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Old May 9th, 2016, 11:54 AM   311
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Haha yes I can imagine working with a 2-year old might prove difficult! Fingers crossed another opportunity will come up for her soon. Plus if she’s a bit older, your husband might be happier about her heading to the City.

I also feel quite good about this cycle! Just one of those feelings…
But it’s a strange feeling of good as at the same time that I’m feeling very positive about a BFP I know that I wouldn’t be devastated with a BFN because I have so much going on in the next month that I’m looking forward to that I feel that time will fly by and I’d be In the next TWW in no time. Obviously the BFP would be the preferred option though!

How weird that you mention the 24th !
A) What a lovely present it would be being the anniversary of the day you met / got engaged
B) I checked what my due date would be = 25th Jan and 25th is the date we got married - Would be even better if it was 25th Feb as that’s our actual anniversary but I’ll take Jan 25th as a default haha.
You are always thinking positive, I love it! I have a horrible habit of being a negative Nellie so its nice to have that counterpoint on this thread!

I'll be honest, I was very hesitant to mention the 24th thing because I feel like it's me looking into things I shouldn't look into. We shall see lol.

I don't think I could feel anything but disappointed if I got a BFN...I think it's the miscarriage haunting me, I truly do. 😥



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In general I'm a pretty positive and cheerful person well so people always tell me! I have a pretty happy life so a little one would just add to that

I can only imagine how you feel Rose awful. No matter how you think and feel it's always going to be a part of you. I'm sure you said earlier in the thread but when was the Mc? Obvs you don't have to answer that if you don't want to!! X



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In general I'm a pretty positive and cheerful person well so people always tell me! I have a pretty happy life so a little one would just add to that

I can only imagine how you feel Rose awful. No matter how you think and feel it's always going to be a part of you. I'm sure you said earlier in the thread but when was the Mc? Obvs you don't have to answer that if you don't want to!! X
I am positive about everyone's life but mine, honestly.

My miscarriage was in January of this year...I guess maybe that's another reason why it would be nice to be successful this cycle because it would be like it came full circle.

I had been working in a daycare center when it happened and I ended up taking a leave of absence. There were two teachers there who were pregnant and one not that much further along than I would have been and it was just too painful for me. I ended up finding the job I have now and it's been better, but I do find that once AF comes it's like a trigger for me. Near the end, I start getting hopeful again, but it's a process.

I still haven't formally quit the other job - I couldn't bear to do it since they had always been so wonderful to me and Gabrielle so instead I became on-call for them. I still haven't done anything yet...I'm just trying to decide whether or not I'm ready for it yet.



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Wow that sounds really tough. It's hard enough working in a daycare centre with constant reminders let alone having other people around you that are pregnant.
Not sure what it is but every seems to be pregnant at the moment!
youre incredibly amazing to work on-call and put yourself into that situation again.
I really do have my fingers crossed for you this month, you really deserve the chance to be a mum again and give Gabrielle the chance to be an amazing big sister xx



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Wow that sounds really tough. It's hard enough working in a daycare centre with constant reminders let alone having other people around you that are pregnant.
Not sure what it is but every seems to be pregnant at the moment!
youre incredibly amazing to work on-call and put yourself into that situation again.
I really do have my fingers crossed for you this month, you really deserve the chance to be a mum again and give Gabrielle the chance to be an amazing big sister xx
Thank you so much for the kind words!! ❤️❤️ I really appreciate it.

It truly does seem that way in those moments. To make it worse, everytime I called to check-in, the tactless Assistant Director would find some way to make it worse. One time I called and she decided to just tell me about scheduling her maternity leave. This when I was actively miscarrying and was telling her that I had to go to the ER the night before.
The next time I called she thought it was a fabulous idea to tell me about all the new people who were pregnant. It was horrible. Thank goodness she is gone now. I couldn't take that. I would hang up the phone in tears every time.

I think that's really most of why I want this so badly - I feel like it was snatched away from me. I want Gabrielle to be a big sister so much.



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HELLO!!!!!

I am back - and have returned to a sombre note :[ the moment you first realise you are miscarrying is awful awful awful. Before we conceived Daisy I was actually trying on my wedding dress when I noticed I was bleeding :[ people were none the wiser as we didn't tell anyone except my work which was a fruit and veg shop and my coworker said "better luck next time"? Not sure how I feel about that still!! Your situation sounds awful. What a cow that woman was! Big hugs to you xxx

I'm sorry I've been MIA - two April birthdays have left my house in a proper state! Presents without places to be put away etc and I've basically just thrown myself in to the house chores, gutted the lounge and also had to go shopping because suddenly all my kids needed sandals/hats/underwear/shorts/shoes! I know I will be obsessively symptom spotting so I wanted to have a little break from thinking about TTC until the TWW started for me! Ovia tells me it will be tomorrow (technically today as gone midnight) but no cramps yet! Daisy has been fussing though at the breast which she always does pre ovulation and pre AF. Eeeeep :] had some amazing sex last night hehe, DH has Crohn's and is often feeling too ill for nooky which makes it harder for us so I just have to hope... I know it only takes 1 so fingers crossed - for all of us.

You ladies are so sweet to worry about me! I thought I'd been gone so long I may have been excluded from our clique haha. I am kinda looking forward to you guys testing before me! Nice to hopefully be able to congratulate you. I had a long break from Facebook recently and I logged on last week to find my co worker from like 2009 is 20 weeks pregnant! She was trying for about 4 years and is 40 now so I'm over the moon for her. You're right everyone is pregnant! Xx



 
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HELLO!!!!!

