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inked_mama · Apr 14th, 2012, 21:07 PM

I feel horrible for feeling this way, but I am not excited at all to be having twins. I am only about 8 weeks along, but I am already fearing just about everything to come. I can't afford to not work, but I work in a factory and our schedules change every week. one week I'm on 3rd shift, next im on 2nd and then 1st. and then it starts all over. How in the world am I going to find a sitter to watch twins at all hours??
My OH makes enough to pay our mortgage and some bills, and my pay goes to all bills as well.
I dunno, this is our first pregnancy and twins is just overwhelming. All i want to do is cry and run away from all this....but I can't of course. I don't want my OH to see me freaking out so badly over all this.

(i dont think it helps that i have depression/anxiety issues normally and can't take my medications now ....)
being sick, birth, maternity leave, breastfeeding, money, work....*brain explodes*
sorry for the blah post...i guess i just had to vent. thanks for listening.

Kielee · Apr 15th, 2012, 12:35 PM

It's alot to get your head round Hun, iv had freak outs on an almost weekly basis since finding out.

Im having my twins on Tuesday and im still panicking but we have been chosen to be twin mummies for a reason I believe and it's amazing what you can do when you need to

x

ClairHawkins · Apr 15th, 2012, 13:12 PM

Its a huge shock, give yourself some time hun x x

tweety pie · Apr 15th, 2012, 13:26 PM

Each day that goes by i get more worried, i want to be a good mummy but am so frightened that i will fail and that i will let my babies down.
OH keeps lifting my spirits saying i will be a good mummy and deep down i know i will.

arj · Apr 15th, 2012, 23:17 PM

hopefully you feel better after 1st tri when you get some energy back, it is definitely daunting tho isnt it

Apr 14th, 2012, 21:07 PM	#1
inked_mama Pregnant (Expecting) Active BnB Member Join Date: May 2011 Location: Virginia Posts: 45	ready to break I feel horrible for feeling this way, but I am not excited at all to be having twins. I am only about 8 weeks along, but I am already fearing just about everything to come. I can't afford to not work, but I work in a factory and our schedules change every week. one week I'm on 3rd shift, next im on 2nd and then 1st. and then it starts all over. How in the world am I going to find a sitter to watch twins at all hours?? My OH makes enough to pay our mortgage and some bills, and my pay goes to all bills as well. I dunno, this is our first pregnancy and twins is just overwhelming. All i want to do is cry and run away from all this....but I can't of course. I don't want my OH to see me freaking out so badly over all this. (i dont think it helps that i have depression/anxiety issues normally and can't take my medications now ....) being sick, birth, maternity leave, breastfeeding, money, work....brain explodes sorry for the blah post...i guess i just had to vent. thanks for listening.

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Apr 15th, 2012, 12:35 PM	#2
Kielee Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: Lincolnshire Posts: 914	It's alot to get your head round Hun, iv had freak outs on an almost weekly basis since finding out. Im having my twins on Tuesday and im still panicking but we have been chosen to be twin mummies for a reason I believe and it's amazing what you can do when you need to x

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Apr 15th, 2012, 13:12 PM	#3
ClairHawkins Pregnant (Expecting) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jan 2011 Location: Wales Posts: 476	Its a huge shock, give yourself some time hun x x

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Apr 15th, 2012, 13:26 PM	#4
tweety pie Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: May 2011 Posts: 437	Each day that goes by i get more worried, i want to be a good mummy but am so frightened that i will fail and that i will let my babies down. OH keeps lifting my spirits saying i will be a good mummy and deep down i know i will.

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Apr 15th, 2012, 23:17 PM	#5
arj Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Down Under Posts: 4,446	hopefully you feel better after 1st tri when you get some energy back, it is definitely daunting tho isnt it

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