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Old Jul 31st, 2017, 08:07 AM   411
BelleNuit
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Ya I did acupuncture on my second IUI, I think it helped. So I'll give it a go this cycle too.

I'm sorry that ovidrel shot lasted longer than expected. That must have really played with your head. My cycle lasted 29 days last cycle it has NEVER gone that long before. You can imagine all the thoughts going through my head!



 
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Old Aug 14th, 2017, 12:54 PM   412
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I've decided that for me, infertility is worse than a miscarriage. No I take that back. I'm just still in infertility and the miscarriage has passed - the scab isn't ripped off every month. Infertility is a strange grief. To mourn something that doesnt exist, thats a hard thing to explain and a hard thing to process. To have to hope every month is a cruel joke. This pain feels like it will never end. I'm looking into depression symptoms and treatments. I just read an article that said infertility stress is comparable to cancer patients. Seems about right. I hope everyone is handling this better than me at the moment.



 
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Old Aug 14th, 2017, 12:56 PM   413
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Belle your IUI was cancelled??



 
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Old Aug 14th, 2017, 13:54 PM   414
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Hey Emily, that is something that I have thought about a lot. I do feel like I'm grieving my children, who may never exist, and it's something people just don't understand.

Yes my IUI was cancelled because of a large cyst. I think it's screwing with my hormones because I think I'm having an anovulatory cycle on top of it all (been spotting for 5 days now and it's CD 17). I dunno. We didn't try at all this month, so either way I'm just waiting for AF.



 
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Old Aug 15th, 2017, 07:27 AM   415
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Emily, what you said really rings true for me. I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I've have some really dark, hopeless times during my own journey of loss and infertility. Having fertility treatments fail is just salt in the wound. I've found that as time has passed, I've grieved my miscarriage, and a year later I'm mostly ok. I'll never be completely "over it" because I think a small part of my heart will always be broken over the loss of my first pregnancy. The difference with infertility is that it's like a grief that gets deeper and feels more painful and hopeless as time goes one, rather than fading with time. Kind of like what Belle said, it's like grief for losing something you never really had in the first place. You're not alone in feeling like this. I wish none of us had to go through this. What's the next step for you? Will you do another IUI?

Belle, I'm sorry for the cyst and the strange cycle. I hope AF comes for you soon so you can move on!



 
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Ladies, I can relate immensely. Em you described it perfectly.

For us it's been almost 4 years, and we've kind of let go of trying and switched our focus to other things (each other, my new business) and I am much happier for it. That doesn't mean t doesn't hit me like a punch in the gut sometimes while at family gatherings. But it does get better, with time. xo




 
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