Oh my gosh Nimbus I can only imagine!!!!!! I caught our LO sleeping FACE DOWN yesterday like completely looking down....no idea how he managed that one but it scared the poop out of me I can only imagine how scared YOU were!!!! Bless both your hearts! I'm so glad to hear everything is okay tho that's such a scary situation.

AF did show finally (with wicked cramps!) I'm hoping these cramps only last this cycle and my periods aren't this horrid from now on! I have endometriosis but after the birth of DS#1 the pain got DRASTICALLY better...just hoping we haven't regressed with the endo :-/ after a lot of thought last night I've decided to strictly be NTNP for now.....the temp charting, opks, and endless testing is just too emotional for me and none of it worked for our LO.....we actually concieved the month we decided to quit all that mess and gave up on TTC. Soooo I'm just going to chill out, relax, be thankful for the two I have been so luckily blessed with, and enjoy them!

I like that very much EMT! We ttc for over two years then got pregnant by accident the month of my scheduled lap for endo. In fact didn't know I was about two weeks pregnant when I had the Surgery. Was so scared. But anyway I don't ever want to go through that madness again. We will probably ntnp too but not yet because I want to make sure my uterus is completely healed from the csection.

Sounds like a plan... ntnp and seeing a positive results as a blessing is such a lovely, beautiful way to conceive. TTC can bring so much stress and sometimes detracts from the enjoyment of it all! We were fortunate with our little girl that we were successful the first month of my husband suggesting that he would be happy to consider baby no. 2. I think he had hoped for a good few months, but hey.

Lorelei has been fine since my last post. The HV came over yest, i had told her what happened first thing, as i knew she would be contacted by the hospital. I had worried that social services would be involved, despite the fact it was an accident, because i've been a bit wobbly recently and both me and OH had pnd after our little boy. We've both been completely honest with how we've been feeling since the birth of our girl with the professionals as we know if we need the help we need to tell them clearly how we feel - i was worrying that it would be blown out of proportion. I hope that that makes sense. They kept on asking us what had happened etc over and over again, and that was scary, but i know it was necessary. We're both teachers so we have to go through the training and have to report on what we see too, so we understand it all. It's just scary.

Still, she's well and yep we're not quite in the clear, i'm still on observation with her, and it's going to take me a while to pick myself up, but step by step, prayer by prayer...

Myturn how was the csection? I was terrified I was going to have to have one this time! I'm normally about 102lbs 5'3" and have an 8lbs6oz son (4th degree episiotomy) and LO was 8lbs8oz (2nd degree episiotomy induced at 39 weeks) so I'm worried that #3 will of course be bigger :-/

I'm a paramedic Nimbus and we have to go through all the "report what you see" training too but I'm sure when the shoe is on the other foot its pretty scary I've never thought to put myself in their shoes I think its pretty natural to assume the worst going into something like that....I guess if I go back to work I really need to open my eyes a bit more!

I have gotten the worst news today

Okay so most of you don't know the full story so here is some backround:

Moura - My town
Biloela- Next town over(45min drive)
Rockhampton - nearest city
Brisbane - capital city of state.

When I was 38+2 weeks pregnant I was sent to Biloela for a growth ultrasound due to them being worried about DDs growth rate. The result of this was that she measured 36wks, and that she had enlarged kidneys and a full bladder.
Because of this I was sent to Rockhampton (2 1/2 hrs drive) to the hospital there. They contacted Brisbane and I was flown down the next day (8hrdrive, 2hr flight). Whilst there they told me I would end up delivering there and so at 39+3 I gave birth vaginallywith gas and air to my beautiful daughter who weighed 5lb 11 oz (2.590kg).
She was in special care the first few hours, and then went for an ultrasound, this showed a duplex ureter tube system on the left kidney and that both kidneys were enlarged.

Fast forward a few weeks and we were sent back to Rockhampton for follow ups. She had a urinary dye scanand we got the results today. Heres what makes me sad.

She has stage 3-4 urinary reflux into the kidneys; left untreated this can result in kidney failure. After birth her weight dropped significantly, though she is now above birth weight. She has been gaining 100g a week (plus growing a cm a week). However the pediatrician is not happy with this, and believe due to her kidney's she is not putting on enough weight.

So now I have to exclusively express so she can have fortifier in her milk. I am heartbroken. We are being sent back toBrisbane next week so she can see the renal team and consult a dietician, there isa high likelyhood she willbe put on formula (not the cheap kind either). I'm trying not to beat myself up over it, but it is so hard ya know? I feel like a failure even though I know it's not my milk. I just need some advice, I'm going through so many emotions and I cannot even begin to sort them out

DD is 8 weeks old today.

Oh my goodness leopard bless both of your hearts!!!! I don't even know what to say darlin I wish I could offer you some sort of adviCe but I don't have any to offer besides just loving on your sweet LO and listening to the doctors :-/ I can't imagine what you're going through but try not to beat yourself up over it. It's not your fault sweetheart.

She's started putting on a little bit more weight. We head to Brisbane on Monday and her appointment is Wednesday. She was great yesterday but today she has been so annoying, I cannot think of a nice word tbh.
I love her to death, but the stress is starting to get to me

Oh hun, you're bound to have days like this, especially when you have stressful things happening. I too wish that i had some advice to give, i'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Keep strong hun, and try not to beat yourself up, you're doing a fab job x

Trey had his 2 month appointment and shots today....he's feeling pretty icky and I've given him tylenol as recommended by the pediatrician but he is 13lbs 2oz and 25 1/2 inches :-) the doctor said he looks great and is putting on some good weight haha....as if I hadn't noticed! But he was 8lbs 8oz and 21inches at birth. He will be two months on the 18th. How is everyone else.

wow emt good weight lol serenity was 6lb 14 and at 2mths weighed 10lb 5 x