Ok ladies brace yourselves, I'm sorry for doing this here but I feel like I really only know you guys on here, please dont feel the need to respond I'm just venting a little, and yes, I am in a bad bloody mood!

Ok so firstly I think we have sold our house, I say think because we are obviously waiting for surveys etc. which is great and what we have wanted a long time, only now my husband is in a constant mood, obsessing over everything, except me he was born in our spare room so I understand it's a wrench I'm not heartless but why oh why now! So no inclination to bd right when we need to. Oh I should mention my husband and ex wife also conceived their 2 daughters here! By blooming accident! And there is only 11 months between them! Typical. Then there's the little cbfm issue. No peaks no + opks no ewcm. The stress may be throwing me off a little I assume, I know I know I want it all to happen by the book, a miracle? Why the hell not! I deserve that don't I? Ooh and by the way hubby lost his job. It's ok we will manage but still, and then there is my boss. This is a lady who when I first knew my mum may have cancer told me I couldn't go to her (diagnosis or not) appointment, because she was having lunch with her sister, well she's one of those women who if you have a big house, hers is bigger, her gardens bigger, her car is better, if she had some awful mystery illness it would be the best mystery illness in the world! Well, her sister has been diagnosed with breast cancer also, and yep you guessed it, it's the worst cancer ever seen by doctors the world over! In fact I've even been told " oh claire, it's much worse than when your mum had it". Lol. Jeez this is gonna take up a whole page so I'm gonna stop there, thanks for listening, and sorry for the downer. I'm off for a cuppa, and to put myself back in that happy bubble xxx

Ok deep breath, vent over.

chicky aww it sounds like you have a lot going on atm.. And all poorly timed. Sorry too that your boss is such a cowbag

Smyth, dont worry too much, once you hear the heartbeat you will be just fine. Everyones body is different, and I am certain you and your Vegas beanie are fine xx

Chicky, hugs honey! It sounds like alot is going on, I agree with tinker. Deep breaths....you will get through it

Wow chicky, you've got a lot going on. Hang in there...

I've got what feels like it could be ovulation pain...cramping on right side...have I missed my chance? The only day in the last week we didn't bd was yesterday cos my boobs were SO sore...x

Thanks ladies, sun is shining and I'm feeling much better after my little outburst lol. Went to do a clients hair this morning, I've known for 15 yrs or so and she discovered yesterday her husband has been havin an affair for 3 years! You know what if we chucked all our problems in a pile with everyone else's I'd want mine back! I can't imagine being betrayed like that. Oh and five mins after my little rant the estate agents called and our buyer has pulled out so one less thing to worry about hey, although dh is now even more pissed than before lol. Men anywho ewcm started a little so we shall see, maybe I should suggest dusting off the saucy undies to cheer him up hehe x

Smythdm,

honey your going to be fine. I dont think your 15 DPO to be honest - unless that's the only BD you had although we think we know when we conceived we are often wrong.

ALL that matters is it doubles / significantly increases. Relax as best you can and don't worry if you cramp like hell / spot - its just beany getting snuggled in.


any questions you have please ask. My consultant said that women like you and i - ie ones who are actively trying to conceive - are the worst patients as we know too much and worry too much . And stress is the most dangerous thing of all.

He also told me drink lots of water, relax as best is possible and dont worry about the cramps - i was stunned at how strong they were - like i was getting my period but worse.

xxxxxx

Ive missed so much on here! Congratulations to you!!

Happy - thanks so much. I keep crying and I cannot focus on work or school or anything else. The next 24 hours is going to be torturous. I got what I think was ovulation spotting (which happens as or immediately before ovulation, I think) 2-3 days AFTER I thought I ovulated. That would be too early for IB as well. So hopefully thats it.

So, fingers crossed - I have blood test at 7 am tomorrow and will know results by no later than 4 pm. I've had no spotting, and cramps haven't been bad. Hopefully the progesterone will do the trick, but I hate it so so much - such a yucky feeling and they just make me feel gross. I'm just really thankful that I didn't tell anyone (family, friends), my only saving grace is that I don't have to deal with other people's questions and them saying the wrong thing. This has been the worst rollercoaster - it feels just cruel to deliver such a crushing blow when I was the happiest of happy. I guess lesson learned to guard my heart always. I am, however, eternally grateful that I showed up at the RE on Monday vs. my OB. He did the testing I wanted and took action quickly.

I'm sorry to be taking up so much space and time on here - I really appreciate you girls and the support. I'm scared to talk/post much on any other threads - I don't want to have to explain anything to anyone. I keep googling, its bad.