I just finished filling out the order of protection documents against the fob and I feel really crappy about it. I know it's for the best and it's the first step to a new and better life for me and most importantly my son. My son needs his father around but not a father like Adam, (fob). Apart from that it's a serous matter filing a restraining order...emotionally it's messing with my head, reality and the fact AB is moving so much makes me go through with everything. I know I shouldn't have let things get this far, but there's no such thing as rewinding the pasts all I can do is try to make the best of a worse situation. Ihonestly just want to protect my son even as he's unborn so i'm acting tuff so everyone around me doesn't see what I'm going through. I guess it's the job of the mother to protect and I'm not scard of Adam anymore, but right now if something happens to me it happens to my son, even after he's born I'm still the only parent he has. Sorry for the short story but already this blog is such a blessing. I'm grateful that even though this pregnancy was unplanned and I'm going through it right now talking with you guys makes me realize it's not all bad, and even if it was planned doesn't make it any less beautiful. I mean even a rose has thorns right.

I think you are doing the right thing. I don't know any of your history but based on what you wrote here.
Don't be so hard on yourself, as you said you are only protecting your son and you are doing your job. I'm sure any mother in your situation would.
Keep your chin up and know that you are doing it for a better life for you and your son. Even if it does seem hard atm. You should be proud of yourself if anything, for taking the first step xxx

Just make sure u stick to it hun, i dont know the story but my mum had to do that a few times , she didnt stick to it the first time as she felt sorry for my sisters dad. Because she did that life went horribly wrong.
You are doing the best thing and by doing that your being the best mummy. There are reasons for this so when your feeling guilty just remember them x

you are doing the right thing!!! i can't imagine, and i know it must be so hard. but i'm glad you are keeping your chin up and staying strong. you are doing a wonderful thing for your child. i promise. xoxo.

Thanks to everyone.

You should be really proud of yourself. So many women let themselves be controlled and bullied by scumbag men. What you're doing is fantastic and shows what a great mum you'll be.