Even now it hurts.....

fluffyblue · Mar 18th, 2012, 18:52 PM

Despite 24 years since I lost jess I still feel empty at times. I have 3 beautiful children aged 18, 11 and one but had 5 miscarriages between my 2nd and third children. You would think I could move on but I seem more drawn here now than ever I don't know why - today's been hard I have cuddled my rainbow Ollie all day long,
I constantly check on him, why have I become paranoid

Jess died at 20 weeks over 24 years ago but it feels like yesterday. I very rarely talk about her - why??? I don't talk about my five tiny angels either but I did today and hubby and I broke down. Do you ever wondered what if?

Thanks for listening just having a moment xxxxx

Krippy · Mar 18th, 2012, 19:18 PM

~Our angels never really leave us I think~

Andypanda6570 · Mar 19th, 2012, 04:18 AM

I am so very sorry for your loss of Jess. I lost my Ava at 20 weeks over a year ago and you just confirmed with your post what i always felt that it never goes away.It is just our new normal and I guess always will be. Yes, I always wonder about the what if's

XOXOOXXOXOO Thinking of you..Andrea

Mar 18th, 2012, 18:52 PM	#1
fluffyblue On a break (TTC) BnB Addict Join Date: May 2009 Location: Birmingham UK Posts: 2,726	Even now it hurts..... Despite 24 years since I lost jess I still feel empty at times. I have 3 beautiful children aged 18, 11 and one but had 5 miscarriages between my 2nd and third children. You would think I could move on but I seem more drawn here now than ever I don't know why - today's been hard I have cuddled my rainbow Ollie all day long, I constantly check on him, why have I become paranoid Jess died at 20 weeks over 24 years ago but it feels like yesterday. I very rarely talk about her - why??? I don't talk about my five tiny angels either but I did today and hubby and I broke down. Do you ever wondered what if? Thanks for listening just having a moment xxxxx

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Mar 18th, 2012, 19:18 PM	#2
Krippy Waiting To Try (WTT) BnB Addict Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Canada Posts: 2,729	~Our angels never really leave us I think~

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Mar 19th, 2012, 04:18 AM	#3
Andypanda6570 Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: NEW YORK Posts: 5,231	I am so very sorry for your loss of Jess. I lost my Ava at 20 weeks over a year ago and you just confirmed with your post what i always felt that it never goes away.It is just our new normal and I guess always will be. Yes, I always wonder about the what if's XOXOOXXOXOO Thinking of you..Andrea

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