hun dont listen to that dumb arse ladie you have every right to see your midwife if you have any concerns and i would also think about looking for another midwife if they are that rude about seeing you for a concern.
i wish you all the luck in the world please keep us updated

Im sure she'll be okay when I get there but she'll probably say why didn't I just see the doctor..Like im going to wait another 2 weeks to see if I've got some sort of infection :/

Decided to do a pee sample before going there so I don't have to when I get there and (tmi) I could smell that it was the same smell that I thought was discharge. Im now thinking I have just got thrush and my bladders just being awkward and leaking :/
It was exactly the same smell though :/ ah well only one way to find out.
The appointments in 1 hour, will update when I get back.
xx

Susieq - I had the same thing that you are describing last week and it was BV and thrush . You should be fine when you get treated , I was scared too because I heard it could cause MC but I felt my bean kick today for the first time so I'm okay.

So I went to the see the midwife at half 3. Waited till 4:10pm to get seen :/
Went quite well, she was really nice and doesn't seem to mind seeing me if I need to. I spose she'd rather know im still alive.

I've been really depressed all week and for the the past couple of weeks really and she works with my careworker so I think she might have realised after I skipped my mental health appointment a few weeks back and said I need more support around me. I honestly felt like I was going to cry every time I went to speak and just felt really unhappy

I told her what was wrong, she tested for a uti and it came back clear. She thinks the cramping was uterus stretching since its painful when she used the doppler. Took ages to find the heartbeat, bub's was hiding. Would have been worried if they hadn't been kicking me constantly in the waiting room. Dont think it likes doctors surgeries
If I still feel like I have a uti I've been told that she'll make sure can see the doctor the same day I ring up and get some antibiotics just to be sure.

She also took a swab to check for BV and thrush and will get a phone call if the results are abnormal.

She was really nice today.
Then I got home and have been an emotional wreck all evening The dog headbutted me in the mouth full speed and I've got the worse ulcer on my lip which he wacked. He knocked my top teeth back and made them bleed and i've got a hole in my bottom lip where my teeth went in. It hurt like hell but I don't normally cry. Im just so stressed and burst in to tears
And its been constant ever since. I just can't stop crying. I need my bipolar med's but im not allowed them I want a hug
Then dad had a go about not sorting my car insurance out and I ended up walking off and crying.
x

*udpated*

I'm glad your mw was nice today and ran the tests for you. Hopefully you'll get answers soon.

As for the bipolar meds and not being able to be on them...have you talked to your doctor or whoever about just going on anti-depressants. They're definitely not the same, but they can help take the edge off a little and make everything easier to deal with. I was on bipolar meds to help stabilize my moods and I've had just take anti-depressants now because I obviously can't take the other ones. Maybe try that and see if that helps at all. Either way, I hope you start feeling better.

Hi,
I want to go on anti-depressants (never said that in my life) but i'm not allowed
Last time I took them I went in to a complete manic stage and ended up going slightly psychotic and having psychiatrists at the house and being put straight on to bipolar med's that turned me in to a zombie pretty much until I begged to come off them. Got given new tablets and the next day found out I was pregnant.
I've also got rapid cycling type 4 bipolar so normal cycle from extremely hyper to almost suicidal throughout the day but it stabilised for a few weeks after I found out I was pregnant. Now i'm just stuck on depressed which hasn't happened since I was 14. I so wish they would give me anti-depressants but they cant risk me going manic..although its much less stressful for bub's if im hyper probably.

I have to see my care worker in the morning so i'm hoping she come's up with something

x

Definitely talk to your care worker about it because when you're pregnant your hormones are all different and you might react to anti-depressants better, especially if it's a low dose. Plus, if you're worried, maybe they could have you come in every week or something for extra monitoring so that if there is a problem they can help you quickly before it gets bad.

I do know how you feel about it all, though. I've got borderline personality disorder and my moods cycle like yours do. It's horrible, especially when you can't take anything. I got lucky with Aiden because my moods seemed to stabilize on their own when I was pregnant with him, but when I was pregnant with Mady and during this pregnancy, too, they aren't stabilized at all.

I really do hope they can find some sort of solution for you.

Aw babe BIG BIG it's good LO is okay and that you'll know soon if you've got anything else to worry about. It sounds like a crazy sort of week and I hope things get better for you soon!!