Originally Posted by River12

thanks again to all for your kind words.
TJmyangel - River was one of our short list names for our baby but when we first laid eyes on our precious boy, it just seemed so fitting! I think of him constantly.

Mhazzab - thats exactly how I fee. I know she is just so excited to have a new addition, but it really does feel like she is just rubbing my nose in it. I received a text from her the other day saying we should catch up and I had already told her DH that we weren't ready so I really had nothing nice to say so I just ignored the text only to receive another one from her today. We have already told them that it is hard for us to see them right now but they just dont get it.
Congrats on your rainbow baby how exciting and how special to have your due date around the twins birthday!

TwoRdue - wow seems we are in almost the exact same boat except you were having twins. that's exactly how my situation panned out. I had the bleeding then eventually my "plug" if you like gave way and I lost the all important fluid around River. I had no idea at the time what was happening I had never experienced this. I just thought it was more bleeding because it was happening in the lead up to it. What is your plan now?

I only just got my first AF since River. Still waiting for blood tests and what not but my Dr has given me the ok to try again.

Originally Posted by TwoRdue

I am now WTT as I have to wait to have two natural cycles before the hubby and I can go back for the IVF as we still have two frozen embryos and another round that is paid for by the government but I also want to wait and see what the test on the boys and me say as depending on the out come it could change everything (I am due to find out next week fingers crossed).

I had a lot of discharge the week before my water broke and thought that it was normal but now I know the signs for the next pregnancy (not that I ever want that to happen again) as I was all new at it but the doc did say that it still would not have changed the out come as it was going to happen know matter what.

Will you be trying again?? for me its what keeps me going! Best of luck

Originally Posted by River12

thankyou all so much for your kind words.
You hear about things like this happening to people but I would have never imagined that I would have to go through something like this.
It is great to be able to have a place to talk to other women who have experienced the loss of a child.
We want so badly to start a family but after 2 losses I know I am going to be a wreck with any other pregnancy. I try to believe that everything happens for a reason but I just cant even begin to think what reason would there be for this to happen to us!
Im going to try and take some strength from others that have been there.