Crying myself to sleep

millianaire · Mar 17th, 2012, 19:32 PM

Every night u wait for my partner to fall asleep before I cry, I cry coz I just came of provera an there is no signs of period, I cry coz I feel so broken an hopeless, I'm laying in bed now just wondering if there will a day when I don't feel like a failure because my body is letting me down as a women? I don't know why an what to do there is only so much one can take an I really just want to give up an b destined to a miserable bitter women around anyone who has children because I'm jealous sorry all just feel like shit an lonely an tired of all this

wonderstars · Mar 17th, 2012, 20:08 PM

I think a lot of us feel like this a lot of the time. You definitely aren't alone. I wish I could give some inspiring words.

hopefull85 · Mar 17th, 2012, 23:39 PM

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Originally Posted by millianaire

Every night u wait for my partner to fall asleep before I cry, I cry coz I just came of provera an there is no signs of period, I cry coz I feel so broken an hopeless, I'm laying in bed now just wondering if there will a day when I don't feel like a failure because my body is letting me down as a women? I don't know why an what to do there is only so much one can take an I really just want to give up an b destined to a miserable bitter women around anyone who has children because I'm jealous sorry all just feel like shit an lonely an tired of all this

there is nothing any of us can say to you that can make you feel better. i know excatly how you feel. my husband and i are at the 5 year mark. and i have people all around me pregnant ( family and friends ) ALL YOUNGER THAN ME and mostly on their second child and here we are DH and i 26 & 38 and havent even had one. i have never had a BFP nothing of any sort. i cry everyday it never goes away EVER. i am to that point of thinking well its never going to happen and im just tired. so i know exactly how you feel if you ever want to talk to someone other than in a thread you can private message me im always here.

wannabemummyb · Mar 18th, 2012, 05:27 AM

Millianaire, asthe others have said there is nothing truly inspiring that i can say. The only thing i can say is that i totally understand. This week has been a bit like that for me. Itdoesn't help that it is mothers day today does it?

I feel doubly broken because oh has a son already (19 and lives with us)

If you need to talk, just pm me xxx

valerie1708 · Mar 18th, 2012, 11:28 AM

Hi!

There are soo many of us feeling the same way, honey. Hopeless, tired, fearful ... but then maybe you just need a little break from TTC. It helps to see things through and make a plan. I've never been pg, and has been trying for over 3 years now. When I feel down (and it happens more often than I'd like), I just try to think of something else, occupy myself with new things (i.e. crafts, books, pc games) and switch from being hysterical into something else. I even got natural remedy to help me calm down coz otherwise I fear I'd be down with a depression. It doesn't help when you cry, worry and stress. It can prevent you from having a baby. Try and relax, maybe do meditation, take a long warm bath, watch a nice movie and just for one day forget that you are not yet a mother ... just be yourself as a person, as a wife etc ... rest and then you will be able to make a new plan for new cycle and feel more positive!

Stay strong and take care x

Madgirl · Mar 18th, 2012, 17:08 PM

I understand!

jessandaj · Mar 19th, 2012, 06:22 AM

I get those feelings that im always just gunna be some miserable women who hates on women and even there children because im so jealous and bitter and i dont wanna be like that its not me but it all hurts so bad inside that you cant help it, so anyways hope af comes and it all works out and you get pregnant very soon

millianaire · Mar 19th, 2012, 13:16 PM

thankyou girls your all very amazing and im not sure how u do it, im struggling so much to keep my head aove the water and not drown in my feelings, i wish i knew what was waiting for me but no one can tell teh future so guess i have to wait just seems to be all im doing lately coz even though provera is finished im now waiting for a period i cant believe i want one so bad from all the years ive been complaining about it true what they say u dont know what u got until its gone thankyou again everyone but im stll not feeling positive but i am taking ur comments into my thoughts xx

Feisty Fidget · Mar 19th, 2012, 14:19 PM

I don't think there is a day that goes by where a LTTTCer feels like this

jessandaj · Mar 20th, 2012, 03:08 AM

I wish i could get a glimpse of the future to just to know if i will ever have a baby and it sounds silly cause its like of course you will somehow right but idk that the thing if were infertile then treatment things cost tons of money and adoption well that takes years i just want it to be natural and i just wonder why it has not happend yet for me when others are getting pregnant all over

