I'm feeling so down recently. Our FS has said even though I am on Clomid for 6 months she knows that won't work and we really need IVF. Since she has said that I just feel lost. I have the HCG injection and when it gets to the time of I just can't be bothered as I know it won't work. And feels soooo timed and therefore not the "love making" it should be.

I'm in the 2ww now and know I'm not pregnant just have to go through the Clomid all again over the next 4 months just to tick the box to have IVF.

My dh has really bad sperm motility and I know him seeing me so down is making him feel so bad that I have to go through all this medication every month and it won't work because of his sperm. I try to hide my feeling around him, but it is soooo hard at times.

Sorry for the rant, I just want a baby soooo much and feel there is nothing I can do to have one until we start IVF and then even that can't be certain we will get one.

o hunni xxx im here if u need me

Hun its so frustrating babe, I really feel for you, you can and you will get through it! xxxx

Thank you, you are both very great people who are always here for me when I am down. I am just sat here crying so emotional at the moment. I dont think the Prostrogen tablets are helping at the moment.

oh no you poor thing - not really sure what to say is there any hope some of them will make the journey? fingers crossed for you and hope you feel better soon

So sorry you are down and have to go through all this!

It's awful how the guidelines work. I understand that. When Clomid has little chance of working it feels like we are just going through the motions waiting for the inevitable. Makes us wonder why they put it off, why they bother trying something that is not going to work.

You could look at it as if you are on the IVF waiting list. You have a few months to yourself. You can take that time to be with your OH and to take time for yourselves. If something happens, then that is great. If it doesn't? Then, you just take this time to think "I am on the IVF waiting list. I am taking Clomid to up my otherwise slim chances." You have nothing to lose. It's just a waiting game, and it's frustrating, but at least you know that once you have got past the Clomid hurdle you will be well on your way to getting what you need.

Take this time to mentally prepare for IVF. It's more overwhelming than I ever imagined it to be. I, too, accepted defeat on clomid and it actually made me feel a whole lot freer. I BD like I would have normally, yes, but the pressure was not as bad as it had been.

Perhaps give yourself a month off. Maybe a couple of months off. God knows the constant BD is enough to drive anyone insane.

Really sorry its getting too much. A big hug from afar. What I don't understand is why you are on clomid if they know it won't work and there is a known problem with the sperm. I didn't have to go on clomid as it was pointless for me.it seems like you need to bypass the clomid. If they won't let you 4 months is not for ever although I know it feels like that right now and then after will be icsi.I don't feel like sex either at the moment. I am waiting for icsi to start and it consumes my thoughts too much. Am gunna try to get in the mood over easter as its a break from normal routine. - want to start feeling happy again. If you do have to wait 4 months see it as a preparation for ivf and get body and mind in shape. Might distract you a bit!