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Old Oct 19th, 2016, 22:20 PM   1
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Premature at 29 wks 3 days - First time mom

I really need some support and encouragement. Ever since my unexpected c-section, I've been an emotional mess. I don't know what to do and I'm so scared for my baby.

I had to give birth to her last Sunday due to uncontrollable Pre-eclampsia. Even after birth, I am still struggling to keep my blood pressure and edema at a manageable level.

My little Amelia weighed in at 2 lbs. 4 oz and is about 15.3 inches in length. I was fortunate to be admitted to the hospital at 28 weeks and got the two steroid shots to help her lung development. I feel so fortunate that she can breathe without a ventilator assisting her. She seems very lively at the NICU, and I'm cherishing every moment I get with her.

However, the overwhelming emotional impact of this situation really hit me this afternoon when the nurse had to give me a stack of papers requesting permission for various procedures that are all "possibilities". I stepped outside in the hall and just lost it. She is my first. I'm so scared for her health right now. I can't even hold her yet, and it's just killing me inside.

My husband is currently unable to enter the U.S. as he is not a U.S. citizen and is working on getting his visa so I am unable to even lean on him at this time. I'm trying to keep him from worrying by handling the medical paperwork. But I feel so torn and scared. I know my husband will breakdown himself if I don't stay strong for us both. My parents are trying hard to encourage me and keep me together. I just can't seem to shake this horrible fear. I want my little girl to be safe and healthy. If I could take her place, I would.

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Old Dec 27th, 2016, 16:43 PM   2
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Just saw your post and was hoping to check in and make sure you and baby we're doing ok!? It is very scary to have a preemie unexpectedly but I know baby will be a fighter!!

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Old Dec 28th, 2016, 16:38 PM   3
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I hope everything is well.

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