Title pretty much says it all. I'm upset about how my birth went and sometimes it's better than others. I think it's especially bad today as the condom broke the other night and I'm kinda panicking about reliving it with another baby. Just a bummer kind of day.
I read your birth story and it sounds like quite the ordeal! It's ok to grieve about not getting the birth you hoped for. But at least you're both safe and every delivery is different, it's quite unlikely to happen with your second!
Hun im not surprised your feeling some " birth trauma" after that experience i would sugest talking about it with your GP or contacting the hospital to de-brief your notes with your doctor or MW it might help you resolve how you feel about things
I know this probably doesn't help, but I think I know how you feel! I'm still traumatised by the birth experience I had, and my DS is 15 months old! Some days I can push it out of my mind, and others I find myself having to fight back the tears because I'm still absolutely gutted by everything that happened.
We just have to take it one day at a time. Celebrate the good days, and keep our heads above water on the tougher days. Talk to someone who knows the whole story, even if its just to say: I cant stop thinking about it today! Get a cuddle from your LO and get on with it.
I can never give birth naturally again (I'll have to have a c-section next time, as the damage I've got from the natural birth is too bad), and I'm terrified of giving birth in the manner I did last time. That said, I'm starting to feel a little bit broody...so clearly some emotional healing has happened! Like someone else said, every birth is as different as every child: maybe we'll get a positive experience next time
Thanks. I love my lo and I definitely want more kids. There are just days I can't stop thinking about it. Today is better. Its hard to talk about it with people sometimes because its always "at least the baby is ok and you are ok" and sure I'm so happy about that but sometimes I don't feel ok with it iykwim. Thanks girls!
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