Mar 17th, 2012, 19:32 PM	#1
millianaire Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Hampshire, Ringwood Posts: 365	Crying myself to sleep Every night u wait for my partner to fall asleep before I cry, I cry coz I just came of provera an there is no signs of period, I cry coz I feel so broken an hopeless, I'm laying in bed now just wondering if there will a day when I don't feel like a failure because my body is letting me down as a women? I don't know why an what to do there is only so much one can take an I really just want to give up an b destined to a miserable bitter women around anyone who has children because I'm jealous sorry all just feel like shit an lonely an tired of all this

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Mar 17th, 2012, 20:08 PM	#2
wonderstars Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: Canada Posts: 554	I think a lot of us feel like this a lot of the time. You definitely aren't alone. I wish I could give some inspiring words.

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Mar 18th, 2012, 05:27 AM	#4
wannabemummyb Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Feb 2011 Location: Surrey, UK Posts: 681	Millianaire, asthe others have said there is nothing truly inspiring that i can say. The only thing i can say is that i totally understand. This week has been a bit like that for me. Itdoesn't help that it is mothers day today does it? I feel doubly broken because oh has a son already (19 and lives with us) If you need to talk, just pm me xxx

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Mar 18th, 2012, 11:28 AM	#5
valerie1708 Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jun 2011 Location: Kent, UK Posts: 143	Hi! There are soo many of us feeling the same way, honey. Hopeless, tired, fearful ... but then maybe you just need a little break from TTC. It helps to see things through and make a plan. I've never been pg, and has been trying for over 3 years now. When I feel down (and it happens more often than I'd like), I just try to think of something else, occupy myself with new things (i.e. crafts, books, pc games) and switch from being hysterical into something else. I even got natural remedy to help me calm down coz otherwise I fear I'd be down with a depression. It doesn't help when you cry, worry and stress. It can prevent you from having a baby. Try and relax, maybe do meditation, take a long warm bath, watch a nice movie and just for one day forget that you are not yet a mother ... just be yourself as a person, as a wife etc ... rest and then you will be able to make a new plan for new cycle and feel more positive! Stay strong and take care x

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Mar 18th, 2012, 17:08 PM	#6
Madgirl Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: My little piece of heaven Posts: 254	I understand!

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Mar 19th, 2012, 06:22 AM	#7
jessandaj Trying to conceive (TTC) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: missouri Posts: 1,783	I get those feelings that im always just gunna be some miserable women who hates on women and even there children because im so jealous and bitter and i dont wanna be like that its not me but it all hurts so bad inside that you cant help it, so anyways hope af comes and it all works out and you get pregnant very soon

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Mar 19th, 2012, 13:16 PM	#8
millianaire Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Hampshire, Ringwood Posts: 365	thankyou girls your all very amazing and im not sure how u do it, im struggling so much to keep my head aove the water and not drown in my feelings, i wish i knew what was waiting for me but no one can tell teh future so guess i have to wait just seems to be all im doing lately coz even though provera is finished im now waiting for a period i cant believe i want one so bad from all the years ive been complaining about it true what they say u dont know what u got until its gone thankyou again everyone but im stll not feeling positive but i am taking ur comments into my thoughts xx

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Mar 19th, 2012, 14:19 PM	#9
Feisty Fidget Other BnB Addict Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: Cocooned in my bed drinking hot chocolate! Posts: 4,188	I don't think there is a day that goes by where a LTTTCer feels like this

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Mar 20th, 2012, 03:08 AM	#10
jessandaj Trying to conceive (TTC) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: missouri Posts: 1,783	I wish i could get a glimpse of the future to just to know if i will ever have a baby and it sounds silly cause its like of course you will somehow right but idk that the thing if were infertile then treatment things cost tons of money and adoption well that takes years i just want it to be natural and i just wonder why it has not happend yet for me when others are getting pregnant all over

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