March 3rd 2012 - Page 4

Andypanda6570 · Feb 24th, 2012, 06:47 AM

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Originally Posted by kiki04

Andrea I know nothing I say can take away your pain, or make things any better but I will say that I love you very much.

I really hope that one day soon you can find that place that has a smoother road. At some point, the bumps do get smaller and the ride less bumpy.... and it just kills me to see how rough your road still is

If I could take away all your pain and hold it in me I would because I dont want to see you hurt anymore.

I hope you and Ava have a very special day together and that maybe she can help you find some peace

I love you also and thank you for your post. It was getting easier for me and now I just feel like it is day one again. I am hoping after March 3rd passes things will get back to the way they were. I sat up last night just crying, I am so sick of crying

but I can't help it. I can give advice to people but I can't take my own. I think it is just that 1 year of her loss had went by so quickly for me and I just need to come to terms with it. I hope the 2nd year loss is easier for me.
XOXOXOX

DueSeptember · Feb 24th, 2012, 20:00 PM

Awww a year it went by so fast I will prolly cry my eyes out but I have been doing that since she has passed...I cant seem to get over it as they say time will heal then why am I still hurt...I will probably be this way until I have my rainbow baby sucks!!!

Andypanda6570 · Feb 24th, 2012, 20:04 PM

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Originally Posted by DueSeptember

Awww a year it went by so fast I will prolly cry my eyes out but I have been doing that since she has passed...I cant seem to get over it as they say time will heal then why am I still hurt...I will probably be this way until I have my rainbow baby sucks!!!

OliveBay · Mar 2nd, 2012, 09:55 AM

Andrea, just wanted to say that I'll be thinking of you and Ava tomorrow

dancareoi · Mar 2nd, 2012, 10:02 AM

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Originally Posted by Andypanda6570

I am NOT a drama queen nor do I like to tell people how i feel or let my feelings out, it is just the way I am.
I have to say my true feelings here though ..I am petrified of this day

I can't believe a year is almost here and how fast it went. I go back to that day and wish i could make it better for my Ava and myself. This has been the hardest year of my life and yes I have gotten through this but this pain never leaves and I keep wishing things went our way and I had my beautiful Ava right now with me.

I don't want this day to come , i am so sick of this pain and the fear knowing that it will be with me till i leave this earth, it is so hard and the worst really now for me is nobody in my everyday life understands. Why is it so hard to talk to your family the people who are supposed to love you? I can't believe people just think you forget this ever happened how can they be so FUC*IN stupid?

I have so much sadness but when my anger comes out it is terrible, I loose it that is why I don't like people talking about it ( Not that they do) they just say I am so happy you have moved on?

NOOOOOOOOO I have not moved on I am still stuck in this sadness and YES my heart is still broken....
I just wanted to get this out and ask has anyone been at their 1 year date and how did they handle it.
Love you all and thank you for reading

Andrea, I hope you have a peaceful and special day with Ava tomorrow. I will be thinking of you and sending lots of love and best wishes.

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:h ugs:

Kelly9 · Mar 2nd, 2012, 20:31 PM

Hoping tomorrow is as peaceful and easy as possible for you.

Nikki_d72 · Mar 3rd, 2012, 02:06 AM

Wishing you and your family a gentle day today. Floaty kisses to Ava. xxx

mhazzab · Mar 3rd, 2012, 02:17 AM

Lots of love and hugs from me too. I have been thinking about you and Ava all week. Today will be so hard for you but try to remember her with a smile. There are so many of us around the world thinking of you both today, maybe you can take a little comfort from that. Love you lots Andrea xx

Andypanda6570 · Mar 3rd, 2012, 02:32 AM

Thanks SO much. Me and my husband are going to go and let off some balloons and I have written Ava a letter that I will put in a little baggy and leave at her grave, I just poured my heart out to her.

I hope the rain stops so I can have more time to stay there. Thank you all so much for helping me through this.
You all mean more to me than you know..

collie_crazy · Mar 3rd, 2012, 05:29 AM

The balloons sound lovely

I hope the rain eased and you got to spend time there. And like Mhairi says there are so many people around the world remembering sweet Ava today, she was just so special

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DueSeptember On a break (TTC) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Norfolk, VA 757 Posts: 1,695	Awww a year it went by so fast I will prolly cry my eyes out but I have been doing that since she has passed...I cant seem to get over it as they say time will heal then why am I still hurt...I will probably be this way until I have my rainbow baby sucks!!!

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OliveBay Other Active BnB Member Join Date: Nov 2011 Location: UK Posts: 327	Andrea, just wanted to say that I'll be thinking of you and Ava tomorrow

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mhazzab Trying to conceive (TTC) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Scotland Posts: 1,011	Lots of love and hugs from me too. I have been thinking about you and Ava all week. Today will be so hard for you but try to remember her with a smile. There are so many of us around the world thinking of you both today, maybe you can take a little comfort from that. Love you lots Andrea xx

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Andypanda6570 Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NEW YORK Posts: 5,226	Thanks SO much. Me and my husband are going to go and let off some balloons and I have written Ava a letter that I will put in a little baggy and leave at her grave, I just poured my heart out to her.I hope the rain stops so I can have more time to stay there. Thank you all so much for helping me through this. You all mean more to me than you know..

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collie_crazy Pregnant (Expecting) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: Glasgow, Scotland Posts: 1,525	The balloons sound lovely I hope the rain eased and you got to spend time there. And like Mhairi says there are so many people around the world remembering sweet Ava today, she was just so special

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