My baby girl will be two weeks tomorrow. I had PPD with my first six years ago but up until couple of days ago I was fine in terms of mood. I still love being with my kids, and I am still doing all the stuff I need too but I really hate my husband right now. Also I should add on the day my mood changed my husband did nothing for our anniversary. Since then I can't really even be around him. I am that angry. The last couple of days I have been in the most rotten mood.
With my first daughter I had PPD immediately. There was no doubting what it was. I just don't understand how in two days I can be a completely different person, but this different person is just aimed at my husband. I feel like in the past two days I have had massive PMS. I am even annoying myself.
Oh wow! I have just posted exactly the same in the relationship forum.... Let me copy it in here and see if you feel similar to me....
I HATE my husband!!! But not entirely sure why!? An it's only him, everything else in my life is lovely!
Is it hormonal then? I didn't think it was a post natal depression thing though????
I always used to love my husband, couldn't wait for him to finish work, phone/text during the day, want to be close to him - all the usual lovey dovey crap....
Our baby is now 6 weeks old, my baby's birth didn't go to plan - emergency c-section for which I hold his sister in law completely responsible for! But I felt so let down by my husband; he didn't protect me, he didn't stand up for me, he watched it all happen.
The night before I was taken in to hospital I was very poorly, lying on the bathroom floor unable to get up - he went to bed and left me there, full term and very ill!! In hind sight, after speaking to the doctor both the baby and me could have died - and he just lay there!!! In the morning I called the hospital as I was bleeding and in pain (not labour) and he still didn't get it, he saw it as a routine check up...
We had spoken throughout our pregnancy about birth plans and how we wanted things to be, we spoke about c-section wishes and that if I couldn't talk he would talk for me..... Well he didn't! He just stood there like a coward, hiding in the corner while I was experiencing the worst moment of my life. He is not the man I thought he was. When I needed him, really needed him - he was playing the "woe is me card".
6 weeks on and I still can't bare him touching me, I encourage him to go out because I hate being near him. I'm civil enough, not nasty at all.
I have spoken to him at lengths about this three weeks ago, nothing has changed but he now thinks/acts that everything is hunky dorey because I haven't mentioned it - but if he took a step back and looked at how things are with us it would be so obvious!!
I'm sad that I don't feel the overwhelming love for him that I did.... I don't want this to end badly, I need to fix it somehow.... But I can't force myself to feel something I don't.....
Is this postnatal stuff or do I really hate my husband?!
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