The psychosis thread

hellohefalump · Dec 14th, 2012, 13:35 PM

Thought I'd start a thread for anyone suffering with schizophrenia, schizoaffective, puerpal psychosis, psychotic depression, psychotic bipolar or anything else involving psychosis that I haven't thought of.

I'll start, my name is Helena and I am schizoaffective. I've had depression since I was twelve, and the schizo bit started when I was pregnant with my son. At the time they called it puerpal psychosis, but now three years on I still get it and its called schizoaffective disorder.

It's getting worse with each episode, I've just come up of hospital after a particularly bad episode where the devil came to me and told me to take an overdose or he'd start the apocalypse. I took the overdose and ended up in the hospital.

I'm now on so many meds I rattle.... Duloxetine 60mg, aripiprazole 25mg, quetiapine 400 mg + whenever I need it for my anxiety, which is about four times a day 50mg each.

Even if no one else answers this, which means im lonely

I will keep this thread going by myself as a log, and a tool for others who haven't 'come out' yet.

GenYsuperlady · Dec 14th, 2012, 20:15 PM

Fellow BDFer/underwater basketweaver? This is JenB...

hellohefalump · Dec 15th, 2012, 04:34 AM

Jen b!!!! Hiya!!!!

GenYsuperlady · Dec 15th, 2012, 10:26 AM

Did you get postpartum depression? Or psychosis? My first little baby girl arrived 4 weeks ago and I'm battling postpartum depression. Would love to hear someone else's experience!

hellohefalump · Dec 15th, 2012, 12:03 PM

I had both Jen. I was only really treated for the psychosis though. My depression made me feel like such a crap mum that I enrolled mojo at the childminders full time for a year! I loved him, but I wanted a better life for him, so I enrolled on a course so he could be at the childminders and not be with me.

It sounds ridiculous now, of course I could have looked after him. Maybe I wasn't a great mum, but I was adequate-good I can see that now.

Congrats on your new baby!

GenYsuperlady · Dec 16th, 2012, 22:24 PM

I've thought of going back to work early for similar reasons!
The depression/anxiety is hard to face at such a crap time but I'm getting good treatment and its starting to help. I'm so in love with the little bundle! I am hopeful

Sorry to hijack your thread...PM or FB me anytime

hellohefalump · Dec 17th, 2012, 13:30 PM

I'm glad you're getting help, meds can do wonders if you work with them. Hopefully your pnd will pass soon and you can start enjoying your little baby. Please don't go back to work too soon, I was miserable the whole time and it made me feel like an even worse mum, if that was possible because I was missing all his milestones. Crawling, rolling, smiling.... The lot. I wish I'd had help for the depression like you are, for some reason the professionals tend to take psychosis a lot more seriously than depression.... But for someone suffering from them both, they're both as bad as each other

hellohefalump · Dec 24th, 2012, 15:56 PM

Omg Xmas stressing me out. I have anxiety at the best of times ....

GenYsuperlady · Dec 26th, 2012, 13:48 PM

Vent away - what's been going on?
I spent so long dreading Christmas Eve (moms bday) and Christmas. I am just sooooooo glad it's over and mom FINALLY leaving today.

Spill your guts, lady.

kmh2012 · Dec 27th, 2012, 10:15 AM

im a bpd sufferer, i have psychotic episodes. Im currently in hospital and have been in continuously for 18 months. on and off for 3.5 years. my DS is 3.5 years old. ive been ill since age 9 though. I am due for discharge on 3rd january and am terrified. I dont think i can cope at home but i cant tell my family as they are so looking forward to me coming home.

