Honestly I wish I hadn't of SS'd as much, I was obsessed with checking my cm,bbs etc.. I've only had significant increased cm since 3rd tri I'd say!

Can't wait for your testing

x

truly and brassy, your posts made me feel sad
I know I am not in the same boat anymore so in a way perhaps what i say doesn't have the same leverage. But all of what you said was me only a few months ago. It is so scary being 35 without feeling hope of one day being a parent. It is deeply traumatising and i still feel the effects of it today. I still tear up every time I think about what DH and I went through to be at the point we are today. Every day I am so so grateful to be healthy and pregnant and wish that I stay this way.

All i can say is please don't give up. It is too soon to be thinking about adoption. If your road leads to IVF yes it is scary, expensive emotionally draining and there is no guarantees but I would do it all over again in a minute.When it works (and it will) it is magical.

Having said that I will be thinking of you over these next few days.

Re: progesterone- everyone is different so other people's symptoms were not that helpful! the only reason i thought I was in with a chance was because i started spotting early. No other symptoms. The bloating cramps etc started happening after the bfp.

mrsP, omg you are a watermelon now!!! anything happening yet??

MrsG I am thinking about you. hope all okay x

Aleja I've been a watermelon for over a week now! No, had a few shooting pains but I think that's just the baby moving my pelvis. I have had a busy first week on mat leave & have another busy week next week (catch up with friends!) so baby P needs to stay put another week! How are you?

x

Thanks Aleja. You have every credential to speak on this and your words have a lot of weight. Because of where you are now, you speak wisdom. In fact, when I look at your journey.....I truly feel you've been the strongest. And yet you made it out...You deserve every bit of happiness this outcome has brought. I just wish I can fast forward time, like Brassy said. I can fight, I can keep fighting.......only if I knew it would be worth it in the end. But we just don't know. When IVF fails, like it did for youthe very first time, what the hell do you do or think, how does ones mind cope? And then to keep going and keep trying...OMG.....You are truly amazing Aleja.

Good luck for testing tomorrow truly!

MrsPTTC - wow, wow, wow! 8th cycle! That's crazy and GREAT for sticking through with it. When's your due date?!

aleja - I hope the back pain has subsided, how are you feeling?!

cupcakesarah - no IUI. DH has no issues. bloating happens post-o, no? could be a good sign... as horrible as it feels...

Trulyoo - I'm so sorry about your situation..I hope you get your BFP soon. I just started progesterone for the first time and I've been having a couple of odd symptoms (dizziness and ear plugging). Spoke w 2 gfs who both said progesterone doesn't give side effects... weird eh? maybe some ppl get them and some ppl don't.

brassy - oh.... hon.... you made me think of Christmases... I want a baby for Christmas... and/or the next year, and then the year after....

Hi girls, I gave in today just a little while ago and poas. It was bfn as I suspected. Had a really good cry, called my mom and sobbed to DH. I love my family so much. I'm broken but they make me feel like everything will be alright. I know you girls are sad for me to, you're all my friends. But DH reminded me about the game plan. One more iui and then let my body rest for a cycle and then start IVF. So I have to stick to the plan. Plans are good, keeps me focused. Luv u all

Oh Truly, I'm so so sorry

Lily, good luck this cycle!

Cupcake, how are you feeling!

Broody, has spotting stopped now?

Mrsp, bet you can't wait!

Aleja, you ok Hun?

Brassy, hanging in there?

Truly, I'm sorry it was a bfn. I am still hoping your bfp is a little shy but even if its a real negative, stay strong. Infertility sucks. Unexplained also makes your mind go nuts. But as you say there's a plan. Hang in there truly and enjoy the weekend relaxing with loving hubby. Xxx