alright so on facebook i have 129 friends listed, only abou 22 of them i know and see from time to time maybe while im out and about but the list of acual friends is much smaller. only 2 ppl text me on a regular, one of them lives far away and we do our best to keep in touch as she is like a sister to me. the other i have known 23 years and even though we live in the same city, only manage to visit for kids b-days, so max 6 hours out of the year! im so down and depressed with life, i spent 2 years faking a smile a work and lost all sence of myself. now being pg im super down and i cant get out. im so worried about having postnatal depression. i see these ppl who i used to work with and they are like a family but since i quit knowone has reaaly made an effort to see me, or even ask how i am. i rarely update facebook anymore and am ready to delete. i guess maybe im a little jelous, i never realy made my own friends in school, i had one 'best friend who ive known 23 yrs' and i always jus hung out with her friends. i highly doubt any of them concider me a friend. so yesterday was a funeral for a kid who i knew through her, the whole group went together and i feel like i was exiled. as of laitly things have spirald and ive just had a bad week, i didnt get certain bills paid cause the place was closed then just a shit few days, i worked lait on friday at my new job cause friggin supervisors dont tell you when your shiftt is over, then came home and found a load limiter on my house, so i cant use my stove or washer/dryer. id just picked up grosheries for the first time in a month and cant even cook! i chose all last week not to do laundry of course! and my daughter has lice! im so stressed and feel like a damn greese monkey wih no friends. sigh. im not usualy like this. im usualy bubbly and happy. and i always invite ppl over, the thing is they never came, or would say they would but never would and wouldntt answer their phones. and now with all this its no wonder.
id better just stop here.
to top it off i had a horrible dream my OH got his 2 ex gfs pg in the last 6 months and was dream crying all night. i already think one of them has a young son by him and we have been together 3 years, he denies it to the fullest.


thanx for space to rant!!

Sorry things are rough right now. Hope the summer and nice weather bring you renewed hope

i'm sorry you are so down and feeling like you have no friends. I can relate to all your stress. every word of advice i get to "stay positive" is easier said than done. life can get really lonely, and now being pregnant, i feel lonelier. I have a great husband, but i think he is coping with everything by not talking about it...and it makes me really sad. He was so eager to have a child, and now he makes me feel like an inconvience and prude b/c i'm not as interested in sex right now.
I dunno, i'm sure most all of this is in my head fueled by hormones. although i do have an anxiety disorder and since i can't take my meds now it doesn't take much to set me off in a panic.

anywho, sorry i started to rant.

hang in there, and know that you are not alone.

Sending a smile, hoping things start looking up for you!!

i feel the same way with OH, he was totaly egar to get me pg again, and when i happened he didnt seem happy and we havnt tlked about it at all. he didnt even text me when i had my ultrasound and refused to come ino my dr with me. it makes me sad. and im deffs not interrested in sex at all what so ever. like not even a hand job! lol.

Im sorry sweetie. I know how it feels. I have no friend anymore either. The friends I did have hardly wanna hang out now that im pregnant. I honestly only gets texts and call from my DH or mom everyday. The only friend I really have lives 2 cities away from me so I see her maybe once a month. Its really depressing at times but you just gotta keep your mind on your LO. Thats whats important. My daughter is my whole life just like this LO will be. So I spend a lot of my name enjoying being a mommy. I have like 350 friend on FB all of which I dont talk too. No one even comments on my statuses now that im pregnant.

Stop... breathe

Its going be ok!

If you always do what you have always done you will always get what you have always gotten!

People can be harsh and mean and cruel and well.. do you really want these people to be your friend? don't worry about them, leave them in the past and move on to get new friends! Where? Online people for support, yea they are only pixals, but ill tell you something i met a girl in America and we talk about everything, ive never met her but id be lost without her! Church Cafe's, i know this one is out there I don't have strong religious views and i would never have thought about this until during the week my friend called in and asked me to go to a cafe with her, i didn't know it was church related until we got there but the people there where amazing, all open for a chat about the weather or the news or football lol Parent class's, gym class's, im sure there's more places but there are people out there who won't exile or ignore you, people who will make the time for a cuppa tea and a chat

bills can wait, don't need to be paid as soon as they come in! Buy a BBQ, things are always get burnt on the BBQ and invite the neighbours!

As for lice, you do know they are more likely to jump onto a clean head? true fact!

Things will get better, a positive mental attitude will make it easier! easier said than done, ofc, nothing worth doing ever comes easy!

Ive been where you are and wanted to give up, get into bed and not answer the door to anyone, to just hide from the world, but all that does is make it worse, getting into a rut and staying there is a hard habbit to break!

Its gonna be a hard road ahead, but you will make it! Find a way to move yourself into action, to go to new places and meet new people!

wishing you all the best x

sorry to hear you're feeling down at the moment.

I don't have that many friends either, I have maybe 2 friends that I could really rely on if I needed someone. I always feel like I make a strong effort with people to be approachable and friendly but i've never been one of the popular ones with loads of friends.

I'll be your friend and you can be mine, problem solved

You really aren't alone so please don't feel you are, make some buddies on here and keep in touch, it might not be a physical chat in a cafe or in a park but someone is better than no-one x

thanx everyone for commenting, i feel much beter now.
thankyou for being so supportive, i honestly thought id just get the worlds smallest violine back.




is nice to know im not alone