Everything pretty much came to a head last night...

my soon-to-be husband has added pressure at work (ever since the announcement of the baby) he's been working 24-7, i should mention, his parents own the business.

he comes home at crazy hours, and my sleep has been non existent because of it...

i'm working full time, in school for my masters full time, planning the wedding and making the baby. i SO badly wanted to enjoy it, but as the last two weeks went on, and the nausea kicked up...i became overwhelmed beyond words. especially because he's been messier around the house because of his hours.

the other morning a juice carton and his shoes were left in the middle of the floor on my side of the bed (my juice to get my prenatal's down). up until this past week I was just beyond excited...and I kept trying to put the frustrations away and not stress, but it just got to be too much.

i'd been asking him to fix the fence, but he's been so busy, and so what i feared happened, i came home at 11pm last night and the dog was gone. that's when i completely lost it.

i should add now, that after a nervous breakdown he came home from work and cleaned the house top to bottom, until about 1am...and looked for the dog.

this morning there was a 'found' sign on the mailbox, so the dog is now found and safe.

but i'm SO worried about the effect that this nervous breakdown has had on the developing baby.

i want this baby so bad, and now i'm terrified that my panic attack screwed up it's brain. any thoughts? i'm 7 weeks on saturday.

i know i need to relax more, and i think he finally understands now how important a clean house is to me...i should also add - he is AMAZING, and i really don't think these added work pressures are his fault, and i feel bad for him, i know he's overwhelmed too...

the other day though he made a comment that "i'm only 6 weeks along, so i shouldn't be feeling sick or tired yet." i sent him a few links to help him understand what's going on.

i just want to be happy and excited like i was again...and now i've got worry about what damage i might have done. i feel like an awful mom already.

You are not an awful Mum! Sounds like you are dealing with a lot of things at once, plus all the changes to your body!

I (for obvious reasons) have been reading about miscarriages etc today and the one thing that ALL websites say is that Stress doesn't cause loss! So, yes you may be stressed to your limits etc, but your little one has no idea because he or she is so bundled up in there xxx So please stop worrying xx

Sounds like a LOT on your plate. Maybe a pregnancy massage would be a nice treat.