ha I got an antique one off ebay - a little art deco one with a saphire inbetween 2 diamonds - I like it :-)

Helen, the ring sounds just lovely.

Livi had her 12m injections yesterday.. 4 injections in 1 go which is always a bit much and I always wonder if I should split them up more. She had her MMR (1st dose) Varicella (1st dose) a meningitis one and a pnemonia one. She has been super unwell since she had them. She was vomiting every 40m or so from 8.30 last night till about 2pm today. After many phone calls etc and seeing our GP today turns it that its an extremely rare reaction to either the MMR or the Varicella as they are both live vaccines. After some pedialyte drinks and some tylenol suppositories she is a bit better. Had to do lots of adverse reaction forms with the public health team. Bit scary as she was shivering like mad with a huge fever too and at first I actually thought she was having a seizure.

Worried about the next ones at 18m... there will be a recommendation from the team who review the adverse reaction forms and they reckon they will still recommend the next dose because a day of vomiting will not outweigh the benefits of having the injections. I will think a bit more about it though.

Had to take today off work as I didn't want the nanny having to deal with it besides from 8.30 last night till bedtime tonight she was almost permanently attached to me with her head on my chest, crying, napping, or puking! Poor pumpkin. Hope she is better tomorrow.

Sorry to hear Livi had such a nbad reaction to her jabs. Sounds terrible for you and her. Poor little mite. Hope she is feeling better now big

Helen the ring shounds lovely! What time of year are you thinking of?

Rach how was CBT this week?

Fo has been unwell since monday, has high temp or fever, goes up and down, and everything is just going through him. 4th day of it now. Last night he would not be put down. got him down at 1 at last (thought it was he was hungery as hasn't wanted solids), but then just kept crying him his sleep all night, so went back to him at 4.30 for an hour and he managed to not cry till 8.20. This morning he has a fever again and all he wants is to sit on me, or feed. missed all our baby groups so far this week, sad we are missing swimming today. hoping we will be back next week.

oh no poor Livi! Ollie was booked in for today but his naps got messed up so he was tired and having one meltdown after the other, couldn't get him in his pushchair - so I put them off for 2 weeks as there was no point - he's having a late nap now - will have to wake him in a mo.

We are thinking march april next year

Poor Foley - hope he gets better!

Jo, I'm so sorry to hear about poor Livi. Bless her, hope she's in the mend soon

And poor Foley too. Hope he's better soon and you're managing to get some down time and you're not too tired

H, your ring sounds amazing, just the kind of thing I would like. Well done you getting it on ebay!

Just catching up on this week's obem!

cbt today was good. I really enjoyed watching back the 'watch and discover' and seeing how C interacts with me and stuff. Feeling a lot closer to him today.

She also shed light on his 9pm 'friek outs'. He would wake crying pretty bad and nothing appeased him. Nada. Until he accidentally woke up. He would stare at me as if to say 'Mummy, why are you holding me when I should be in my bed'. Anyways, seems he had night terrors. The last few nights he hasnt had them thank goodness so hopefully it was a phase that has now passed.

Helen - March/April would be a lovely time for a wedding. Its all so exciting. I am so happy for you. You should pop a pic on here of the ring when it arrives.

Lou - so sorry to hear that Fo isn't well either its just horrible to watch isn't it. Hope he is sleeping well tonight and feels better tomorrow.

Rach - glad that CBT was better today it sounds like it is already having some positive results. I hate to say it but the night terrors come and go. Euan went through a spell a few weeks ago having them almost every night for a week or so. They seem to happen for him more when he is over tired before bed time.

We are doing ok. I went back to work today and felt a bit guilty about that. Livi is still poorly but much better from yesterday, its kind of wierd to say and a bit horrible too, but her being so unwell really made me feel like her mummy. Up until now she has bonded with all of us but I never felt like I had a particularly special place for her until yesterday, and she wanted proper cuddles all day which was actually kind of lovely.

