thank you everyone, i'm still here crying 5 hrs later i wish i could see a way past this im so so sad

If you really do not want to be a mom right now, adoption is always a possible option some of my friends adopted a little girl and they love her so very much... they are eternally greatful to the lady who gave them the gift of a child... seriously the best way to help yourself right now is to stop crying and go for a walk or watch a funny movie or do something to cheer yourself up. you have a family backing you, trust me today is a bad day but you have options things will be fine

well, I think OH has left me

I was in the middle of a panic attack last night and he was still arguing with me telling me I'm the worst gf and I'm horrible and I don't deserve nice words.

I begging him to help me calm down because I felt like I was going to die, he didn't, just hung up and hasn't spoken to me since.

I ended up sobbing in the bathroom and managed to wake the house up and my mum was so worried that she slept in my bed with me.

Worst night of my life

EDITED AS JUST READ YOUR UPDATE: he sounds like a prick, you will do much better on your own, I promise!

Oh my goodness he sounds pretty damn harsh! Hun im so sorry you're going through this and have such an unsupportive FOB. It sounds like your family is helpful and supportive and care about you a lot... just try to stay calm and only surround yourself with positive caring people... it's absolutely terrible the way he has treated you. Stay strong hun, your baby needs you more than anything and you don't need someone in your life that treats you so poorly!

Awww perhaps this baby was exactly what you needed to make sure you didn't end up with a jerk like him for the rest of life! your mom sounds great and your family lean on them you will get through... you are worth way more than how that loser excuse of a man treats you. DO NOT believe what he says!! I think you would probably be happier if you keep the baby as long as you have a supportive family kids love their parents all the time they don't run away when things get difficult and being a young mom you have a chance to form a super special bond with your baby get out today and do something you can't give this man all the power, make him feel like look I don't need you I am just fine with out you (trust me that will be more punishment than if he feels like he tore you apart). He sounds like a piece of crap who finds joy out of making you feel so small and worthless, and you are giving him exactly what he wants. Don't let him have it hun if he calls don't answer if he texts don't answer even if it takes everything in you because he saw what a reaction he can get and hes just going to try it again. While your pregnant you don't need that crap!! you have to learn to love yourself, name a few things you like about yourself, try to do that every day until you start to believe it!! you can always private message me if you need to chat! seriously get out and get a decaf coffee with your mom or something today one thing that really helps me when I'm feeling fat and ugly is to take a nice long shower, shave, do my hair, put on makeup, and wear one of my nicer outfits then go out somewhere and you kinda feel pretty and it cheers you up.. give it a try for me

Thank you
I am supposed to be going to meet his family tomorrow for the week and he has clearly forgotten all about last night and wondered why I wasn't going.

So I have decided to go, and before everyone thinks I am weak, I have gone back because I would like him to "be a man" and say everything he has to say to me to my pregnant face, and watch me walk away

Was the FOB possibly drunk last night? Sounds a bit crazy to me otherwise ...

You're being very strong, I can't imagine going through all that hell with a baby on the way. Keep up your spirits, and lean on your mum, she sounds wonderful. Good luck tomorrow, lots of hugs from up north coming your way!

i dont think anyone here would accuse you of being weak sweetheart, it's not like he's cheated. The vast majority of us would do the same I think, especially with a baby in the mix. I hope it goes well and you either get things sorted out or get some closure

He had a few cans, he has been known to be horrid after a drink last time I was accused of having an affair. I just don't think I can take much more so its going to take something special to make me stay. The only reason I am still around is because I want to give this baby a chance to have a complete family unit