Ultimate Venting Thread

Please kick me too! Lately, I've been having conflicting thoughts if I really want to have children or not. Is this stress, anxiety, and depression worth it? Some former LTTCers I've talked to say it is, but then again that's easy for them to say because they're pregnant! Argh, my brain is so scrambled!

More Rants:

1. Yet another holiday for children. Aren't there any damn holidays on the calendar that don't center around children or being a parent?

2. SIL (the one I hate with the new baby) called MIL whining about how her DH had to work today. Well since he's the only income, you shouldn't bitch. Oh yeah, and her parents support them as well. So excuse me, second income.

3. Got an invite to my niece's 2nd birthday party...it's rather depressing. Thank god we're not going to make it as we'll be still settling into our new place.

I don't do baby showers, baptisms, or birthday parties. I'm one of those outcasts that arrive to a child's birthday party, childless. Awkward!

I don't have anything constuctive to say!

To say depression and anxiety ave kickind in again is an understatment.

I decided to have a break from clomid, this is my last cycle before back to the FS on 19th. It was sending me into a crazy mental psychotic fruitcake and I was even starting to get violent, which is no good as an ex self harmer. Luckily, I was of sound enough mind to realise it was the clomid and stopped taking it, and decided on a months break for sanitys sake. But I am still annylising my chart, which I promised not to do, so I hardly really taken a break have I?

So I have decided I am rehoming a dog from our local dogs home, but I am so paranoid that there is something defective about me, that they wont trust me with rehoming a dog either!!!

Someone, please slap me and help me out of this depression.

Bears lets slap each other. I wanted to chill this month but I just can not switch my head off of ttc. I think about it every 10 mins, all day, every day.

Sounds like you made a good move stopping Clomid. The Dog will be a great distraction and I would be lost with out my Cats. I'm sure you can keep it together long enough for them to give you a Dog! Xxx

Edit: your chart looks good....

Thanks Lady H.

I have found the perfect little lady to rehome, she's a shih zhu, and I have to ring the dog home back for an interview and then a home inspection.

I have cat, but she's more of a mans cat and I'm a doggy person, but lately, she must have been picking up on my depression and anxiety as she keeps coming for cuddles!! She has never done that before.

There is no switching off from TTC. I took a break from here for about 2 weeks to see if that would help, but I was having withdrawel symptoms!!

I'm not so sure about my chart tbh, I'm 'almost' sure I o'd on cd15, but FF is saying cd18, my cycles have been mental since being on the clomid and this is my first cycle off the meds, so i'm not taking it too seriously, just incase its my body adjusting back to 'normal'.

My other worry is that if I do get referred to Oxford for IVF, if I was having a hard time on Clomid, how will I cope with all the meds for IVF?

Aww Dog sounds cute, fx you are successful. Somehow you will cope with the meds if you go to IVF as you want this badly I'm sure. I think you are doing the right thing taking a break from meds for a bit, then reassess. Talk to your GP about the side effects you've had before deciding. Xxx

I will, thank you so much!

I feel a bit better already, just getting all that off my chest!

Originally Posted by BearsMummy

Thanks Lady H.

I have found the perfect little lady to rehome, she's a shih zhu, and I have to ring the dog home back for an interview and then a home inspection.

I have cat, but she's more of a mans cat and I'm a doggy person, but lately, she must have been picking up on my depression and anxiety as she keeps coming for cuddles!! She has never done that before.

There is no switching off from TTC. I took a break from here for about 2 weeks to see if that would help, but I was having withdrawel symptoms!!

I'm not so sure about my chart tbh, I'm 'almost' sure I o'd on cd15, but FF is saying cd18, my cycles have been mental since being on the clomid and this is my first cycle off the meds, so i'm not taking it too seriously, just incase its my body adjusting back to 'normal'.

My other worry is that if I do get referred to Oxford for IVF, if I was having a hard time on Clomid, how will I cope with all the meds for IVF?

Animals do seem to know when something is not right with their owners/masters. I am a dog person and know that when I was growing up, if I felt sad, my dog would come sit next to me and put her head in my lap as if she were saying everything is going to be okay. I really want a dog now but have nowhere to put him/her until we get a bigger place.

I've got two shih tzus so I know they're therapeutic!

Bears, I've heard injectables don't have nearly the side effects clomid does, esp. not the mood side effects. I think a break from clomid is a great idea, seems like you really have a tap on your mood.

The only things I have from clomid, thankfully, were hot flashes while taking it and bloating and ginormous boobs in the TWW. They can't be contained, I feel like wearing a stretch bandage!

hi ladies...
ok my rant... i have beeen soo much down lately,,two SIL (DH's brother's wives) announced their pregnancies on the same day..having tried for 1 month only...and one of them just got married in feb ( the other SIL always make a comment that she always gets a positive at the drop of hat (2nd pregnancy) and she doesn't need any artificial medications to help concieve...
i have been so much stressed out,,finally broke into a fever yesterday... im feeling so lost that why it couldn't be my turn??? LTTC is a hell of a job,isn't it??

See, I'm lucky enough not to be depressed lately. Much too stressed out and anxious over this move. No time for depression! I'm sure it will come floating back when we settle into our new place.

Rants of the Day:

1. Argh, today is Day 11 and we should be having sex. But we're much too tired after loading the moving truck and driving half the day. DH also took a bath and I didn't even argue, as I have no energy to put up a fight.

2. I wish MIL wouldn't show off pics of the baby on her FB. I deleted my FB for that very reason and have no desire to see the pictures. Stop fecking acting like this is show and tell!!! If anyone else in the room wished to view them, then they would make a FB or ask the bitch to picture message them.

Argh, can't wait to get out of here!! No more having to hear about babies, fertility, nieces, nephews, etc.. I can't wait!