the time I don't wear one, but sheesh sometimes I wear it most of the day and it never bothers me this badly.

If I O'd on the 19th I was 12 dpo today so I'm feeling like either I didn't O at all, or it was more like the 21st (when my opks really went negative). Or I could just be welcoming AF in a few days.

mzswizz, I'm sorry to hear you had a bad day at work. I hope you get one that you really enjoy! Don't feel out yet, 6 dpo is likely too soon to have symptoms. A bean could still be making it's way down to implant still.

It's after 2 a.m. and my brain is mush so I'd better stop posting while I'm making any sense at all lol... otherwise I'll just ramble.

L.E. maybe its possible you o'd later than you were suppose to so you can be earlier than 12dpo. FXed hoping that's what is really going on.

AFM, im 7dpo today. my temps are a little low but still above coverline so thats good. DH and i dtd today and we both are off yay We had a nice little bubble bath together this morning and it felt great. Not really any symptoms over here yet other than I felt very hot this morning after waking up ahours later after taking my temp and when I took the temp a 2nd time to see if im hot or not..it quicky shot up to the 99 degrees F so i just turned it off because i knew it was going to go past 99.5 and I would have to discard it. So I dont know what that was all about. I even took a cold shower because i was sooo hot But other than that, Im feeling pretty normal. Cant believe im 7dpo already 5 more days before testing. Hoping my temps go up as well.

It all sounds promising for you, mzswizz! Well today could be 11-13 dpo so either I'm out (bfns today) and AF is showing soon, or I haven't O'd yet. I'm not sure which is more depressing. These long cycles are so disheartening... not as disheartening as constant bleeding, though. O'ing around CD27 last month and conceiving on only my 2nd cycle had me so hopeful that I'd do it again this cycle, and here I sit at CD52 with just BFNs in front of me and no idea what's going on. I think I'm going to give it a week or so and then go ahead and pay the money for the semen analysis so I can start Clomid. At least then I should O before CD20. That would be amazing!
I know I also need to get my rear in gear and lose some more weight. I know they say even 10 lbs helps but honestly the first 50 had no bearing on that. I've gained some back but I started Oing after I'd gained a few back anyway, so I don't know what effect it would have. I have a lot more to lose. However, with my son, I weighed about what I do know when I conceived so I know I can conceive and have a successful pregnancy at this weight. I know people who were successful and they weigh a substantial amount more than I do.

Anyway, sorry for blabbering... Just in a ranting sort of mood. :/

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All I have to say is wow...Don't you just love to hate how easy it is for a woman to get pregnant (or teen) and they end up not together?! Crap how fair is that?! That's what eats me...I am in aw about what I read just now. Why can't it be that easy for any of us!! Ok so I have pretended to be a teen, and now I will pretend to be divorcing my DH!! I will do that right now while he is standing here...lol Ok he says ok we are going to divorce and he says he loves me and is going to bed

Long cycles are the absolute worst!! Maybe you did OV later when your opks went negative. Hope you danced like you have never danced before and get a + hpt. I feel you on the sore boobs...why the heck are mine still sore? if you look at my chart my temps rose, peaked, crashed and burned to pre-o temps. Tomorrow is the Dr. appt. guess we will see how that one goes I am so eye-rolling right now its a shame. Who the heck packs a snack bag to go to the Dr.?!?!?!?! She said bring snacks and a jacket! what the heck?! Oh God I hope I don't die of boredom in their! If I never post again just know that's what happened!!

Dh and and I went to dinner and a movie with my brother and SIL. So much fun, and much needed for the both of us. Didn't care for the movie much (wrath of the titans) it wasn't as good as clash of the titans. So I say wait for it to come out on DVD and keep your $15.00 ($7.50x2). Dinner was awesome though.

I hope you are doing well today and have a + hpt for me to jump up and down about by the morning.

MsSwizz sorry to hear you had a bad day too...And you temps are above the coverline. I hope they go up soon, but they could be low because of implantation ya' know. So don't worry....I am admiring your ability to wait until 12dpo...you already know that I have been so weak and couldn't do it. This cycle if there isn't still a bean in there (I don't think their is) I said I am waiting until AF is MIA. I can't take knowing I am preggers and lose another baby to a chemical. I would rather not know at all then to know and have my heart break. So waiting isn't going to be a problem. Who the heck has 2 chemicals in a row? It's not normal! I am even scared to BD, in fear that I will get pregnant and lose it too..

But I honestly think you shouldn't even think about your temps being low. Implantation can make them do that too. So here's hoping the go up and go triphasic and end in a bfp!!!

Just know that you aren't alone in the stress of all this. So you are not blabbering, and ranting isn't a bad thing. We have to get it out at some point. I refuse to sit here quietly and not pretend that I am not p'd-off. And neither should you. You have a right to be upset if that's the way you feel.

I say go for the semen analysis. It's better to know than to be unsure. And clomid would be a good thing too. You have my vote of confidence sister! Ovulating earlier can only be a good thing. I hate delayed OV. I was thinking about losing weight too, maybe my body would be healthier. I just thought maybe that's why the losses? I am not extremely overweight, I am at prepregnancy since the loss of Masyn. But I am not the weight I am suppose to be. matter of fact I am 30lbs off..So don't feel bad at all. I am too embarrassed to even say what I weigh.

I read that weight loss can help...How true is that? I am normally a mover and shaker..meaning when it's time to get moving I move. I seem to be a busy body most of the time.Personally I think the clomid will get the ball rolling for you L.E. I really do...I think it would be a power move and beneficial too.

There is nothing worse then praying for something so much and not getting your prayer answered.

I am ranting...

There are women who kill their children, abort their child, abuse their children, allow a man to hurt their child or even worse murder them. And here we are....PRAYING staying hopeful and waiting with EMPTY ARMS. I feel like this baby is far out of my reach and a mirage. I need to go read my bible and pray or something..seriously, God help me. smh

Ok bedtime I guess appt at 8:30 a.m. I am so glad I am a morning person...

Had a whole thing typed out, but it was too heavy lol... I don't know how to delete the whole thing. It makes me put something in.

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