Disclaimer- big pity me rant coming up!

So I hated my job before mat leave, had to go back to avoid paying mat pay back but had my flexible working request declined had to go with my second choice of working pt-three days a week. But needed to get another job to make up to full time money. Found a fab job, retrained and started in jan. work weekends in new job so no child care as LO is with hubby.

Then in may in being made redundant from first job which actually is ok but I'm struggling mentally to even make it to may and have taken loads of sick and holiday days. Tried the docs just after I started back to see if she would sign me off but she just recommended a warm bath before bed
Today I just felt blue all day and after I hadn't seen a single person by 11.15 I left a post it note on my bosses door saying I had a migraine and came home!
Then I got a call from my new job saying is failed my assessment last week and that I'd also made a pretty bad mistake on something.

I just feel fed up of trying so damn hard all the time. I've lost all my confidence since going back to work and I can't wait until end of may to be a sham mist if the week but I'm worrying that I won't be happy, and something else will go wrong to make me not enjoy being at home with LO.
Ok winge done!