Not looking forward to Easter. Watching ~1-2 year olds with their Easter outfits, getting Easter baskets and all that kid stuff. Family always asks us about children, too, which freaking sucks. I hope I get sick or something so I can stay home. I'm so bitter. My DH cousin is due to give birth in June - I hate to say it but if there is a family gathering afterwards I won't go if I am not pregnant by then, my heart aches beyond any words could describe.

Sorry about the news of no ovulation were on cycle 8 so I'm nervous to reach that year mark fer sure and I don't wanna go to Easter at my in laws at all, all the kids and my sil being pregnant with her 6th child that she doesn't need I don't even wanna see her cause I is it's gunna hurt and that she is pregnant his cousin will get pregnant and she already has 7 but she wants to keep up having the most and youngest (I swear it's ridiculous) and if I'm not pregnant soon I swear I'm cutting off ties to them I just can't handle it I'm trying not to stress and they give me stress with all the babys when its not happening for us

This is my first post ever on here and I just wanted to say I feel the same way and you're not messed up for thinking that way. My 2 sisters and my best friend are all pregnant and it breaks my heart every month when I get that BFN . Hope your week gets better.

Im glad case the more I rant about her pregnancy I feel bad but with no time for the 6 month old or 4 other kids and a husband with a 9 dollar a hour Job you dont need another baby that's just it it's nothing against her but she needs to use protection but wait they have no money to buy it

Im not quite there yet. At this point i still get excited for other people when they get pregnant. Fills me with hope i guess... however with that being said I STILL KNOW WHERE YOURE COMING FROM!! Give it a few months and i know i will be feeling the way you are. Totally normal. Not fair for someone who deserves it to have to work so hard for it and still nothing...when theres women who shouldnt get the chance to be mothers and it happens by accident!!! It can feel like a cruel world thats forsure......

Yes it can deffenitly feel cruel, hopefully yours won't get you to the horrible jealous hurt person

How long have you been TTC Jess?

First of all I want to give everyone here a large amount of hugs

I know where you all are coming from. This is our 14th cycle off TTC and we were ntnp a while before even TTC. 3 years ago DH & I fell pregnant the first month we didn't use protection..it was an "oopsie" at the time but we felt so blessed. It ended in an MC but long story short it made us realize that we were ready to settle down and become pregnant and start our little family. Of course that was obviously some sort of fluke. I try to be lighthearted and tell DH "God is trolling me" because he blessed me with a pregnancy so easily just to take it away...then all the years following my period has been late so many times with pregnancy symptoms just to have my period come RIGHT after I spend loads on tests and it comes out BFN. I mean..really..?? Not to mention the month before last I even had a faint line just to have AF show up with a vengeance in the middle of the night

Meanwhile I've actually deleted my facebook because eventually I just came to the point where I couldn't handle it anymore. It doesn't help that I live in a crappy area where we have loads of unfit mothers. One that stands out is a woman I went to HS with who has 4 beautiful children that she treats like crap...just the other day for example she was out with her 2 year old walking a stroller full of a few shopping bags and her toddler was sweetly wanting to get into the stroller (she was struggling walking behind her mom to keep up with her) and her mom yells (excuse my language) "shut the fuck up and stop acting like a fucking baby!! use your fucking legs and WALK!"...it just pisses me off so much.

I have also been really depressed because my best friend of 10 years just had her 2nd baby with her 2nd husband and her attitude has become really hurtful. She knows we're TTC and she gloats about how easy it is for her to become pregnant and she just recently moved and actually told me "It's so good to finally meet new friends that have children"....she has said many things like that...after all that we have been through suddenly I am not "fit enough" to be her friend because my husband and I can't get pregnant at the drop of a hat

Okay that is terrible of your friend....she must be unhappy with herself or her life for some other reason and shes trying to make herself feel better by gloating about the one thing she knows someone else cant have that she does...that's just harsh...Have you figured out why its taking so long to get pregnant? or is nature just being difficult for you?

That really sucks cuddlebunny! I agree with mrsd23. Sounds like she is unhappy with herself and her life, and possibly jealous that you have such a loving relationship and are actually prepared for a child. You sound like a really strong lady!