So how did you feel when AF showed up after your m/c? Were you happy that things were back on track and you could start trying again? Were you sad that you were having a period b/c you weren't pregnant? Did AF remind you of the m/c? etc.

I'm nervously awaiting mine. Part of me wants it to hurry up and come so I know my body is back to normal and we can start trying again! Another part of me is scared b/c I think it will will remind of the m/c which is still quite vivid in my memory. And another part will be disappointed b/c I would love to be pregnant again right away... although I know the chances of this are slim!

Such an emotional roller coaster...

I feel a mixture of emotions. In a way I'm glad it's arrived so I can get on TTC but then I'm not because I was hoping I wouldn't have one and would already be pregnant again. Again I'm not glad because I shouldn't be having one ... I should be preparing for my 20 week scan not TTC.

It is such an emotional rollercoaster but I must say that the girls on here have AMAZING support and I don't think I could have got through these last 6.5 weeks without them x

oh awesome topic!

i just got my 1st af a couple of days ago. and emotionally it was a roller coaster which i didn't expect. i wanted my body to go back to normal soooo badly that i thought i would make a party when the af arrives and that's it.

The truth is - i was indeed relieved, and was really happy me & my body finally managed to restart. It felt like a whole amount of pressure was lifted of my body, both physically and emotionally.
But on the other hand it got very emotional too: i was thinking i shouldn't be having the period and that i should be having my baby now, it reminded me of mc too as that was the last time i bled. it was also way way way heavier then normal so i was worried until ob/gyn told me it is to be expected after the d&c (although my lining is pretty thin, i bled 5 times my normal flow).

the 1st two nights af arrived i cried myself to sleep, i couldn't help it, i just wanted to cry and get it all out.

I had no PMS whatsoever and af took me by surprise, so being sooo emotional the 1st two days really surprised me. i only later understood it was also due to the whole hormonal rush you get normally during the af, summed up with all the mc feelings& hormones. now that it's almost over i feel really better indeed.

thanks for opening up this topic, really makes me feel normal and accepted! and i agree with dani rose, if it wasn't for this forum i'd be insane by now!
thanks girls!

Thanks for your insight and stories. I'm so sorry you ladies are going through this too. Even though it's nice to have others to talk to and understand you... it makes me angry to know that others have suffered the same!

I guess what I'm feeling is normal!?! I just feel like a basket case somedays, one minute I can't wait for AF to show up and the other I'm dreading it!

I also don't have very many PMS symtoms so it will probably take me by surprise too.

Good luck ladies on your next month of TTC

ohhh newfiefan, i know it sounds absurd but it's totally normal to feel like a basket case when going through this!

and sooner you accept that it's normal to be one, the sooner it will pass

i wish you all the best with everything

For the past few months right before af arrives I feel all the emotions I felt right after the MC. It's amazing the emotional roller coaster our hormones will put us on.
I'm glad to be able to relate to you ladies on these forums....none of my girlfriends can understand as they haven't experienced a loss. Even though we are strangers it's nice to have the female support! I've stalked this website for a month now... glad to be a part of it!

i agree on every word you've written here - i'm in the same situation: don't have many female friends and the ones i know haven't been through this, so no one to talk to.. except of all of you wonderful girls here!

my af ended today, but weirdly i am bloated so badly, just like when i was pregnant (i figured out i am pregnant because the bloating was just BEYOND belief)... and it's kinda making me more emotional... hormones really play such a cruel game on us.

I had no idea AF was going to show. I started spotting the night I went for my post-op so I figured the doc had dislodged some things down there. It took me three full days to figure out it was my period--it was just so darn stinkin light and my periods are usually quite heavy, so I just wasn't sure. I was crying BUCKETS though. I cried almost the entire day after my appointment...and yes, seeing that first bit of blood was heart wrenching. It was like my uterus was crying over the baby. But, yeah...I've cried every day since last Thursday, and had a lovely massive fight with DH, which is par for the course for me during AF. He figured out I was having AF before I ever did. It has been a HIGHLY emotional weekend!

Glad to know I'm not the only one with emotions running high! I had a little break down yesterday. I bumped into a friend (more of a casual friend) at my kids skating practice yesterday evening. My daughter and her daughter are kind of friends and are in the same group. Her daughter Claire announces that they're going to find out what baby they're having on the weekend. I was like, "What!?!" I had no idea her mother was pregnant... now my daugther told me quite sometime ago that Claire said she was having a baby but I just assumed it was little girls making up stories (they're only 5 & 6 yrs. old). Turns out she's 24 wks and going to one of those special places where you pay for an ultrasound experience and find out the sex of the baby. Claire is obviously excited about this and I wanted to listen to the child but it was just like a knife cutting through me. After she rambled on about being a big sister again and what sex she was hoping for... my daughter pipes up and says in a very sad tone (keep in my mind she knows nothing about us trying to have a baby or any problems conceiving or the m/c), "My mommy can't give me a baby!" Well, it was just as well as someone pulled out my heart. I pushed my kids out onto the ice and spent the practice hiding in the bathroom crying!

When does this rollercoaster stop? I'd like to get off now!

I feel for you Newfiefan. Every time I turn around someone else is pregnant. It's been four months and I still have days where I cry a bit. But then there are a lot of days when I'm positive now too. Today I'm going to see an old friend who has a three year old a 14mo. Old and one on the way (due two weeks before I would've been due ). I haven't seen her since right before my MC in Dec. I finally feel like I'm ready and strong enough for it. Wish me luck!