1 more day at work and then its the weekend again...yay!

Hello everyone. Bit of a rant alart I'm afraid.


Charlie is poorly AGAIN. again!! So annoying, I know all babies are ill but ffs Charlie, please cna you just get over this tummy bug in less than a month like normal children.

He has been throwing everything up all week and can only keep water down. Lost lots of weight. Worryingly, he is already on 'special milk' so there is nowhere to turn to for an answer on that front. Another kick in the ribs for me towards my bf failure.

Grr.

Rant over

if it's a tummy bug then it's nothing to do with bf Rach - don't beat yourself up- it's hard and stressful looking after them when they're poorly - you don't get downtime when they're ill which doesn't help so big

hope Charlie is through the worst if it - keep on at the drs if you are worried

Thanks H. going back to the docs tomorrow. Mum came down on Monday. Ralph and I were throwing up all Sunday night and we txt her at 5am to 'come asap, we are really ill boo hoo' and she got on the train at 8.45 and was here by 11. She is such a life saver, I am so lucky. She has been an absolute star all week helping but I am dreading tomorrow when she goes home. I just hate that none of the formulas agree with him and just feel that if he was on my milk then he wouldn't be throwing it all back but maybe he would so you never know x

Hope all our other poorly babies are on the mend too. Its certainly the month for it.

Tummy bugs must be doing the rounds worldwide. Olivia was super sick on Saturday morning we were really worried about her, took her to the doctor who told us to take her to the emergency department at the sick kids hospital. So we go there and by the time we arrive whatever was up with her was gone and she was back to her happy self, blowing raspberries and singing and we felt like total frauds. It was actually very funny.

Turns out her 'vaccine reaction' was totally a stomach bug. We know this because Euan started puking on Sunday, he puked from 2pm on Sunday afternoon till 5am on Monday morning. I was up all night and once he fell asleep at 5 I just got up and went to work. It was fun! I am pretty tired.

Steven and I have not got anything yet so I am hoping that it has bypassed us.

Rach try not to beat yourself up about the breast feeding. I punished myself for a long time for being unable to feed Euan and I punish myself for not being able to feed Livi. It makes me mad that one of my best friends at home can comfortably BF twins when I failed at feeding 1 baby. In baby club there is a thread for mums who are doing just this, grieving the fact that we were unable to BF. There are a lot of mums in there.

Hope your all well.

Just had a lovely phone call with Steven at his work which ended with him telling me I should go and see someone about my 'low moods'. I am so fed up, lonely, frustrated, missing the kids but I also feel that when I do see them for the 2 hours before bedtime, I feel quite detached and I don't interact with them properly. Euan told me tonight that he wanted me to go back to work so our nanny could come in, I know its what children do but it has really upset me. I just can't help feeling like such an utterly crap mother.

I see Steven for about 50 minutes Mon-Sat afternoon and we have Saturday afternoon and Sunday together, I feel that we are starting to struggle because we are not spending any time together. I desperately want to go back to Edinburgh, but Steven doesn;t and he takes every opportunity to tell me how crap our life is going to be there and how he hates it. He tells me if I want to go home then we better get used to the kids never getting jobs and becoming kids with ASBOs.

I suppose I just feel very alone over here, with no one who cares about me. I have tried to make friends but I have to say Canadians are a bit wierd and I have put in so much effort with a lot of people with no result. Its one of those things that I am always the one to phone,email,facebook with places to meet. I have stopped and as a result have not spoken to anyone in a social setting since I started work. Its crap!

Anyway, need to get to bed!

Sorry for ranting again. I am so f*****g fed up of crying at the drop of a pin, being over emotional.

On the up side started folic acid at the weekend. Not sure if its going to get me anywhere. Steven told me that we must have had a conversation that he knows nothing about.

I don't think I have depression, I think I am just fed up with our circumstances and after almost 6 years of missing home, its taking more of a toll on me now.