I can relate to all of you. I was with a guy for 7 months and played mommy #2 to his daughter. But the entire time we were together I would cry because it was constantly being thrown in my face that she wasn't mine. I wanted my own but it didn't feel like it was the right situation for me. Then he up and left me after telling me he had been unhappy for months, and I never got to see his daughter again. This was 3 years ago. In that time, my step sister has had 2 kids and given my daddy his first 2 grandchildren which crushed me...I cried so much

and didn't even go to her baby showers. (not that I was invited anyway...)
Now I have a house, I havne't been with my OH for very long but everything just feels right. I've never wanted to try with anyone else besides him. He actually broke down in tears in front of me because he has wanted a family for so long and hasn't been in the right situation until now either.
My friend just found out recently that she's pregnant and had a drunken one night stand and the father is on the other side of the country and wants nothing to do with her or the baby. It angers me so much that "God" will give people like that and crack whores and everything kids but then there are women like me who would make an excellent mother and "He" is making it difficult. Last month my AF was 10 days late and I can usually predict what hour it's going to come. Got a bunch of BFN's and then went for a blood test which was also a BFN...

ended up getting AF at the worst possible time

....
I keep trying to keep myself calm and know that not a lot of people get pregnant on their first cycle of trying, but I'm impatient and I want nothing more than to have a family and be a mom.