I am back - and have returned to a sombre note :[ the moment you first realise you are miscarrying is awful awful awful. Before we conceived Daisy I was actually trying on my wedding dress when I noticed I was bleeding :[ people were none the wiser as we didn't tell anyone except my work which was a fruit and veg shop and my coworker said "better luck next time"? Not sure how I feel about that still!! Your situation sounds awful. What a cow that woman was! Big hugs to you xxx

I'm sorry I've been MIA - two April birthdays have left my house in a proper state! Presents without places to be put away etc and I've basically just thrown myself in to the house chores, gutted the lounge and also had to go shopping because suddenly all my kids needed sandals/hats/underwear/shorts/shoes! I know I will be obsessively symptom spotting so I wanted to have a little break from thinking about TTC until the TWW started for me! Ovia tells me it will be tomorrow (technically today as gone midnight) but no cramps yet! Daisy has been fussing though at the breast which she always does pre ovulation and pre AF. Eeeeep :] had some amazing sex last night hehe, DH has Crohn's and is often feeling too ill for nooky which makes it harder for us so I just have to hope... I know it only takes 1 so fingers crossed - for all of us.

You ladies are so sweet to worry about me! I thought I'd been gone so long I may have been excluded from our clique haha. I am kinda looking forward to you guys testing before me! Nice to hopefully be able to congratulate you. I had a long break from Facebook recently and I logged on last week to find my co worker from like 2009 is 20 weeks pregnant! She was trying for about 4 years and is 40 now so I'm over the moon for her. You're right everyone is pregnant! Xx
Yay!!! So happy that you're back!! We've missed you, sticky! Glad you are doing well!!!

I am so sorry to hear about that sticky - to have that moment during that period of time that is supposed to be so happy. Huge hugs!! Hoping against hope that like you, I can conceive my rainbow soon. And yes, that woman is truly horrible. I wanted to scream when my coworkers asked me whether I wanted to go to her baby shower. I did not react well at all!

Feeling kind of on top of the world now - one of the girls here is having some issues and I was able to help her think of coping mechanisms that would help her. Turned her mood right around!

Hope you will stick around now, sticky!! ❤️



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Morning Ladies,

Sticky!! WELCOME BACK!! We were worried about you! Sounds like its been a hectic past couple of weeks for you!

Aww ladies, neither of you have had it very easy, and those awful comments from co-workers really doesnt help. Some people can be so insensitive, they simply have no idea.

CD21 for me today with AF due next Tues. This is going to sound ludicrous haha but I dont think its going to happen for me this month, yes I have a feeling already when yesterday i was feeling really positive. So basically I have one of those massive sore under the skin spots coming up on my chin (Very annoying!!) and I often get one a week before AF. So yes i've ruled myself out. Am I being ridiculous? lol.

We were lying in bed last night and I said to my husband, my next fertile time is when we are on holiday in Italy... I think he was quite excited knowing he was going to get lucky most nights we are away

Anyway, we shall see... this spot has totally changed my good feeling, its now a good feeling for next time.

Keep me posted on any signs girls! x



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Morning Ladies,

Sticky!! WELCOME BACK!! We were worried about you! Sounds like its been a hectic past couple of weeks for you!

Aww ladies, neither of you have had it very easy, and those awful comments from co-workers really doesnt help. Some people can be so insensitive, they simply have no idea.

CD21 for me today with AF due next Tues. This is going to sound ludicrous haha but I dont think its going to happen for me this month, yes I have a feeling already when yesterday i was feeling really positive. So basically I have one of those massive sore under the skin spots coming up on my chin (Very annoying!!) and I often get one a week before AF. So yes i've ruled myself out. Am I being ridiculous? lol.

We were lying in bed last night and I said to my husband, my next fertile time is when we are on holiday in Italy... I think he was quite excited knowing he was going to get lucky most nights we are away

Anyway, we shall see... this spot has totally changed my good feeling, its now a good feeling for next time.

Keep me posted on any signs girls! x
Men are so funny like that, Kiwi...mine is always the same way, haha!

(I think I will change what I call you to Kiwi, knowing what I know about you now ❤️)

No, you aren't crazy, lol. We are all always looking for some sort of pattern one way or another.

That being said, you never know!

This morning my husband asked me if I was alright because I was tossing and turning all night lol. Who knows what that behavior is about! I'm guessing I don't do that much given his comment, though it could be stress.

The only weird things that happened last night were two things - this weird pain on the side where my ovary is, where we all got pain last month and it meant nothing for any of us lol. And then, my blood sugar patterns...I have been fighting with my blood sugar for the past few days...and I almost never have issues with it. I don't know if that's a sign or just a sign I need to be careful with how many carbs I am giving for each meal when I am giving myself insulin. Oh yeah, and then the same old bloody nose and the same discharge.

So, all in all, same old same old. Lol



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Ha yes! I much prefer Kiwi given i'm from New Zealand... just live in London, although I did get my British passport last year so im a bit of Brit too.... but 99% Kiwi

So this morning I was putting my make up on in the mirror and noticed a bit of blood beside my nose. I got proper excited thinking i was having the same sign as you... but nope, i'm just mental and had scratched myself lol.

That stabbing pain in the ovary hasn't happened to me this month yet... last month I got that on 4/5 DPO but havent felt it thus far.

The insulin thing i can imagine must wreck havoc with symptoms... you dont know if its that, the trigger shot or perhaps some BFP signs! It is such a guessing and waiting game isnt it!



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