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Old May 30th, 2018, 15:08 PM   1
alwaysblve
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Too Scared to Test


I know this is part irrational, but I really can't help it. I'm terrified to POS right now. The backstory below...

After trying for about a year (with a break from a CMV scare) my husband and I were so excited to learn that we were expecting our second. I had all the normal pregnancy symptoms, exhaustion, cramps, nausea- everything seemed normal. When we went for the check up at 8 weeks however, we saw no heartbeat. Per the doctor we either miscalculated when we conceived or it was a blighted ovum. Unfortunately it was the later and 2 days later I naturally miscarried.

My period thankfully returned promptly at about 30 days (my normal) and while more uncomfortable and longer than in past it seemed back to usual

Fast forward three months to today. My period is close to 2 weeks late and I haven't tested. I'm terrified. I'm worried about getting a BFN and the long road of waiting, but I'm perhaps even more scared of a BFP. I really want this baby, but I can't face another loss. I have so many fewer symptoms this time around... and it would still be another couple of weeks before being able to get the ultrasound. I am so worried about getting that BFP, just to lose it all over again.

My husband is respecting my right not to check yet, and I'm being careful about prenatal and foods etc. But I just don't know how to face the test.
My family and some of my friends know about our loss, but somehow the anonymous webosphere looks like a better crutch of support for my current fear. All words of advice and guidance are appreciate.

Wishing everyone babydust and excitement in the future,



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Old May 30th, 2018, 15:52 PM   2
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So sorry to hear about your loss. I didn't want to read and run. You are going to have to take the test though but I know you know that. You need proper care if you are pregnant again. Hugs to you!!!!



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Old May 30th, 2018, 22:47 PM   3
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I understand being scared to test. I'm ttc a rainbow baby and I'm scared to see that bfn and that bfp. But I want my rainbow more than anything so I know eventually I will poas.



 
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Old May 31st, 2018, 11:20 AM   4
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Thanks for the support and hang in there Rainbobby18. I think I'm going to force myself to try to test tomorrow as then it will be 2 weeks late. Hopefully by that time if its a bfp it will stick around. I wish this was easier for all of us.



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Old May 31st, 2018, 12:18 PM   5
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Sticky baby dust and prayers for you.



 
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Old Jun 1st, 2018, 14:49 PM   6
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I hope its a bfp that leads to a sticky bean always.



 
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Old Jun 12th, 2018, 10:26 AM   7
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alwaysblve: Any update ? TTC after a miscarriage is tough. A number of us are in the same boat as you.



 
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Old Jun 25th, 2018, 20:21 PM   8
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Hope you are okay!



 
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