Dec 14th, 2012, 13:35 PM	#1
hellohefalump BnB Addict Join Date: Jul 2009 Country: Posts: 2,551 Thanked others: 261 Thanked 868 times in 821 posts	~. The psychosis thread .~ Thought I'd start a thread for anyone suffering with schizophrenia, schizoaffective, puerpal psychosis, psychotic depression, psychotic bipolar or anything else involving psychosis that I haven't thought of. I'll start, my name is Helena and I am schizoaffective. I've had depression since I was twelve, and the schizo bit started when I was pregnant with my son. At the time they called it puerpal psychosis, but now three years on I still get it and its called schizoaffective disorder. It's getting worse with each episode, I've just come up of hospital after a particularly bad episode where the devil came to me and told me to take an overdose or he'd start the apocalypse. I took the overdose and ended up in the hospital. I'm now on so many meds I rattle.... Duloxetine 60mg, aripiprazole 25mg, quetiapine 400 mg + whenever I need it for my anxiety, which is about four times a day 50mg each. Even if no one else answers this, which means im lonely I will keep this thread going by myself as a log, and a tool for others who haven't 'come out' yet. __________________ Last edited by hellohefalump; Dec 14th, 2012 at 13:36 PM..
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GenYsuperlady Chat Happy BnB Member Summer - born 11/16/2012 Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: Portland, Oregon Country: Posts: 1,181 Thanked others: 131 Thanked 481 times in 399 posts Currently Feeling:	Did you get postpartum depression? Or psychosis? My first little baby girl arrived 4 weeks ago and I'm battling postpartum depression. Would love to hear someone else's experience!
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hellohefalump BnB Addict Join Date: Jul 2009 Country: Posts: 2,551 Thanked others: 261 Thanked 868 times in 821 posts	I had both Jen. I was only really treated for the psychosis though. My depression made me feel like such a crap mum that I enrolled mojo at the childminders full time for a year! I loved him, but I wanted a better life for him, so I enrolled on a course so he could be at the childminders and not be with me. It sounds ridiculous now, of course I could have looked after him. Maybe I wasn't a great mum, but I was adequate-good I can see that now. Congrats on your new baby! Last edited by hellohefalump; Dec 15th, 2012 at 12:03 PM..
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GenYsuperlady Chat Happy BnB Member Summer - born 11/16/2012 Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: Portland, Oregon Country: Posts: 1,181 Thanked others: 131 Thanked 481 times in 399 posts Currently Feeling:	I've thought of going back to work early for similar reasons! The depression/anxiety is hard to face at such a crap time but I'm getting good treatment and its starting to help. I'm so in love with the little bundle! I am hopeful Sorry to hijack your thread...PM or FB me anytime
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hellohefalump BnB Addict Join Date: Jul 2009 Country: Posts: 2,551 Thanked others: 261 Thanked 868 times in 821 posts	I'm glad you're getting help, meds can do wonders if you work with them. Hopefully your pnd will pass soon and you can start enjoying your little baby. Please don't go back to work too soon, I was miserable the whole time and it made me feel like an even worse mum, if that was possible because I was missing all his milestones. Crawling, rolling, smiling.... The lot. I wish I'd had help for the depression like you are, for some reason the professionals tend to take psychosis a lot more seriously than depression.... But for someone suffering from them both, they're both as bad as each other
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Dec 24th, 2012, 15:56 PM	#8
hellohefalump BnB Addict Join Date: Jul 2009 Country: Posts: 2,551 Thanked others: 261 Thanked 868 times in 821 posts	Omg Xmas stressing me out. I have anxiety at the best of times ....
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GenYsuperlady Chat Happy BnB Member Summer - born 11/16/2012 Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: Portland, Oregon Country: Posts: 1,181 Thanked others: 131 Thanked 481 times in 399 posts Currently Feeling:	Vent away - what's been going on? I spent so long dreading Christmas Eve (moms bday) and Christmas. I am just sooooooo glad it's over and mom FINALLY leaving today. Spill your guts, lady.
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kmh2012 New BnB Member Join Date: Dec 2012 Country: Posts: 9 Thanked others: 0 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	bpd im a bpd sufferer, i have psychotic episodes. Im currently in hospital and have been in continuously for 18 months. on and off for 3.5 years. my DS is 3.5 years old. ive been ill since age 9 though. I am due for discharge on 3rd january and am terrified. I dont think i can cope at home but i cant tell my family as they are so looking forward to me coming home.
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