Self harm/ Self injury support - Page 2

thestarsfall · Apr 7th, 2012, 23:09 PM

I used to cut a lot..and OD on various OTC pills. I haven't cut in several years (lost count, but not more than 3...I found trying to keep count was it's own sorta trigger) but I still occasionally get the urge to do it, and I still occasionally will minor OD on tylenol or something. I don't think the urges will ever go away honestly. It's like in Girl, Interrupted when she's like talking about thinking about suicide all the time...some days all I think about is cutting but I don't do it.

What helped me the most was that I was kinda forced to either quit or explain everything to a whole bunch of random people. I had gone to massage school and we learn on each other so it's not like I could just hide the fact that I was freshly cut up and there is very little skin area that we did not expose (hahaa that sounds weird cuz its school). So I just had to quit. That and a really supportive OH.

However, I still have almost all my tools of self destruction...so I don't consider myself fully recovered.

Pixoletta · May 11th, 2012, 06:39 AM

Can i join? I started self harming age 12 then i stopped at 19 and have self harmed twice since then. I'm now 22 so i'm doing pretty good. I still get very strong urges but try my best not to act upon them. Support always here if you need it

BadassMom · May 11th, 2012, 12:25 PM

I'd like to join also, if that's ok. I started cutting at age 15, stopped around age 17 and have had a few "relapses" since then. I also still have the urge to cut, even though I'm 24 now. Not to mention I (like all of us) still have to deal with the scars. My most severe cutting happened when I first started and I have scars clustered all over the lower half of the left arm, so their pretty visible. How do you ladies deal when people ask where your scars come from? I used to lie about it, but now I just say I don't want to talk about it. It would be nice talking with people on here who understand where I'm coming from though.

BadassMom · May 11th, 2012, 12:28 PM

By the way Siyren: I LOVE your avatar!!! Dean Winchester is awesome, so is supernatural!!

modified · May 11th, 2012, 13:08 PM

I self harmed for 14/15 years and have been "clean" for about a year now. I'm doing good

Pixoletta · May 12th, 2012, 16:18 PM

BadAss Mom i used to hide my scars so people didn't ask but if they did i would just say i had a past i'd rather forget or if there are a lot of scars then most people realise and do not ask the question.

BadassMom · May 14th, 2012, 09:33 AM

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Originally Posted by Pixoletta

BadAss Mom i used to hide my scars so people didn't ask but if they did i would just say i had a past i'd rather forget or if there are a lot of scars then most people realise and do not ask the question.

I hid mine for a long time as well with long sleeves or arm bands but as the ones on my arm started to fade away and turn white I realized it was harder hiding them than just dealing with the occasional question. Also, I think not being afraid to let them show from my self confidence growing as well.

Mrs_X · May 14th, 2012, 15:13 PM

i self harmed for 6 years, but been 'clean' for 3 years

. i used to cut my legs and wrists and have scars. i have had urges recently due to PND but im coping x

BadassMom · May 15th, 2012, 09:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Mrs_X

i self harmed for 6 years, but been 'clean' for 3 years

. i used to cut my legs and wrists and have scars. i have had urges recently due to PND but im coping x

Good for you for resisting the urges! I've been nervous my whole pregnancy about PND.

EmilyDB1993 · May 16th, 2012, 12:18 PM

I self harmed from when I was 8 up until a few months ago, and I'm 18 now. I had an abusive family and I was bullied a lot in school and in the streets, so I really had no escape.

I'm covered in scars, wrists, arms, shoulders, thighs, stomach, throat, there's a lot of them, people here just look at them and pretend they haven't seen them, thank God!

Apr 7th, 2012, 23:09 PM	#11
thestarsfall Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Canada Posts: 363	I used to cut a lot..and OD on various OTC pills. I haven't cut in several years (lost count, but not more than 3...I found trying to keep count was it's own sorta trigger) but I still occasionally get the urge to do it, and I still occasionally will minor OD on tylenol or something. I don't think the urges will ever go away honestly. It's like in Girl, Interrupted when she's like talking about thinking about suicide all the time...some days all I think about is cutting but I don't do it. What helped me the most was that I was kinda forced to either quit or explain everything to a whole bunch of random people. I had gone to massage school and we learn on each other so it's not like I could just hide the fact that I was freshly cut up and there is very little skin area that we did not expose (hahaa that sounds weird cuz its school). So I just had to quit. That and a really supportive OH. However, I still have almost all my tools of self destruction...so I don't consider myself fully recovered.

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May 11th, 2012, 06:39 AM	#12
Pixoletta Pregnant (Expecting) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: UK Posts: 1,005	Can i join? I started self harming age 12 then i stopped at 19 and have self harmed twice since then. I'm now 22 so i'm doing pretty good. I still get very strong urges but try my best not to act upon them. Support always here if you need it

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May 11th, 2012, 12:25 PM	#13
BadassMom Mum (Mom) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: Michigan, USA Posts: 1,236	I'd like to join also, if that's ok. I started cutting at age 15, stopped around age 17 and have had a few "relapses" since then. I also still have the urge to cut, even though I'm 24 now. Not to mention I (like all of us) still have to deal with the scars. My most severe cutting happened when I first started and I have scars clustered all over the lower half of the left arm, so their pretty visible. How do you ladies deal when people ask where your scars come from? I used to lie about it, but now I just say I don't want to talk about it. It would be nice talking with people on here who understand where I'm coming from though.

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May 11th, 2012, 12:28 PM	#14
BadassMom Mum (Mom) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: Michigan, USA Posts: 1,236	By the way Siyren: I LOVE your avatar!!! Dean Winchester is awesome, so is supernatural!!

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May 11th, 2012, 13:08 PM	#15
modified Waiting To Try (WTT) Active BnB Member Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Edinburgh Posts: 586	I self harmed for 14/15 years and have been "clean" for about a year now. I'm doing good

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May 12th, 2012, 16:18 PM	#16
Pixoletta Pregnant (Expecting) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2010 Location: UK Posts: 1,005	BadAss Mom i used to hide my scars so people didn't ask but if they did i would just say i had a past i'd rather forget or if there are a lot of scars then most people realise and do not ask the question.

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May 14th, 2012, 15:13 PM	#18
Mrs_X Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: May 2011 Location: Leeds, UK Posts: 640	i self harmed for 6 years, but been 'clean' for 3 years . i used to cut my legs and wrists and have scars. i have had urges recently due to PND but im coping x

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May 16th, 2012, 12:18 PM	#20
EmilyDB1993 Waiting To Try (WTT) Active BnB Member Join Date: Dec 2011 Posts: 328	I self harmed from when I was 8 up until a few months ago, and I'm 18 now. I had an abusive family and I was bullied a lot in school and in the streets, so I really had no escape. I'm covered in scars, wrists, arms, shoulders, thighs, stomach, throat, there's a lot of them, people here just look at them and pretend they haven't seen them, thank God!

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