How did you feel when you reached (and passed) the one year TTC mark?
It will be one year since DH and I started trying to conceive our first on Sunday, April 1. I've been dreading this day for months, but I noticed today that I'm not as panicked or distraught about it as I was about three months ago when I first started acting on my thoughts that something was wrong. Mostly I just feel kind of numb or separated from the whole thing.
Maybe it's that I've already ranted and raved, and yes, grieved, over the fact that trying for our first child didn't go as planned or expected. Maybe it's that, after getting a second opinion, we finally have a doctor we trust. Or maybe it's that we finally started opening up to family and friends about what we're going through after enduring months and months of being asked why we didn't have kids yet, or when we were going to start trying. Maybe it's knowing that I'm undergoing a lap and hysteroscopy next week for suspected endo, fibroids, polyps and cysts, and knowing that afterwards we're going to start trying again. Maybe it's thinking that we'll have a fresh start.
I don't know. Whatever it is, I really thought I would be feeling differently once we got here. Every cycle until this one, I have cried (sometimes just a few tears, sometimes a few hours of sobbing) when my period came. I keep expecting the tears to come and they haven't. I feel like I'm supposed to be feeling something, anything else than how I feel right now.
I've started to identify more with the people on this board than on the TTC or TTC#1 boards (even though I've been mostly lurking here since I'm still not sure if I really belong, given that I know DH and I haven't been trying nearly as long as many of you). So I wanted to ask anyone who is open to answering:
How did you feel when you reached the one year of trying mark? Did you feel differently than how you expected you'd feel? How was it for your partner/spouse?
For me, I thought it wouldn't make me feel any different than before one year, but I ended up getting really worried. I wanted to see a Dr right away and I started doing so much more research on TTC. At the 1 1/2 year mark...I just want it to happen NOW.
As for DH, he kept saying that it will happen when it happens and he didn't want me to go to the Dr or anything. Once we hit the 1 year mark, he wanted to get me into the Dr and wanted to get the process moving. He wasn't happy about doing his SA or anything like that but he has been more than supportive of me TTC through the Dr.
Also, I just read your signature and wanted to say that maybe you don't feel as bad because you are already going to see a Dr. Most women can't get to see a Dr before 1 year because that is when you are considered "infertile". That is what a lot of the anxiety is about. You have already been there. Maybe that's it?
I was fine for the 1st year as I knew that it takes most people a year to get pregnant, In fact the 1st year was the best I was so care free and me and my hubby made the most of it , It wasn't until we had been trying for 2 years that I started to think something was wrong, and then we started seeing the doctor. The only regret I had was not going to the doctor sooner, but then it wouldn't of made any difference as I cannot conceive without IVF and we would of had to of waited untiil I was 30 anyway. So it was a good job I waited the 2 years I am not sure I would of been able to handle waiting a year to start the IVF process at least this way I haven't had to wait. But at least you have already started the process very early so I hope you get a great out come with a natural conception xx
This might seem like an odd answer but I think I felt relieved and relaxed as we were finally getting tests done. A weight was lifted from our shoulders once we saw the consultant at the hospital.
I have had regular cycles since coming off birth control but when I did ovulation tests I didn't seem to ovulate until about day 20-22 (with cycles of 28-32 days). My GP didn't really listen when I told her that and we had to wait for the year.
We both had tests done and the results all fall into the 'normal' range so we are unexplained. Unexplained is a bit of a hard one to deal with as there isn't an issue there to deal with as such.
We have just had our first IUI and although the wait between appointments has been hard at times it has been a relief to finally get a helping hand on our journey to have a baby.
I knew there was something wrong well before we hit the year mark as DHīs brothers have both had to use IVF and I have kidney disease causing me not to ovulate regularly despite a perfectly regular cycle. We were both tested at around 10 months and were referred to FS straight away. It didnīt, however, stop me from being very sad and even angry when we came to the full year. DH has mainly felt sorry that I have been so upset but I can tell he is worried we will need more help than just the Clomid.
In a way I donīt feel such pressure any longer as I know we are in this in the long term now but also do think about it every day. I am resigned to the fact that our baby is still a long way away but also sure that we will get our little one, eventually.
Depressed. I came off antidepressants while we were TTC and struggled through for a whole year without them but then had to give in and go back on the meds. I felt really defeated and like it was all for nothing. We are being referred to the FS though so that's something at least.
I felt strangely happy to hit one year mark, bc I felt justified to now seek help, and DH's dr seemed happy to help. Truthfully, we started ttc before we were really ready, but bc we knew it wasn't going to happen right away. We knew that we were going to have problems with DH's swimmers. I spent the first year thinking, 'maybe it'll just happen!' I knew that statistically that was unlikely, but kept the optimism. Now that we're at 16 months or so....the optimism is running out. We've just had an SA done and we're waiting for the results. The results will mean so much bc we know IVF is out of the question, and DH isn't willing to use donor sperm either. I spend a lot of time trying to imagine my life without a child, in case it comes to that, but still desperately hope it'll just happen when we're not expecting it.
I was oddly optimistic and happy. My gyne wanted me to wait one year until we started testing. I was just wanted to feel like I was doing something, anything so it was a relief. I was lucky that I got to start that testing right away whereas some gals have had to wait quite some time. Even while I wait for a specialist appt, I am trying clomid which many don't get to. I think that definitely helped towards the positivity.
I've been TTC for 2 years now and still hoping for some miracle.
After I've passed the first year, me and DH were getting a bit worried, but were still super positive. But that year leading to the 2nd was honestly horrendous. I would cry at each AF. I was obsessed with temps, fertile periods, cervical mucus, cervix opening or closed, position of cervix... the works! I dread going to family functions as I was avoiding the questions and basically I try to avoid pregnant women at all costs. It was crazzzzyyy!
Earlier this year, we finally went for proper checks with a gynae. And so, now I'm on 1-month hospitalization leave after an abdominal myomectomy to remove 3 fibroids, endometriosis and I had ovarian drilling done as well.
Now, basically we gotta wait for the gynae to clear me ok for us to start TTC again. By that time, I'll prolly reach my 3rd year already. But oh well, at least we have tried something.
So dear ladies, big hugs to all of you! Babydust! Let's keep trying!
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