I'm sorry for yet another down thread!

My son is almost 5 weeks now and for the past week I have been feeling depressed. I had depression for about 2 years and I only felt better last June-ish, so i know the feeling and I have had days on and off feeling like it since but nothing like this.

My son has bad reflux and colic so it's really hard work since I'm on my own but if someone offers help I say no because I feel like a terrible mother, I feel its my fault that he has reflux and colic and I can't get that out of my head

FOB is being a total d*** and said that i'm a s*** mum and will never be able to support him because i wont be able to get a job and if i do it will be a deadend one which really upset me because that is my fear already. However it shouldnt because he hasnt got him anything or anything for him or seen him and yesterday said he wished he was never born.. DISGUSTING thing to say about anyone letalone his son.

I cant stop crying I don't want to leave the house and keep cancelling on friends.

Arrg I basically just want to hear anyones stories of depression and a little hope that things are going to get better.
I've got a doctors appointment tomorrow but don't want her to judge me!

sorry for moaning on another post again

Massive you aren't a crap Mum at all! You sound like you do a fab job!!! Good on you don't worry about the doctor judging you! They won't do that. I saw a doctor in my pregnancy and she made me feel much better and arranged the support and help I needed! Defo go you will feel much better just getting it off your chest xx

Thank you, I have a family nurse that I could speak to but she always seems to say what a good job I'm doing but I feel its because I haven't told her how I'm really feeling and she will think that I can't cope at all and that I'm not doing a good job if I do tell her.. Sorry probably sounds really stupid!xx

Hi, I'm not a teen but thought I would try and help. I have had pnd and have been working on it. I totally understand how you are feeling. my ds had reflux and barely slept, this added to the feeling I was having.n

You say the nurse says you are doing a good job so you must be! It's not that you're not coping, it's that you feel like you're not coping. Pnd does that to you, you can feel completely overwhelmed by things. Even simple things like going to the shops with my kids had me breaking out into a sweat.

Go see your dr, they're not going to think any less of you, they're there to help and look after you. They hear thing like this all the time.

I hope this helps. Take care

Aww she won't think any less of you. You are doing a good job! Things can be stressful and make you feel down. She will understand that.

talking to people really helps , i felt still feel like that sometimes , try and get out with your friends and still be socially active x

Hi hun, I had severe postnatal depression with my daughter and it does get easier if you get the right help (which it sounds like you are doing.)

I was on anti depressants for about 8 months (from my daughter being about 8 weeks). She also had acid reflux and colic and those early days are extremely hard, but you aren't a crap mummy for feeling the way you do, depression is a chemical inbalance its not something you can stop unless you take the tablets to correct it.

Good luck and if you need to chat pm me

Aw hon. I would speak to your doctor.

I had bad depression before bub was born, during and after. And then the feeding problems, then mastitis and then colic and reflux hit and it got worse, but we are strong as mums and we pull through. I still have really bad days where I am severely depressed for no reason but I have gotten soooooo much better. Alexander helps me keep myself together.

I would talk to your doctor, they wont judge and they will be able to help, even if its just to listen to you.