I'm alive!!

Diagnosed with postpartum depression last Thurs...have been feeling much better since weaning/quitting pumping to get more sleep and sanity (Summer will be formula fed...but I'm proud of the start I gave her). Also a slight increase in meds for anxiety, which I hadn't realized was so bad until I talked about it out loud to a professional.
On the right track now and bonding so much better with Summer. DH and I are making a good team and I am managing to eat 3 meals a day (usually).
Emma - glad you're getting some rest!

Gossip, anyone?

Jen sorry to hear that you were going through that poor mummy and daddy, glad you are getting through it and glad to hear you and your DH are working together that makes me so happy to hear things like that. You have to do what is right for all of you and sounds like you are doing a great job :-)
Is Summer changing much? Mal went for a week and says kaylee has grown heaps! Is she a bit more awake now or still sleepy? Xo

It seems she changes every day!!! Everyone who sees her says she is so small, but we think she is chubbing up nicely! She is also definitely more alert now, and almost always fusses for her feeds instead of us having to wake her. She will still fall asleep before her feeds are done sometimes though, and she gets overstimulated very easily, which makes her frantic, tired and hungry at the same time...not a good combo. When that happens I've found taking her into a dimly lit, quiet room upstairs, swaddling her and holding her very close helps her to focus on taking the bottle, then once she's eaten she passes out.

It is amazing in 2 1/2 weeks how much we know about her already. When DH's family came to visit we were constantly reminding them that she feeds better slightly upright, doesn't like bright lights or overstimulation, makes hunger cues when she is gassy, and waking her from a deep sleep is asking for hours of fussiness later! We had to keep reminding them that she is really still supposed to be in my belly and not to treat her like a 2 month old that you want to play with!

Does Kaylee have any sort of routine yet? Summer is having some alert periods throughout the day, but I think they are usually because she is gassy...doesn't seem to have any rhyme or reason to it.

Lovely update -- glad you are starting to feel better Definately sounds like mummy knoows besy when it comes to little Summer

Any more pics you want to share?? Would be lovely to see some more x

Oh goodness...do I have pictures?!?!

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Am sure you are more than aware of this as her muother but I have to say..........

HOW FRIGGIN ADORABLE

Sending her virtual hugs

It's weird -- no parent thinks they have an ugly baby...but we all know they exist.

But we really think she is a pretty baby!!! Thanks for agreeing LOL!

They do exist But yours is far from it Truely beautiful x

Jen - I'm so glad you have an amazing handle on things! Way to go mommy! I hope you have given yourself mucho pats on the back! Oh and by the way, Summer is ADORABLE! Holy cow she is so cute. And from the pictures she does not look small. Well of course she's small, she's two weeks old, but she looks so healthy and happy and ADORABLE! Yeah, definitely no mediocre genes there. I love the last picture. She's looking at the camera like, oh yeah, I'm awesome!



I just truly can't believe where we began compared to where we are right now, with 2 adorable baby girls, and 2 more babies on the way, Puppy TTC and D NTNP/TTC and me trying to keep my sanity with wanting to TTC so badly now. It's pretty crazy that this time last year we were all stark-raving mad looney broody women! Well I still am...

As for me I am 99.99999% sure I O'd yesterday/today. I had tons of EWCM and had O cramps like mad yesterday and my temp plummeted today. It took everything within me not to get John to TTC that day. But I told myself 1 more cycle...if I can just get past today then I will be ok to TTC the very next time, and I made it. Hurray for will power!

Well hope everyone is doing well and so glad to see that some of you are. 22 days until Christmas! FX for a BFP for Puppy before then! Be safe on the roads during this mad time!

Jen she is so gorgeous I just love her little face!!! I cant stop taking photos either in like every cute outfit she has. She doesnt fit into newborn anymore Kaylee still doesnt have any routine really up usually 2/3 hours in the night but has started having a few longer sleeps. I feed her upright to!!(she chokes a little bit to as my milk comes out way too fast) And her cues for gas are the same as hungry and I have overfed her a few times and she just spews it up, Its so confusing!! I just feed her when she starts to get upset cry a bit as then I know its hunger and not gas. She has started to get hysterical at the same time every night (5-7pm) if she is tired and it takes so long to calm her down, so still dont like going out much or having people around as they just want to hold/talk to her and she gets overstimulated to.

I know what you mean Jess so different to when you first started the thread!! You have been so patient and have enormous willpower for holding off so now you can officially say your TTC soon!!

Yeah my fingers are crossed for you puppymom to get your BFP before christmas to!!

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